emotional turmoil.

i'm sorry for not updating. too many things... just too many for my little brain n body to handle.

yes among which was the coming of results.. n that was one of the major things that bothered me greatly

until yesterday night. when my dog went missing because of another's carelessness. or maybe because i've neglected her. but that was really THE dark cloud.

but no worries she is found. and is gonna be locked away in my room for good. i cannot take another round of her missing.. too much for me to bear.

i've never combed my estate so many times b4.. n so thoroughly. n i'm very thankful to sarah n jason.. who searched with me around our estates. i feel blessed to have them as frenz. as well as every1 who was worried like wing, char, twin and YT. i know i didnt inform every1... but i seriously didnt want to trouble.... but i was really quite desperate to the point that i actually posted bulletin n stuff on my friendster.

i think snaffee n i am blessed. to have met such kind souls who took care of her. who took the initiative to bring her to the pet shop. i'm blessed, we're blessed to have such kind souls who cares, to have kind friends, to have kind neighbours.

but this is too much tears in a mth. i not stupid too, fd3 and missing her.

i wanted to blog abt my marvellous bday celeb... but pls give me time. i had too much emotional turmoil to elaborate on previous happiness. let me calm down abit.. but WED isnt gonna help much.

so let me say a sincere thanks for the bday celeb. i will elab soon... give me time.

Forgive me.

big day.

try this:

n what am i gonna do? haha seriously.. i dunno. no1 confirms anything with me yet.

i only know that i woke up with the desire to watch bleach. haha n just played crazy taxi! still contemplating if i shld go on to watch dirty dancing 2 or call aileen.. heh heh.

will update past few days celeb soon..

love all my frenz! they feed me real well.. now i've gained a lot a lot of weight. haha

thanks for all the greetings n calls! =)

slacking away.

The Quick and Painless ENNEAGRAM Test
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the Helper Test finished!

you chose CX - your Enneagram type is TWO. "I must help others" Helpers are warm, concerned, nurturing, and sensitive to other people's needs. How to Get Along with Me Tell me that you appreciate me. Be specific. Share fun times with me. Take an interest in my problems, though I will probably try to focus on yours. Let me know that I am important and special to you. Be gentle if you decide to criticize me. In Intimate Relationships Reassure me that I am intersting to you. Reassure me often that you love me. Tell me I'm attractive and that you're glad to be seen with me. What I Like About Being a Two being able to relate easily to people and to make friends knowing what people need and being able to make their lives better being generous, caring, and warm being sensitive to and perceptive about others' feelings being enthusiastic and fun-loving, and having a good sense of humor What's Hard About Being a Two not being able to say no having low self-esteem feeling drained from overdoing for others not doing things I really like to do for myself for fear of being selfish criticizing myself for not feeling as loving as I think I should being upset that others don't tune in to me as much as I tume in to them working so hard to be tactful and considerate that I suppress my real feelings Twos as Children Often are very sensitive to disapproval and criticism try hard to please their parents by being helpful and understanding are outwardly compliant are popular or try to be popular with other children act coy, precocious, or dramatic in order to get attention are clowns and jokers (the more extroverted Twos), or quiet and shy (the more introverted Twos) Twos as Parents are good listeners, love their children unconditionally, and are warm and encouraging (or suffer guilt if they aren't) are often playful with their children wonder: "Am I doing it right?" "Am I giving enough?" "Have I caused irreparable damage?" can become fiercely protective Renee Baron & Elizabeth Wagele The Enneagram Made Easy Discover the 9 Types of People HarperSanFrancisco, 1994, 161 pages You are not completely happy with the result?! You chose CX Would you rather have chosen: AX (SEVEN) BX (NINE) CY (SIX) CZ (ONE)

My test tracked 2 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 0% on ABC You scored higher than 34% on XYZ

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GEM card.

yay i got my first "thank you" GEM card! n i'm the first in my store! hooooooRayyyy! heh heh so cheap thrill but it made me a happy girl!

today's sales was BAD n me on full shift... had 0 sales till 7 plus at night! how bad can it get. ok.. i was the only 1 in the store who haven open sales then.. haha first time! but in the end did sell abt 3 jeans i think.

