emotionz-> hilarious!
i watched SHREK 2! trust me! itz a real fantastic animation! my gosh.. I LOVE IT! hahaz.. puss in boots is SO ADORABLE!! so cute!! n the donkey is so annoyingly cute too! the show is.. kinda sweet.. sad at timez.. n realli funny! haha i cldnt stop luffin!

went to little india.. therez actualli vegetarian indianz fastfood restaurant in little india! super funky! haha n the food there.. actualli quite good! haha tried eatin with bare hands! manz.. it was a good experience! den walked ard.. itz actualli quite fun!

aniwae.. i'm a tired gurl.. after all the excitement n walkin ard! hope to c d t07/09-erz tml! take care every1

freak blogger.. i tot the entry was lost n took much effort to retype juz to realise that both entries were dere todae!! grr...

emotionz-> tired legz..tired me..
haha went to old folkz home fer cip.. well.. it juz mere sweeping up the dried leaves n grass.. but quite fun.. hahaz den we walk frm far east to ps..! did lotza shopping! haha not me larz.. since i'm the broke gurl.. i juz help olivia serene n jo with their choices of clothing! mira was there too! n so was sarah at the beginning! fun shopping! hahaz

too tired to pen.. will pen more nex time!

aniwae since yt requested.. my heart reveals the name (accordin to who i met/know 1st k):
1st-> aileen
2nd-> SnaFfee
3rd-> Jia Min
4th-> Simon
5th-> Yantong
6th-> Twin/Gf
*pple who managed to dive deep into my emotionz n neva fails to crack me up*
but i hafta add a special bonus.. haha Marian also neva fails to light up my dae! hahaz.. juz wanna sae thanx.. thanx fer alwayz being there peepz.. =)

emotionz-> cant figure out mine..
sad to c couplez giving it a break.. itz juz so upsetting but yet.. if we look at another perspective.. sumtimez it will b betta fer both parties.. at least they part away frm the internal torture.. difficult to understand.. haiz..

met up with many of the t07-erz.. 1st went with imran to meet mark n manda.. den we walked ard.. b4 meetin up jun n ling n sarah! den sat at kfc fer dinner b4 i hafta leave.. parentz strictness larz.. sigh~ but it was fun meetin up with em larz! esp twin! maybe cuz i'm not as close to the rez.. but still.. it was great!

manz.. this time.. i realli met my twin! n itz realli scary larz! laz time i also got "twin" but itz cuz we hang out together v often or sumwhat look alike.. or simply cuz we spend so much of our time together dat we know so much abt each other n startin to blend.. but now.. this twin of mine.. we barely meet! but yet.. similar thoughtz.. juz expressed on different situationz!

gosh! even todae.. after i haven seen him in wkz.. or hang out with him in mthz.. we were juz standing on the escalator.. n actualli both turned, exchanged a look..n exclaimed "what?!?!" in the exact same tone at the v same time! hahaz

n though itz a joy to haf found a twin.. but itz quite scary.. how he seemz to haf stolen my thoughtz n expressed them out in words.. seemz to haf read my mind.. he's juz like a guy version of my personality! hahaz.. but still hope that will neva lose this twin! haha pss..u made it to the list of pple who managed to dive deep into selinaz emotion n neva fails to light up her dae! hahaz.. which is.. i think.. ur d 6th.. hahaz.. but the 2nd guy! arnt u honoured?! hahaz

many call us the optimistic
but are we realli that fantastic?
smiles and laughter on our face
but deep inside is a race.

we claim that itz okay
"independent" is what we say
alwayz lending our hands n shoulders
but shy away when other offers.

being soft creatures
filled with romantic features
but fears of being a burden
sends the closing curtain.

all we wanna is mere understanding
without much touching
but because everything is filled with complexity
the ending loses its predictability.

emotionz-> =)
hahaz yest was juz plain happi stuff fer me! hmz.. sch was okay.. ms ban make us write a poem fer sum poetry comp n i was too lazy to write.. den i took the poem i wrote in tribute fer my bag n added a laz stanza to it.. haha can b found on my "rubbishism" link larz.. itz not fantastic.. but at least itz sumthin! hahaz

after sch went to find yt n rach in town! long time neva go out with yt already! n yest was juz realli fun larz! all the jokez n crapping abt! hahaz.. bitching abt d disgusting couple in sch! yuckz yuck yuckz! mere thought of it irkz me! haha bought chocolate coated apple fer mom.. n yt bought watch fer her sis n herself! sucha sweet sister! haha yt n me got quite similar taste! not bad! we got gd taste! hahaz..

