heyz every1! cuz therez so many photo "albumz" online now.. so i haf set aside a page fer ur to get all the pictures! n ur can pass this site ard.. so our privacy in blogz will not get invaded while pple is trying to get the photoz! haha ;) take care every1! pls go to the webbie fer recent updatez!

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emotionz-> loadsa funz!
haha the paz few daez haf been great! simply marvellous! hahaz the finale was an unforgettable experience.. haha when ranjan n i were sarbo into takin part in the finale item.. haha won the most entertaining award! if u see the performance.. u'll understand y we won it!

haha the guyz were made to dress up as gurlz! n gosh! they were all so enthu abt it! realli proud of them! haha n the gurlz dress up as guyz! n we did a dance to the grease songz.. trying to get the "gurlz"! n the "gurlz" were so sexy! hahaz.. in their skirtz.. hahaz..

n the nite at youth park was lotza fun.. playing dare n dare! haha pple ur were so enthu! every1 did the dare even though it was sick.. n made us look realli stupid! hahaz but the "stupid" thingz made the whole nite filled with laughter! hahaz.. look at the photoz i took to c the stupid thingz that we did in juz a matter of the few short hrz k! hahaz..

haha realli hafta summarise recent eventz.. cuz of the shortage of time.. n i hafta start concentrating on my studies soon! haiz... den therez prob which i'm facing now.. itz called testing the relationship i guess.. *sigh*... but still regardless of the problemz buildin up.. i'm still enjoying myself.. realli thanx to the pple ard.. thanx to t07/9.. u peepz rawkz! n thanx to u... thanx to the pple who haf been there fer me..

haha angela.. thanx fer chattin with me n all.. i believe u will find what ur seeking/hoping fer soon.. dun worry! hmz.. n yantong.. muz take care k! i'm realli worried fer u... haiz.. n phil.. if u read this.. dun get too stressed out by the orientation n sc stuff...take care ok.. take care every1!

emotionz-> pure tiredness...
haha my new class is fun! funky pple! loadsa t07 peepz frm the first 3 mthz in it! haha memberz of t09:
olivia, geraldine, serene, philiana, me, amirah, joanna, charlene, jaimes, sarah, dinesh, ranjan, hari, jasmine, wingman, joshua, rafiz.. PEI LING! hahaz

jasmine, joshua n wingman trying to appeal back to their ex class.. i think they feel rather awkward here.. guess it mite be betta if they get back.. cuz they will feel more comfy with their frenz.. but if bro paul dun allow.. i guess we'll try to welcum them in ritez peepz?!

haha i hope we didnt make the new cumerz feel left out.. haha feel damn bad esp when we start to clique together!! as in the ex t07 peepz! haiz.. mizz the rez loads.. immy trying to appeal back to our class.. he lookz left out in the other class.. even trina was telling me that! haiz.. i pray that bro paul will allow him back!

yepz.. these few daez haf been loadsa fun! love my class! hahaz.. todae had dragon boat n all! damn tired.. detailz maybe nex time k! i'm like dozing off already! take care every1! n to the 1st 3 mthz'2004 1t07... I MIZ YR LOTZ! even though many of u are in the class! take care every1! we'll try to meet up soon again!

aniwae.. t09 picz..->http://www.imagestation.com/album/?id=4287354137

emotionz-> tired but... *smilez*
*new linkz.. more pictures cumin up.. so dun ferget to check it out when u peepz are free!*
due to markz demand.. i'm supposed to share the momentz of missing sum1.. hahaz yeahz.. he popped into my mind several timez during the trip.. ok.. alot of timez.. timez where i juz sit there on the bus.. timez where i'm shopping n sumthing remindz me of him.. n therez our daily night call.. which was not possible..

but he called me.. on the v first night..n we chat fer awhile.. actualli i wanted to sms him but stopped myself.. n soon later.. i received his miss call n called back.. haha my heart leaped though i didnt show it.. hmz.. den the 2nd dae.. we communicated by sms.. hahaz.. short n simple.. but carry so much emotionz with it.. it touched me.. what he said..

yesh.. the laz dae.. he waited fer me frm 7.30.. all the wae till 9+... feel damn bad.. but cuz he said "though itz juz a short 2 daez.. but i juz cant wait to cya".. thatz y he waited.. but at 9+.. i was still in malaysia.. n i told him to go back.. cuz it was v late.. n i onli reached cjc at 11... yesh.. luckily he didnt wait.. i realli appreciated it.. thanx..