perpetually all my customers tried on.. liked the stuff but felt uncertain so said they will be back. n they never did... EXCEPT 1! haha He tried something on but didnt have the size he wanted to try.. so after i found out that centre point got both sizes he went down. few hrs later.. he actually came back to our store again n got the jeans that he initially cldnt decide upon. heh heh! he sent the jeans for alteration n came to collect it when i was in the store takin 2nd break.. the next thing i know kelvin passed me the card from him n he even wrote my name there (though spelt wrongly)! SCORE - i quote rah. haha now i display the card on my dog tag! n no1 knows how he actually knows my name. haha

well he made this sales girl super happy! haha

ooh the little surprise celeb at marche! cake n all! n balcony! the drinks rawks! thankyou every1 for the surprise! really missed ur loads! n i love the buret! =) n balcony serves good drinks! n comfortable sofas! sad we clndt stay for long... but totally love the environment. good place to chill n relax. n i think my liquor tolerance increased!

btw my room looks.. NEAT. haha ok... 3/4 of it k! haha good enough! only 1 part of my room looks as though tornado swept passed! next time will show it off to every1 once i'm done with packing up! =) maybe i shall spent THAT special day just tidying up my room. shrugs.

i'm lazy.

n i love my frenz. n i know i will enjoy myself tmr whatever plans they have in mind!

cheers!

So valentines flew by.. Joyously!

its been eons since i last saw the few of them laugh so merrily.. it cheered me up! =)

n u know how does 1 get rid of stress? i found my solution...

1 set of mahjong, spice it up with loadsa crap n laughters, n served with delicacies, plus ice creams, with 1 pretended mc, a lot of valentines day gifts + love.. n most importantly.. a very big group of close n whacky frenz.

they cure all miseries.

so here are my from the hearts..


the first prezzie from our dear char... n guess what did rah get?? guess guess guess? haha h-o-t-t-i-e! heh heh


jo travelled all the way down to pass me this! i miss our mokey!


n i love cookies! thanks!!!!!!!! dun worry i love u much more. heh heh


loadsa hearts from my twin's mommy! so thats my mommy too. haha! thanks thanks!!!


who on earth will write me a msg in chi?! only dory. haha lucky she's not a guy.. or i'll fall in love with u becuz of the sweet letter!!


oh my gosh!!! i love donald!! n THIS IS SO FREAKIN CUTE!!! hahaha i'm really sorry for not bringing urs!!! will give u double next time k! humongous 1!! but stay clear of my cheeks/lips rian!!!!

so we dabbled with a little bit of cards over at yt.. interesting stuff. n we fried our own kinda valentines spheghetti meal! a little bit of excitements.. n many astrological books. haha

ooh n i'll never forget the cab ride... who bets abt which direction one moves when the cab turns? us! haha n of cuz.. rah lost the bet. she learnt a very important physics rule.

ok so a lot of us crowd in one small room. n a lot a lot of us ended up at chomp chomp. n a lot a lot of us went over to icecube. n the cozy us enjoyed the ice creams in the cozy seats. haha i love ice cream.. n i love the company more! =)


so here are the happy pple who are super bloated n still craving for ice cream. ok maybe its just me. 3 mia from the photos though.. they are.. the GUYS! haha


so this is them who sits opposite us


n this is us! notice anything different abt me?

ok i know the guys are excluded from the photos.. but what to do.. they all hate photos. haha maybe except our dear jaimes... whom we know pretended to look like he doesnt wanna get involved in photos right?!?! hahahhahahahahha

ok i spent 1 entire night packing up half my room. n i'm damn tired. will update soon. balcony tmr night right? cyaz!

btw b4 i forget.. u know what makes me happiest?! haha i was right afterall! results come out on the 9th week!! muahahahaha more play time! yay!!!!! =) n i get to scream for final destination! muahahahaha

happy happy valentines!

soft spots.

ok its so embarassing. i cried in the "i not stupid too" movie. my softspot- juvenille delinquents plus bad family ties... u get what i mean. the same reason why i choose social work as my career.

haha ok so that is a nice movie.. super emotional 1... n my tears just overwhealmed.

n nope i couldnt hide it.. haha so paisehz.