ella called yest.. he quite comical larz.. but sincereli i also dunno how to help him.. juz hope that everything will turn out fine n good fer him! haha actualli kinda miss ella.. haven seen him fer a v long time! i haven seen lotza pple fer a v long time..! haha

n yest conversation online was funny larz! alwayz love going peak with u guyz.. haha v lame n all... but damn funny! aniwae june holz is here! letz all go out! í think i'm gonna study at least 4 daez every wk.. so i got 3 more daez to spare each wk! hahaz.. if ur wanna study with me also can call me! hahaz..

ok.. i gtg go read up abit fer gp larz.. cant afford to fail ani test/exam!

emotionz-> i'm a confused gurl..
maybe i'm too caught up with the word "responsibility" n all the "virtues" thatz been instilled into me.. now i'm in a dilemma.. my little concience holdin tight..can feel pulling tightly.. slowly suffocating me...

tell me.. sum1 tell me.. if u haf a choice between a telling lie to do sumthin u like.. or forgoing ur likez to keep up to a forced promise n tell a lie.. which will u choose?

currenltli in a situation of telling a lie.. but i feel myself being drawn towards d latter.. how how?!?! me n my little concience.. this is the time where i realli hope i haf a little bit of Iago's not triggered by his concience thingy.. realli dunno how he actualli does it.. but i simply cant make myself feel d same wae.. *sighz* maybe cuz i'm NoT evil.. hahhahz!

Gp midyr is juz 3 daez away.. n june holz is near.. so many thingz i wanna do.. but seemz to haf so little time.. wanna go meet up frenz.. go enjoy myself.. but still hafta studies.. cannot afford to screw up ani more paperz..

haha lucki thing dat my bag is still usable.. not tattered to the pt where it cant hold animore thingz..! n stupid twin! stop gloating over the misfortune of my bag! hahhahaz at least it received my all time sincere love! =P hahhahaz

sumtimez i feel the emotion-less thingy too.. scary.. timez where everything is juz.. FeElInG-LeSs... n tends to look happy n fereva haha-ing away.. haha i am still in the midst of that.. scary how my brain can juz space out.. n filled with EmPtInEsS.. these are timez where my small little brain juz cant handle the situation.. no idea how to deal with stuff.. n is lost.

sumtimez..
sumtimez i hope u wasnt so nice to me
hope that sum1 will take u away..
i wldnt b angry
i will juz wish ya happiness
on knowing sum1 will provide
comfort n love,
more den i can give

sadness may befriend me then
but i'll try to stand strong
b ur little sister
who neva hesitates to care
concience will brighten
but feelings dampened
so which shld i choose?

now itz neither here nor there
this nor that
but in my little dilemma
wraped in confusion
what shld i do?
where shld i go?
juz hafta run...

without u...

my companion who accompanies me
through thick n thin
itz been more den 3 yrz
running under the rain with me
stand against the strong sun
holdin everything together
what am i to do without u?

walks into the theatre
feeling cold and lonely
attemptz to gif me every little warmth u can afford
i embrace u tightly
gaining comfort n security
lettin my fearful teeth soar deep
as the gory and horror flashes on the screen
what am i to do without u?

i'm sorry
that i have treated u roughly
sorry that i cause u to tear
now i'm in pain
as i c u tattered becuz
i didnt treat u with care
now i hafta look fer another option
hopin that it will replace
where am i to find another u?

hahahaz.. my little tribute to my old bag.. the brown nike 1! neglected it.. now that itz tearin apart.. n i hafta change it.. haiz.. where am i gonna look fer another alternative which is as good as this.. neva felt so attached to a bag b4! haha this is the first manz! i love my nike bag! even my mom commented.. she haf neva seen me being so faithful to a bag b4! hahahaz.. used to change bag frequentli laz time.. n cld neva settle on 1

lookz like i've to go do sum shoppin in the june holz.. new shoes as they are tearin apart too! n another new bag who can provide me as much comfort as this nike bag.. manz.. this is gonna b tough! this 2 thingz are those rare stuff that caught my eyes when i first saw em! hahhaz.. but first muz save money!! *broke broke*

emotionz-> lotza ponderin n reflectin
new photoz uploaded! go n check it out at the site where all the photoz are being stored at... www.rubbishflashes.blogspot.com to check out the sportz dae picz!
haha was juz thinkin abt the past.. d realli fun timez in oi.. how i miss em..itz a realli different kinda fun in cj.. but i love both the fun!

hmz.. was listenin to the music of kenny g.. totally enchanted in it.. haha cum to think of it.. i alwayz loved the sound of saxaphone since young.. enchanted by it.. haha makez me melt..drawz me in.. think there was even the innocent remark of wantin a bf who playz d sax nex time..so i can watch him play n melt in the music.. n wantin a bf whoz a dancer.. wanting this n wanting that.. haha all the innocent remarkz of a little kid.. n to think now i haf such contradictin thoughtz to relationship n neva botherz much abt romance...no wonder jm asks.."u sure ur a gurl?!" haha me n my so boyish nature..