itz funny.. therez this thing.. when i wanna sms/call him.. but sumtimez.. i juz didnt dare/ haf the courage to.. but soon later.. his sms/call will cum.. itz funny how it works.. like sum form of telepathy... n therez timez when we both sms each other at the v same time.. Ayan sent me sumthing.. this email.. matching couplez.. n when i looked.. at the gurl=pisces.. n guy=taurus (our signz).. it saez "excellent match".. n i was filled with sweetness.. i hope it realli is so.. what the email saez..

fri.. i met him aft sch to watch d eye.. itz actually quite nice.. quite scary.. i realli enjoy his company.. todae we went to ju eng fer cip.. den he came over to my hse.. n we watched anna in kungfuland.. hahaz.. itz quite stupid.. but funni... n yesh... my mom knowz abt us.. i think she does.. n he told his mom too.. but peepz.. i still need ur to help me keep low profile.. cuz i haf yet to tell ani1 else..

hmz.. i suppose all of u got ur posting already.. hope ur got into the sch ur want.. n fer those appealing.. i hope everything will turn out well.. n ur appeal get through.. mark.. i heard abt what u got.. dun worry.. i realli hope cjc will accept ur appeal n let u return.. i'll pray fer u k! take care! n thanx mark n chelsa fer the lovely note ur left.. haha i'll mizz ur lotz too!

bball peepz: pictures of the malacca trip added.. click on the link at the "up close n personal" section to c the photoz.. more photoz cumin up! like those frm matches n all... tell ur when i updated it k!

1T07 alert: i've put more photoz that i haf taken on the laz dae of sch.. do drop by n take a look when ur r free at the 1t07 craziness album. Take care every1 n i will miz ya lotz! aniwae when ur get ur posting resultz.. do let me know where ur haf been posted to k! esp those staying in cjc!

emotionz-> tired...but fun
haha yest i onli reached home at 12am k! so tired! kekez.. d malacca trip was fun.. alot of shopping.. partying.. n matches! overall.. thatz wat we did in malacca.. hahahaz

tues
head fer malaysia.. den went to batu bahat.. played 1 match there.. we played horribly larz.. so got scolding.. felt real bad n all.. den that night got to malacca n had meeting in coach room.. den went to our own.. n set our aims n all... fer the next match.. we are determined to perform well..! aniwae i got a sweater.. looks damn funky.. grey in colour! i love it! hahaz

wed..
morn breakfast was buffet at hotel! they haf fantastic stuff fer sandwiches n i ate alot larz! haha.. den went to St francis institute.. cuz guys got match.. i think they won.. played well.. the referee is fantastic! not at all bias! hahaz.. den tour ard the sch abit.. aft that went back to hotel n allowed an 6 hr shopping! n i got lotza stuff... shirtz n all.. hahaz.. n the evening match was fantastic! we went all out.. played a fantastic game..even got the oppositon team real angry.. hmz.. i went to the place realli angry also.. cuz of coach sarcasm.. realli irritated by it.. but the team spirt touched me.. n i felt my love fer basketball cumin.. n when i went up.. i was filled with it.. i didnt know what i was doing but that i were to play well.. i haven got that feeling fer a realli long time.. n i LOVE the feeling! to all my team matez.. UR WERE FANTASTIC! thanx fer bringing out my love fer bball all over again!

thurz..
went fer breakfast n checked out by 10.30.. took 3 hr bus to jb.. n had lunch den went fer shoppin of which i didnt do much larz.. the match we lost the enthusiasm compared to the match b4.. i think itz cuz they were all tired.. real tired.. but i tried my best to go all out.. point of time.. when i made a mistake.. i will learn frm it.. realli will..

well.. he waited fer me.. frm 7.30... all the wae to abt 9 plus.. cuz he wanna send me back... i feel damn bad.. n i onli reached CJC at abt 11.. lucki he went back.. or i will feel realli bad.. but we chat in the night.. till abt 1.30am.. hahaz.. yesh.. i missed him.. but it wasnt that bad... cuz at least we communicated through sms.. abit larz.. n i called him once.. haha my phone billz gonna explode this mth! kekez..

aniwae i felt that i haf learnt alot during the trip.. n i can finally feel our team spirit.. the spirit that will make me wanna go all out.. the feeling where i juz wanna cheer fer the team! i think this is a fantastic trip! hope we will go all out fer our tournament!

heyz every1! therez new link... more picturez...