ok so its also my round 2 of arcade. i love arcades... they make u feel much better. esp when ur with frenz! heh heh

so after watching the show i ask myself.. will i be part of the "rotten apple" category after getting my results? pls just let me scrap into my desired course.. please.

yeah sunday was my chinese new yr bday. its super sweet to know my grandma n aunt/godma remembered. =) other than that.. its just another day to amuse myself. haha

so maybe i shld cut hair tmr... dun ask me what style. i seriously dunno. tmr go hairdresser den say.. if it turns out ugly... den so be it. i just wanna get weight off my head. haha

ok i'm gettin broke. haha oh well...

valentines is coming everybody!

love is all ard.

bride n prejudice.

curious abt what girls want? watch that. haha

answer: a rich man whom u love n who loves u back. hahahaha

but its really nice! good to watch when u feel anxiety n stress.. esp abt stupid results. good for valentines mood.. fills u with love n romance. haha

i'm in the mood to learn dancing. belly dancing, indian dance, SALSA, ballroom.. bring it on! but i need time... time obviously is not my best-est friend now.

ok next mth onwards.. my pay is gonna be like shit. SAVE MONEY. but just this mth alone.. let me chill, let me spend, bring me entertainment, cheer me up n hoax myself.

haha i have learnt the art of doting n hoaxing myself. what to do.. no bf to 24/7 do that for me n my frenz are all too preoccupied as well. haha i also dun expect em to be my shadow. so that "art" is really fantastic n soothing to oneself. pick it up everybody.

so i'm lazing at home. watched final fantasy in the wee hours.. if only animated characters are real.. THEY ARE SO FREAKING GOOD LOOKING! i like Renos- the red hair guy! haha so funny.. n i like their hair! animate my hair pls. i needa go for haircut- too messy n i needa some load OFF my head. heh heh

yes my little symptoms of stress of getting results. dun worry.. i'll pacify my not so good moods. haha really really! =) n jing will accompany me to down liquor next thurs night.. RIGHT?! haha cuz we accompanied her yest- she collecting o's. hope all goes well for her.

i feel really blessed to have frens who care so much.

meanwhile.. TOLERATE my nonsensical gibberish on my blog. its my only 24/7 available "outlet". =p

btw t9-ers.. b4 we get our results lets go eat breakfast??? PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! at least we all can feel jitterish together.. den again.. put us all together n it will only be full of shit n whacky stuff! do not leave me alone at home b4 the results! its BAD! haha u know what i mean. i will just go mad.. n end up travelling to mental institute instead of school.

i work 6 to close if i'm collecting results next fri. sad stuff.

shoot me!

i hate results day.

just when i thought i have 3 more weeks to pack it with entertainment n thrills. now its all REDUCED to 1 week. a's results are gonna be released next week. !@#$%^&*()@!# <- this is just a lot of my irritated gibberish n not foul languages.

initially i wanted to watch final destination- a movie that will allow me to feel horror n preferably scream.. to help me relieve stress. now... i cant even find a replacement cuz final destination only opens on 23rd. just great.

initially i wanted to meet up with all my frenz.. so i can enjoy my time n catch up as if there's no tommorrow with minimal worries. now all of us have a dark cloud-results shadowing us till 17th.

initially i wanted to enjoy my bday n relax. imagine how gettin back my results might just trash that little happiness n desire of mine.

so knowing this new info made me crazy. my emotions fly from the lowest to the highest. i felt so high just now that my colleague thinks i'm mad. n i can feel so low.. overwhelmed with whines n sighs. pls pardon me n excuse me. i appologize.

so whats the greatest thing?? i have to work from 6 to close after getting my results. if i do well (to expectation.. which isnt v high), i will be too excitedly distracted for work. if results confirms that i am doom... do expect a sulky, black faced sales girl who just stands n stone at a corner. or worse.. it might come with red puffy eyes. haha but the latter.. is unlikely. i will control my tears no matter what. unless its tears of happiness. heh heh.. but i think.. i will be too stoned for work. cuz the day b4 overexcited.. cannot slp. haha so ended up 1 kinda sleepy look no matter what i get. oh well..

anyway i was trying to follow a recipe n make something.. with some alterations. it was successful!! yay. ok at least i like the taste.. even if every1 else hates it.. at least theres me who like it. haha

so there's work again tmr. i feel like takin a short break.. but i cant. but nvm, work is also cool.

love, me.