hmz.. momz been commentin n commentin.. haiz.. sumtimez i realli hope she will let me haf my own choices.. but i cant deny shez right in sum aspects.. she remindz me to be wary.. which i know n i will.. i juz realli hope that she will trust me..but itz difficult to gain n all parentz are paranoid abt their child after all..

hmz.. i wanna watch shrek 2! wanna watch "the day after tml"<- thatz a show name n not a day!!!! hahahhahaz.. dun gimme the lame remarkz! esp bingz n im! hahhahaz.. wanna watch harry potter!! i like harry potter fer itz mystery n little fantasy.. the all so interestin magical world! simply enchantin 4 me..but gotta study hard durin the june holz also.. i wanna pass my mid yr! with at least a d...

haha think i can make a love consultant! been listenin to pplez love story recentli.. think heard 3 peepz! hahaz.. ok maybe not love consultant.. juz a listener! hope d bez turnz out fer the 3 peepz!

oh no itz bad
cuz i'm feelin all lazy again
n all i wanna is to get into my bed
n relax my brain

emotionz-> my eyez r closing....
*yawnz*.. i'm juz realli tired frm all the hoo ha of todaez sportz dae.. kinda fun as i watched the amoeba football of our class.. saw benji playing it too n amused by all the "hop hop hop" (cuz 4 pplez in a grp n each person has 1 of their leg tied to each other n hoppin ard playin football with rugby ball)..there was floorball too.. n cheerleadin.. n me walkin ard cheerin.. hahaz though we didnt win anithin much.. but realli love the class fer the effort in participatin n enthusiasm! u all rawk n made my sportz dae this yr much more fun even though i cldnt participate!

Bing came n meet us at the stadium after our sportz dae! ahhahaz.. him in his all so white uni n us in our all so bright orange jersey! both so distinct! den we wanna go coro to eat.. but they didnt wanna CH(howeva u spell d name.. u all shld know who larz) to cum along n unintentionally got rid of him.. comical scene larz! hahhaaz n we went to serene centre fer lunch den to town fer pool n neoprint!

neoprint lookz so cute! hahahaz.. bing nex time we go shoppin fer bag n shoez if possible k! plus can go watch van helsing with gf too! yayz! hahahaz..

hmz.. i realise.. i can run in a hobbly wae with my feet.. though still v slow run.. but at least itz sumthin.. den all the movin ard realli causin my legz to ache.. hahaz.. n todae i got so excited when i saw d 2t9 peepz run n almoz gettin into 1st.. i was so excited dat i actualli fergot i'm lame n did a small jump.. den *ouch*.. stupid me.. hahahhaz.. but showz how caught up i was by their enthusiasm!

walked into an arcade todae.. watched the racing gamez.. i love watchin pple playing arcade.. haha reminds me of timez when i watch wuhao playz soccer.. n got so caught up in it.. but itz amusing.. n todae i'm juz amused abt car racing.. alwayz was when i watch a pro at it.. seems so funky.. abt how they move with speed n manage cool turningz even if their on manual! whereaz i'm more like a slow n attempt to b careful driver.. hahahaz

june holz is cumin.. n i wanna go out n play.. hahhahaz.. maybe nex wk i shld b guai n stay at home.. den recuperate my legz.. den when june startz.. hehehz... i'll be mia frm home! hahhahaz.. n like what jas sae.. my mom will prob wish my cast was still on..! hahhahahz..

emotionz-> realli tired.. but loadsa fun..*smilez*
well.. i've been busy catchin up frm all the periods i missed in sch larz.. n quite tired frm it.. gp essay.. gp compre.. lit test.. econz test! wahz.. totally exhaust me! hahaz.. but therez loadsa fun.. watchin Troy.. cheerleadin!

haha went to watch Troy on wed! itz a damn good production! lotz naked pple though.. hahhaha but cant realli c all the private partz so dun worry larz.. hahhahaz.. i onli didnt realli enjoy the gory killingz.. cuz neva liked bloody stuff... but itz still good.. worth watchin! though sad sad endin as every1 diez.. haiz.. n the love story.. too good to b true kind.. hahaz..

todae went fer cheerleadin! they were good! they as in both 1t09 n 2t09! simply fabulous larz! hahahhaz... n i made pom pom until my finger turn red n painful! but it was fun.. all the sittin together n "shreddin" n gossipin away.. but sum pple personality can b realli irritatin.. hmz.. but since we're gonna be classmatez.. betta if we tolerate den to make thingz miserable yeah?

