MERRY CHRISTMAS my friends.

messages for ur in advance. cuz i will be away.

sorry if i've been..mia and not very myself recently. i guess family's issues r back to haunt sapping my energy n ermz.. vibrancy? haha i'm coping.. coping as in adjusting to regain stability in the family. its slowly regaingin a new stability, but we all still need time. =)

i know many of u express concern. just that.. i find it really difficult to explain whats exactly going on. its so complicated till i'm dumbfounded. when i don't know how to explain so that others will know right? yeah. something like that. n i dun know where to start sharing from.

so let me apologize if i seem to space out sometimes. sorry.

thank you all for being such wonderful friends. who listen, who shows concern, who tries to catch up n 'deposit' into our friendship account (my friend/colleague used banks as analogy for friendship. haha).

although i'll be away this xmas, i hope ur have a splendid celebration! a greater new year! and many many happy memories.

i think even when i'm in cheenaland, i will miss the xmas celebrations with u all. esp mgirls! haha suddenly i recalled we watch a super emo movie @ wing's n went home w goldfish eyes last year. i think. haha

Merry Christmas! =)

it feels so surrealll

i'm flying away on 21st for 19 dayyys!

that is damn long i know. first far far long long trip for me. backpack, winter, hostel. so exciting and so scarryyyy! haha

hopefully we all won't fall out from facing each other for so damn long. haha i had a nightmare abt that. no joke manz.

tibet! great wall! pandas! cheena sch! so many new things!!

but for 18dayyyys..

no snaff, no fri every night.. that.. is quite worrying.
no familiar bed.
no random chit chats w mom (n her nagging).
no dad to feed me.
no mgirls to chat w.
no meeting up w sw buddies.
minimal security.
brand new environment.
no warmth. hope i dun die freezing.
minimal internet time.
no msn.
no sgd.
no income.
no trusty shopowners.
no strict laws.
no fines.
few clean toilets.
no certainty abt whats on my plate.

oooooh. haha but i think i'm glad i made the decision to go. heh heh. i'm excited. n tired from packing. 18days of necessities in my backpack sounds scary.

i wish i have doraemon. maybe it'll be better if its a dog version. hahahha

bye bye sgd for many many day. i'll be back on 8th.

take care my frenz. =)

packing my room. packing my house.

a lot of structural change.

get rid of those junks. persuade others to get rid of those junks.

pls do not let things deteriorate further. hanging on hard to what i have. hanging on tight to the belief that it will all turn out better.

hanging on tight to snaff n fri.

we are learning to be flexible in time of stresses. Learning is never an easy process.

i'm sick n tired of cleaning. but its a have to.

i feel like a huang lian po this holiday. hahhaha