New blog skin!

haha i love this blog skin. Hatsumomo. Gongli.

ok replying to jm's call.. what am i doing on valentines? thats a very good qn.. cuz i myself am not sure. haha besides that we're (mainly rah n me) are suppose to meet yt for lunch. den maybe return to her hse with mahjong session with the rest (char, tok, twin, ai. any1 else wanna join?). as for dinner.. i'm not sure. it depends.. but i think most likely with the mahjong pple unless some yandao wanna date me. haha.. ok lar.. dun need yandao. any frenz will do k! haha

ok i've been wanting to comment abt "deja-vu". i think its freaking scary. i remembered 1 dream from mths.. or was it yrs ago.. abt certain areas.. n its v scary when the real event actually occurs presently. 1 such clear incident is my work place. the other, is karen's room. i'm quite sure i dreamt abt this 2 places b4. certain things abt em make me remember the scenes of the dream clearly. ok u may not understand what the shit i'm talking abt.. but whatever it is.. it makes me wonder-fate? third dimension? oh well...

news abt o's results coming this fri. n i asked my frenz who are still schooling.. n they tell me 3 weeks later its a's results. shit. at least its not my bday week. shit + shit. ok final destination comes out on my bdae.. i'm gonna watch it despite the horror. i needa relief stress. somebody SAVE me. i need to get into NUS social work!!! argh.

i think the subconcious worrying is making me eat a lot. munch munch munch to forget. everyday goes as per normal.. but deep inside.. there is alwayz this thing that is lingering ard.. this fear.

I hate Results day.

New blog skin!

haha i love this blog skin. Hatsumomo. Gongli.

ok replying to jm's call.. what am i doing on valentines? thats a very good qn.. cuz i myself am not sure. haha besides that we're (mainly rah n me) are suppose to meet yt for lunch. den maybe return to her hse with mahjong session with the rest (char, tok, twin, ai. any1 else wanna join?). as for dinner.. i'm not sure. it depends.. but i think most likely with the mahjong pple unless some yandao wanna date me. haha.. ok lar.. dun need yandao. any frenz will do k! haha

ok i've been wanting to comment abt "deja-vu". i think its freaking scary. i remembered 1 dream from mths.. or was it yrs ago.. abt certain areas.. n its v scary when the real event actually occurs presently. 1 such clear incident is my work place. the other, is karen's room. i'm quite sure i dreamt abt this 2 places b4. certain things abt em make me remember the scenes of the dream clearly. ok u may not understand what the shit i'm talking abt.. but whatever it is.. it makes me wonder-fate? third dimension? oh well...

news abt o's results coming this fri. n i asked my frenz who are still schooling.. n they tell me 3 weeks later its a's results. shit. at least its not my bday week. shit + shit. ok final destination comes out on my bdae.. i'm gonna watch it despite the horror. i needa relief stress. somebody SAVE me. i need to get into NUS social work!!! argh.

i think the subconcious worrying is making me eat a lot. munch munch munch to forget. everyday goes as per normal.. but deep inside.. there is alwayz this thing that is lingering ard.. this fear.

I hate Results day.

shift work.

seriously, noon-full-full-morn-full shift is no joke. i am damn shag now. late nights everyday n early days. my gosh...

it was so tiring that after morn shift on sunday, i treated my fren n i to bravissimo. ice cream from heaven. haha den we proceeded to arcade at ps! super fun! was taught how to play the rifle game.. den we saw this amusing driving game that features supermario, pacman etc... it was amusing! got secret weapons to attack ur competitors!! haha secret weapons like some lightning rod thingy, tornadoes, bombs! haha super fun!! ooh n we played the drums! damn fun! i love arcade. heh heh

ooh n i so miss the bbq chicken at ps food court!! so obviously i intro my fren to that lar! n i saw alvin! haha he's an.. interesting guy. oh well.. btw anybody got his bleach???

i love off days. maybe i'm going to bake. anybody wanna be my guinea pig? i got 1 volunteer already. heh heh.

OffDaysPls!