went to town with mira, jo, sarah n wing...n got sum stuff frm popular.. den went with mira to return bk den to get tuna n set off fer home.. hahaz.. being in orchard.. juz feelz so right all again.. hahaahaz... like so long neva go.. sumhow misses it! hahhahaz.. n todae went there.. got loadsa crowds.. saw 2 artiste ard.. but basically i was too tired to notice anithin much! hahhahaz..

well.. all the walkin ard realli made me tried.. n legz hurtin.. haiz.. hope it recovers soon... hope tml cheerleadin will bring us championship.. which i feel they will! i love t07erz n t09erz!

deep inside me..
are thingz that spurrz ard..
thingz i wanna do n say..
but juz cant express it out.

emotionz-> achievementz! :D
cuz i went out with my parentz todae! n realli walked alot.. though sumtimez certain stepz when neva walk properli quite painful... but i managed to survive! meanz tml dun need go sch in crutches! BYE BYE CRUTCHES!

hmz.. read jm blog.. haha so nice.. the story so sweet.. haiz.. she keep blog so the story will b kept vivid in a place.. itz true.. even though i'm v sure she will not ferget it.. but blogz will juz help to keep the minute detailz fresh.. even if it starts to fade...

den it reminds me.. of my v own sweet little patches of "storiez"... little flashes of thingz that i juz cant ferget.. haha itz nothin much larz.. juz sweet simple actionz that realli caught my attentionz. =) d hug that i will neva ferget.. d funni momentz at camp.. d care n concern received... d sweet smses.. d realli happy timez at clarke quay/escape/ecp.. all the timez that were simply so sweet n unfergetable...

den there were the timez where thingz which were unpleasant also carve a deep impression on my mind.. juz cant shake the memoriez of those off.. oh well.. haha letz not get reminded by them now..

hmz.. wanna watch Van helsing.. 50th first datez.. n TROY! haha jm sae itz a good production.. hmz.. ani1 wanna watch with me?! hahaz.. i think i shld b able to go out soon! hmz.. think i walk abit too much todae.. now leg pain.. take care every1 while i go caress my dear leg n hopez the pain will be eased away..=D hahaz

ok.. appologise fer the harsh entry.. herez sumthin light to cheer up every1.. fer cjc peepz.. haha the lovely memories of mass dance reminded! Bingz.. DANCE WITH ME! hahahhahaz okok.. after my leg recoverz of cuz! but i cant realli remember the stepz aniwae.. oh well.. hahaz. but seriousli.. all i realli wanna do now is get to d dance studio n dance away... *misses dancing*

Michael buble - sway

When marimba rhythms start to play
Dance with me, make me sway
Like a lazy ocean hugs the shore
Hold me close, sway me more

Like a flower bending in the breeze
Bend with me, sway with ease
When we dance you have a way with me
Stay with me, sway with me

Other dancers may be on the floor
Dear, but my eyes will see only you
Only you have that magic technique
When we sway I go weak

I can hear the sounds of violins
Long before it begins
Make me thrill as only you know how
Sway me smooth, sway me now

Other dancers may be on the floor
Dear, but my eyes will see only you
Only you have that magic technique
When we sway I go weak

I can hear the sounds of violins
Long before it begins
Make me thrill as only you know how
Sway me smooth, sway me now

When marimba rhythms start to play
Dance with me, make me sway
Like a lazy ocean hugs the shore
Hold me close, sway me more
Like a flower bending in the breeze
Bend with me, sway with ease
When we dance you have a way with me
Stay with me, sway with me (x2)

emotionz-> GD NEWZ! + bad international newz..
haha guess what?! i can move ard on both legz! but itz realli slow.. n realli small stepz! but itz progress! i think by mon i can make it to sch myself.. i hope... haha den it will b a double surprise fer every1 on mondae! pss.. not gonna tell ya whatz the other surprise.. haha :P

hmz.. did every1 read the newz yest?! manz.. i was like so horrified n gross out at the newz larz.. i hate the war. Stupid immature childish horrendous hideous cruel sadistic bastards. for those who watched/read yest news will know what i mean. well.. fer those who haven.. let me tell ya. The iraq soldierz wanted revenge cuz d americanz ill-treated/humiliated/tortured their fellowman.. n guess what fantastic idea they haf fer revenge? to pick up a poor kind civilian who is american n who happenz to be on the street at the wrong time n not onli ill-treat/humiliated/tortured.. but enjoy the momentz sawing away his head. SAW. not chop.. not the fast n swift.. but SAW! n holdin the pluckin the head out after it.

r d hair on ur hands standing? goosebumpz all popped out? well.. mine did when i read the article.. by mere readin. the pictures in my head.. totally sends the chill down my spine. u can find the video of the whole process online. will prob cause pple to faint n get weekz/mthz/years of nightmare. can u imagine the family? their last view of thier son/brother will be in the horrific video where he got tortured. the ugly side of man. I hate the war.