1t07 peepz:
the pic at danielz hse is up.. ur go check it out k.. cuz laz time my uploadin screw up.. now juz got it done! haha quite interesting!

the pic of t07 craziness also up.. itz not inclusive of todaez trip at sentosa though.. i'll upload those when i get back frm malacca k!

O.I. peepz + yantong:
pic of the bdae celeb! quite cool n funky! haha lotza pool shotz too! go check it out k!

emotionz-> joy.. happiness..
yesh.. everything aft laz fri haf been a paradise.. hahaz.. though nothin much happened.. but it felt like paradise to me.. which is more den enuff..

saturdae we had a match against mjc.. gurls lost to them by 6 ptz.. n guyz lost by 5 ptz.. think we cld haf played betta.. haha went to the food festival.. it was extremely packed! almost died! but the jap cheese cake was extremely good.. hahaz.. the ride to dance was long.. but the journey was sweet.. comfortable resting place.. n i was so tired dat i realli slept.. thanx.. i felt kinda bad though..

sundae.. went shoppin fer slipperz.. found funky slipperz at beach rd.. n realise they sell foot wear at quite low prices! next time go there buy shoez sure save alot one! hahaz.. Ivan was shocked to c him.. haha cuz he cut his hair short.. n Ivan cldnt stop luffin cuz he looked so gentleman compared to last time! hahaz.. helped ivan do sum shoppin.. realli enjoy doing shoppin 4/with otherz!

n todae.. training in the morn was realli draining.. den home fer shower.. n met my classmatez at sentosa fer chalet! i asked him to accompany me.. n he did.. Ivan came along too.. cuz he long time neva go sentosa already.. hahaz.. the chalet was kinda a "surprise" fer me.. cuz i expected small little bungalow.. but it was juz a room.. quite small.. cozy room.. den jaimes didnt know muz book bbq pit.. so we juz went there.. walk walk at the beach abit (no change of clothez so cannot go into water).. n den went back to the room.. played daidee.. hahaz.. thanx mark.. fer being friendly.. n thanx every1! ur all look so chio in swim suitz.. bikiniz.. n beach wear! hahaz.. yeahz.. n do remember to help me keep a low profile! will miss alll of ya lotz! n thanx fer the farewell gift!

well.. i finally took the initiative.. b4 we parted.. i tap on his arm.. n said i wanna tell him sumthin.. he bent down.. n i surprised him.. gave him a hug.. n whispered "i'll miss ya".. cuz i alwayz refuse to admit.. n he retured my hug... but it was a short moment.. cuz i hurried him back home.. his words are alwayz so sweet.. though realli simple.. but the emotionz it carries with it is so strong.. i dunno how long tis will last.. but hopefully it will last fer a long long time.. even Ivan commented.. that he frm being a heavy smoker.. cut down to one who onli takez a puff when he cannot withstand(which is like rarely fer now).. i realli appreciate it.. thanx fer trying to change.. thanx fer being who u are.. thanx fer juz liking/luving(?) me..

I'll be leaving fer malacca in a few hrz time.. i'll miss lotza pple.. esp him.. n snaffee.. yeapz.. n thanx t07 peepz.. fer all the farewell prezziez! i realli love them! thanx fer the lovely time at the chalet.. n i feel realli bad.. cuz todae i'm seriousli abit drained frm training.. n i'm abit spacing out alot of the time.. esp during daidee.. cuz i'm realli tired.. aniwae.. take care every1! i'll mizz all of ur lotz!

Know the difference between "somebody you Love" and
"somebody you Like"

In front of the person you like, your heart beats
faster.
But in front of the person you love, you get happy.
In front of the person you love, winter seems like
spring.
But in front of the person you like, winter is just
beautiful winter.
If you look into the eyes of the one you like, you
blush.
But if you look into the eyes of the one you love, you
smile.
In front of the person you like, you can't say
everything on your mind.
But in front of the person you love, you can.
In front of the person you like, you tend to get shy.
But in front of the person you love, you can show your
own self.
You can't look straight into the eyes of the one you
like.
But you can always smile into the eyes of the one you
love.
When the one you love is crying, you cry with them.
But when the one you like is crying, you end up
comforting.
The feeling of love starts from the eye But the
feeling of like starts from
the ear.
So if you stop liking a person you used to like, all
you need to do
is cover your ears.
But if you try to close your eyes, love turns into a
drop of tear and remains in your heart forever ...