haiz.. neva understand whatz so good abt power. materialistic pple. cant pple juz live harmoniously together?! i believe life will b betta that wae.. learn the word "tolerance".. tolerance n patience is a virtue. being cool n handling matterz in a more cool wae will gain u more respect. selfish pple who onli care abt their own wantz n not considerin abt other pple at all shld reflect. spare the innocent.

haiz.. maybe this is the reason y i love animals. esp kind natured 1's. yeahz.. many sae i'm gullible n all.. trust otherz easily.. but seriousli.. every1 haf a certain value of trust frm me. the onli 1 whom i can sae that has my 100% trust is SnAfFee. i love her. she'z juz so true.

human shld stop havin the superiority feelingz of themselves. what makez ur think ur are betta den a dog. pls.. go look into the mirror. dogz look so much betta den so many of u k!

haiz.. my above harsh tone is directed mostly at the torturers larz.. it juz painz my heart to c another being hurt. sincerely hope god bless the family of the poor guy. but if u fall under the totally selfish, self centred, crave fer power, scheming (like IAGO).. u stay far far away frm me n the nicer pple ard!
but since u are moz probably a selfish brat.. u probably wldnt care..

ok.. tone back to my usual stuff.. calm selina.. dun let these irritatin pple take ur cool away.. *cool* sorry fer the harsh emotionz pple.. but.. i juz cldnt control..

emotionz-> itz my lucky dae after all the bad daez!
well.. fer the past wk thingz juz wasnt realli going smoothly fer me.. haha but it was still ok though.. not that it realli killed me or what..1st it was the match.. den my ballet exam.. den my crack in the bone.. den the cast.. den me blurness fer leavin out the floor no. on a letter to sum1 special on the burfdae..

1st gd newz todae is when the doc sae my bone is recoverin fast as itz juz minor crack! 2nd good newz is that i'm outta my cast! n 3rd good newz is that the letta got miraculously sent to the right house even without the floor no! hahhahaz.. but even though cast got removed.. i still hafta depend on my crutches fer awhile cuz ankle still realli weak.. n it hurtz a little plus feelz weird when i put my leg on the floor..n the cast got put away in the ttsh bin... but the no. n depth of good newz wae exceeds the bad larz! hahaz i can go out with u peepz soon!

past few daez haf been realli tiring n tedious fer me.. sch was juz a killer.. n "crutching" around is simply too energy drainin fer a weak gurl like me.. ok larz.. not that weak.. haiz.. but seriousli.. all i realli wanna is to b independent n not burden ani1.. but now.. i'm such a burden to almost every1! haiz.. parentz schedule got so mixed up n now they as tired as me.. classmatez n frenz alwayz hafta help me run errands.. n so much trouble i've imposed on every1! sorry..

itz alwayz a joy to read markz blog.. but this time.. readin it like as if readin a prince charmin personality.. hahaz.. itz endangered species to hear guyz not wantin physical contactz with gurlz larz.. *thumbs up fer mark* haha but its true that in a relationship.. the spiritual n understanding is so much more impt than the physical contact to me also..

hmz.. i think basically i'm quite lucki.. quite lucky that ya understand me so well.. not demandin much of me.. n understandin the importance of emotional knowledge to me.. itz funny how everytime i find a reason that makez me wanna pull away but sumhow u managed to draw me near n put my doubts away with ur actionz.. and seriousli.. i'm in sucha dilemma.. caught between my little set of principlez.. haiz..

hmz.. being in a crutch makez me realise how tough it is fer the disabled.. luckily itz recoverin fast.. realli hafta thank god fer that! thank the doctorz.. n seriousli.. it is tough to handle ur own emotionz when ur feelin crippled.. sumtimez i dun even understand whatz going through in my mind.. n itz realli impt to haf pple out there fer ya.. these pple makez one feel realli loved and wanted.. Thanx peepz! thanx mom/dad.. thanx palz at sch.. thanx to all my frenz.. n thanx to ya..

aniwae shall not think so much abt stuff now.. optimistic viewz shall b kept on my mind.. i shld b able to move ard swiftly soon i hope..wish me loadsa luck..

Brandy-have u ever
Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever
Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything up to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start
Have you ever loved somebody so much
It's makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever
Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all your life
You'd do just about anything to look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for that day when they will care
Have you ever loved somebody so much
It's makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever
What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby
What do I gotta say to get to your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
Gotta get you in my world
'Cuz baby I can't sleep
Have you ever loved somebody so much
It's makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

emotionz-> tired.. but everythingz cool.. 11 more daez...
countin down to my cast away.... hahaz.. had a great chat/argument/teasin session with sarah yest! we got so carried away! haha mizz tiz kinda timez.. haven haf it fer a long time! reminds me of the 1st time yt n i got to know each other betta.. n we juz went on n on.. hahhaaz miz the gd ol timez.. but now yt gotta conc on studies.. jia you yt!

seriously.. i think gf is realli the twin of me in the sense of our personality.. the onli major difference between us that i note is that hes v spiritual(holy n believes alot in god) while i'm juz another free thinker with my own little set of principle that i feel is right.. but i dun deny god in any wae also.. dun mistaken me.. haha i go to templez.. church n all.. but no exact 1 god that i follow kinda stuff..

i realli understand ur plight.. itz funny how there can b pple like us who like to keep ourselves busy.. even at this pt in time when i'm lame n stuck at home.. but i alwayz haf sumthin to do.. or alwayz create sumthin fer myself to do! haha.. it explains y i finishes my hw.. rather do work den havin no work to do.. havin no work.. is juz not right.. n watchin the clock tickin.. juz killz me.. bringz life to a real slow process which i cant stand.. n make the existin 11 daez so much longer as well! hahaz.. but when it timez to play.. manz.. i think i can make it to the top few on the "wildest ard"! i can switch myself to the total enthu mode n lose myself.. den u will c every1 stare at me with their mouth wide open like a major screw of mine juz pop out! hahaz

i also dun believe in forcin my standards onto otherz.. but i will compromise mine if i realli hafta.. but itz hard to shake my standards too.. itz like.. i'm not forcin u so dun force it onto me also... yeahz.. n learnin frm an experience.. regardless gd or bad is v important.. maybe u shld let the seriousness be known to the involved.. actualli i will b in the exact dilemma if i were u.. n i understand what u mean by u rather let the person voice it out first.. i haf the feelingz too.. sumtimez i juz hope it happenz.. so it will b easier fer them.. but sumtimez.. it juz doesnt occur..

haiz.. i so understand what ur going through.. cuz deep down inside i feel the exact same wae.. gf.. why r we such complicated creatures who totally haf the mixture of dreamz but waken up to practicality when needed etc.. kinda nature.. i dunno if u qn.. what exactli is love.. but i do.. n i so haf a mix feelingz abt it.. like how u expressed.. n maybe even deeper..feel as if we r deprivin another of their valuable time.. but yet at the same time not shoo-in pple off.. haiz.. ur not alone....

but i'm v sure on 1 thing.. dun eva haf regretz in ur life.. it slows u down.. it tears u apart.. i hate regretz.. thus i alwayz try to haf no regretz in whateva i do.. alwayz consider regret as 1 of the factor.. n maybe itz cuz of this i'm in sucha plight..

i do live my life day by day.. neva consider thingz too much in advance.. but i do qn abt the future.. make sure the thingz i do will not cause too much an effect on the future.. n not onli that.. decisionz that will be of a positive impact.. not onli on me.. but on otherz as well.. i want a happy ending fer all.. n not onli myself.. i love being the minor rolez that will help propel the story to the happy ending of the leads.. i love watchin happy endingz.. but yet being the lead itself is so difficult.. esp the lead who writes her own role.. life is tough.. but cuz of the pple ard.. the toughness seemed to be made easier.. happier.. :)

gf.. dun worry too much k.. though its tough to not worry.. juz wanna let u know.. ur not standin on the "battlefield" alone.. we are all standin with u.. even if the rest arnt.. i am.. i'm ur bf/twin who stands rite nex to ya n will walk through with ya together k! cheerioz "gurl"....!

manz.. i mizz T07! 11 daez.. 11 daez n i betta be cast away! den arz.. i will b going out like crazy! meet up my frenz in poly.. watch movie.. meet up the t07 peepz.. going dinner with them!.. going on class outin! CLASS CHALET!! concertz!! DANCE!!! n watch bball(cuz i prob cant play.. haiz...)! meetin O.I peepz! going out with YT! n.. n.. erm... hahaha u know... =D

haha been stuck at home.. n d/l lotza dance mtv/ clips.. everytime i watch i feel like dancing.. esp BOA's move.. v scared by the time i recover ferget my grade 8 syllabus again.. hahaz.. sumbody.. dance with me! i wanna move my body.. i wanna GROOVE! haha watchin pwb mtv.. he look so cute.. i still love his tell me mtv.. remember my attempted seductive look yt?! hahhaz.. n the my mic mtv also not bad! quite gd moves! Boa'z b the 1.. valenti.. atlantis princess.. all rawk larz! i love her hands/body movement! cyndi moves are so cute.. simple but cute sch gurl kind..

actualli the saddest is when i watch maksim.. his clip haf ballarina's doing pointe work.. n it juz reminds me how my pointe is so gonna go down after i took so long to brush it up.. n almoz got it! haiz.. n my mom constant reminder that i mite not be able to go on pointe if my leg dun recover doesnt help larz.. sumtimez.. the mere thought of it sends tears to my eyes.. haiz.. n how my career as a dancer can b crashed so easily.. pls.. pls let my legz recover fully.. with my determination.. i will do almost anithin to get it well! cheerioz myself! :)

emotionz-> cheery! :)
listening to cyndi wang xin ling-> ai ni (luv u) haha i love the mtv.. so cute! cute n simple dance stepz! but boa still top my list fer my best/top/moz fav dancers! she'z HOT! hahaz.. watchin her mtv valenti will juz make me drool manz! i wanna be as gd a dancer as her arz! so hot! but.. i'm far far frm it larz.. hahaz..

gf came to CJC todae!! hahaz so great c-ing u!! n u left ur mark on my cast of which i onli understood half of it! haha so what exactly did u write?! helped the class with d cheerleadin stuff todae! haha they r gonna b so hot on sportz dae! hope we will win!well.. tml haf SATS exam.. n i haven tried ani SATS paper n totally no mood to do anithin abt it tml.. dun even feel like going fer it tml! haiz...

no idea y i keep gettin tugged towards the topic of jealousy within this wk! hahaz sch tokin abt it.. n almoz every teacher relatez back to it larz.. quite comical! n all the stereotypin of gurlz being much more easily jealous den guy.. i think itz loadsa crap larz! cuz i think i'm 1 with rather low jealousy level larz! haha

but seriousli.. d feelin is actualli quite nice to know sum1 is jealous fer u.. actualli makez pple feel kinda wanted/loved n all! :P hahaz.. though itz sign of being possesive larz.. but as long as it doesnt goes overboard.. everything shld b fine! haha guess my low level of jealousy is prob cuz of my upbringing.. being a dancer n all.. thingz dun make us get jealous easily larz.. n plus i play alot! hahaz.. but being human.. of cuz therez these sparkz of jealousy here n there.. but i think compared to otherz itz actualli quite minimal! hahaz..

can feel the swell in my leg goes down.. but the pain is taken over by another kind larz.. like prickling in the bone.. feelz kinda weird.. n certain movement will cause pain.. haiz.. travelling ard in sch is tough on crutches! so many stepz.. n i fear falling! fell once in sch.. n several timez at home larz.. i'm sucha klutz..

haiz.. can feel my body gettin rusty.. not movin n dancin n all! my poor muscles.. prob turnin into lumpy fatz soon larz! grr.. 2 more wkz.. i'm still counting!

~my little rubb1sh note~
many claims that
pple dun value thingz which are free
but what abt hugs n kisses
that comes straight frm the heart
these 2 "free" items
r definitely the moz treasured received
at least it is... to me.

yet giving them is also the toughest
especially if itz tagged with d deepest emotionz
d thoughtz dat goes through ur mind
in bringing ur intentionz n emotionz
through these "free"
yet treasured gifts
d feelingz run through... to me.

words conveyed daily
as form of communication
successfully or a failure
is 1 which is for us to ponder
alphabet which seems minor
but yet added 2gether creates meanings so major
expressing them r difficult... to me.

d little me hidden within
so difficult to bring out
but time is all it takez
fer pple to know the true me
not the quiet not the sane
the actual fer u to discover n proclaim
close fren u r... to me.

emotionz-> ChEeRiOz! hahaz
cuz my comp is fixed!! after the stupid virus attack! i gotta live without my dear comp fer a few daez k! almoz died of boredom! hahaz.. but now.. all my filez r deleted.. n i cannot find lotza my picz! like my slamdunk 1 which i set fer wallpaper with lovely sakuragi doing a dunk! now got a yandao (xian dao frm slamdunk) starrin at me.. hahahz!

yesh lost my lovely set of me to u bears picz! grr.. n all my photoz! haiz.. regret not saving them! n all my 300+ songz too! haiz.. now gotta re download again.. n all the lovely songz with sentimentz cuz sent by lovely frenz.. n bring back lovely memoriez! n all my stuff fer sch!! well.. on the optimistic side.. it clears up my comp! hahaz..

well.. i'm gettin used to movin ard in my crutches already.. ok.. get the difference.. gettin used is different frm liking.. i still hate the idea of movin ard in them.. feel so clumsy larz.. i wanna run n jump n walk ard! hahaz.. i wanna DANCE! the class involve in sum cheerleadin stuff.. n i cant join in with my lameness of cuz.. *sadz* n all the rottin at home is totally drivin me nuts! hahaz..

at least itz fun in sch.. fun being ard frenz n all! hahaz.. class on the 2nd level n i like sittin in class.. cuz the sch haf so many stepz n juz thinkin of them will make me wanna pull out my hair! n summore recently rainin.. i'll prob juz slip n fall n smash my nose or sumthin! haha thankfully.. i got lovely bunch of classmatez assistin me ard! sarah, ayan..jaimes.. jeri.. ok.. the list will juz go on n on.. basically juz the whole t09erz larz! haha itz still as fun in class!

movin abt the sch totally drains me out larz.. i get damn tired after every sch dae.. n i'll juz go home n slp like a pig! manz.. itz more energy drainin when i cld walk proper! even though lotza pple help me run errandz n get food n all!

hahaz n mark.. itz realli lonely when ur stuck at home all dae.. n finished ur hw.. n refuses to study! hahaz.. n itz worst without the comp to keep u sane n chat with frenz knowz! hahaz.. i practically slp my life away larz! hahhaaz.. aniwae tml therez mathz 3d trigo test! n i'm still hangin ard here.. obsessed with my comp! hahhaaz.. betta go study.. but i feelin v tired.. maybe study tml.. haha i go slp.. take care every1!

go c this 2 site.. quite comical! hahaz.. muz watch the 1st den the 2nd to c the funny side!

1 -> http://panasonic.jp/d-snap/popup/cm/256k_frame.html
2 -> http://home.kimo.com.tw/blanka520/c-snap/C-snap1.htm

n there are new links at the cool links section! do go check it out when ur free!
haha n the "photo hunt" u muz play until the end!!!

emotionz-> rotting away...
haha since thurz.. moz of my time are in front of my comp.. sittin on my comp chair.. till i almost cannot feel my butt animore!! hahaz.. yeahz.. itz tough having my leg in a cast.. but i'm already slowly adjusting.. all i realli wan is fer my ankle to recover.. the cracks to heal.. i miss dancing.. n i think after these 3 wkz! i'll juz grow fat!! haha cuz no exercise.. juz plain eating.. n sitting ard like a big slob..

i wan my life back.. well at least on mon.. part of my life will be back cuz i'll b in sch again! hahaz.. but prob is how i am gonna make it to sch n back larz.. so troublesome.. do u think i can take a bus?! sounds difficult arz.. haiz.. todae the class gonna b watchin 50 1st datez! i wanna watch too! n i feel like watchin van hailseng! hmph.. i wanna a quick recovery so i can go out n play! hahahaz.. like so demanding!

hmz.. feel kinda bad.. cuz of my legz so many changes gotta be made.. n make me forgo so many thingz.. plus gotta break afew promise.. sorry.. sorry fer causing all these.. sorry fer not being able to go out with u on ur bdae.. but promise.. promise i will make up fer everything after my leg recovers k..

actualli.. feels as if i'm quite lousy at my role.. i'm definitely not the nice "i'll do everything" kinda gurl.. dun even think i fit the romantic or whatsoeva thingz.. i'm stubborn.. haf my own opinionz.. dunno how to hoax pple.. n manz... sumtimez i do wonder.. was i 2 rush in decidin thingz.. but everytime u make everything seem fine again.. alwayz so accomodating.. haiz.. guess all i can do is take 1 step at a time.. n try not to dwell upon stuff too much.. besides... everything been going at a slow pace.. but i do confess.. sumtimez i wonder.. how will it be like if we were all back as close frenz again.. but guess itz a waste time kinda wonders.. so well.. letz get back to life...

gurlfren.. dun worry k.. i believe everything will turn out fine fer us.. maybe we are all too fresh in this kinda stuff.. guess sumtimez the explorin can b scary.. but yet a feeling of care n concern keepz us going on.. n holdin on.. everything ard plays an impt role.. n letz hope thingz ease themself right as time passes k!

Well.. it will b good if sum1 tellz us how thingz are like.. but i guess.. itz life that we are suppose to find it out fer ourselves.. n yesh.. everydae i discover new thingz.. n it scares me to know.. as everydae passes.. i feel myself walkin 1 step deeper.. *shiverz* itz scary.. n what will the ending of my story b? i alwayz love happy ending.. i love fairy tales.. but sumtimez.. life isnt all fairy tales.. itz heartbreakin sumtimez..den therez realli sad ending.. we wont know right till the v end.. whether our story is 1 which will make pple melt with sweetness n walk out of the theatre smiling.. or another that makes the audience well up in tears..i definitely hopes itz not the latter

n gurlfren.. yesh sumtimez we rather suffer alone.. but itz alwayz great to know therez are pple out there who will walk in with u.. not to suffer together.. but to walk hand in hand out of the sufferingz..

life is tough.. but if we look at thingz in the optimistic.. the daez will fly pass b4 u even know it.. take care every1! stay optimistic k! love u all lotz!