n i guess.. this time it realli is love fer me..

emotionz-> embraced by love..
firstly.. i will like to address to my dear pal.. i've no idea what caused u to make the sudden decisionz.. but i guess it was fear.. cuz i faced it.. but i guess i handled it differently.. but maybe itz cuz we're in a total different situation.. it muz really hurt fer both of u.. but all i can sae is wish ya all the best in whateva u haf decided upon.. make sure u haf no regretz abt ur decisionz k!

what happened to me was really sumthing totally new... n yesh.. i've decided to let go of the thin strand of thread holding me on.. i've let go n let myself drop in.. to realise i've dropped in n got embraced by sumthing totally filled with warmth.. at least it is fer now..

iF +He sPaCes Be+WeeN uR FiNgeRs weRe cRea+eD So Da+ aNo+HeR PeRsoN's fiNgeRs Wld fiLL DeM iN... hOpE +ha+ miNe WiLL fiT In FiNe

a cute reply was what i received.. n everything changed.. the evening session was similar till the v last momentz.. when the escalatorz were slowly moving up.. i felt the warmth against my cold fingerz. the tingling feeling that was unforgettable went frm my little fingerz to every other part of my body.. tension rised in me.. i felt like a cold metal.. but i did not stop it.. let it go on.. till the bond breaks as the bus arrives...

Funny how conversation was abt hands.. the smallness of my hand... n i wasnt the 1 who brought it up.. n in the end.. i realise itz actually a "cover up".. b4 courage was finally retrieved... n held on tightly.. short journey.. but it was a start.. n den the little "note" came asking fer a different form of addressing.. hard to imagine it cumin out.. but it did..

facing the trouble of adapting to this new change in status.. wonderin if i shld let pple know.. but guess itz not wise.. with lotza other factorz pressing tight on me.. guess unless pple ask.. or else i wldnt sae.. but pls help me keep the profile low.. n not mention abt it much..

the meeting of my classmatez.. i guess they'll wonder.. though sum already knowz.. guess the prob with me is i seldom take the initiative.. in fact.. i've neva taken the first stepz.. i'm gettin used to the warmth.. startin to like it.. though it still feel kinda weird.. but guess time is realli what i need..

haha met wuhao todae.. he look v different! so cool in his new image.. can barely recognise him.. hahaz.. xiufen.. hope u found the bag! hopefully sum1 nice see it n returns it..!! haiz.. hate it when i lose stuff! n pal.. do cheer up.. n dun keep everything inside u k.. itz torturing! i believe everthing will turn out fine fer ya...

emotionz-> i feel happy
haha we played against MI todae... won larz.. 50-11.... contributed 2 ptz to the 50.. actualli got another shot.. but wasnt counted cuz sum1 foul juz b4 i took d shot.. hahaz.. nothin much larz.. all underbasket shotz.. every1 was juz great todae larz.. all started high.. so quite good.. but even though we all played well n coach didnt scold.. but still feel that therez more room fer improvement.. cuz the MI playerz arnt that good.. so we hafta keep working to defeat the betta playerz!

Saw Marian at MI! so long neva c her already! hahhaaz.. den she still as crazy as eva.. haha v lame n all! den abit paisehz there.. hahahhaz.. mr amir came back.. but of cuz he didnt recognise me.. cuz i maintain v low profile at OI! c not bad ritez.. haha even though i also got skip a lot of class.. but the skill is.. not to get caught! hahahaz..

well.. we got our jersey todae! haha itz baby blue in colour.. actualli not bad larz.. have yet to print the cjc logo yet.. hahaz.. after malacca trip den print! well.. my no. is 6! hahaz.. yayz! my lucky no.! kekez.. n my class was like playing with the no. 6 n ask if can call me by my no.! hahaa they came up with loadsa crap larz.. several 1st thought was of 69.. haha n they were attempting to call me "sixy"(doesnt it sound like "sexy" pronounced in the the william hung wae?) hahaz..

hmz.. i know many sae itz good.. good that very close frenz actually moved to a stage more in depth.. cuz they already know each other so well.. i used to love the idea too.. but no idea y.. when i realli faced it.. i dunno how to accept it.. but onli to realise that my platonic love is facing a transition.. drawing me nearer n nearer to another form of love... a love which is a stranger to me.. sumthin fer me to find out.. sumthin fer me to know.. but yet i realli fear.. but i realise now.. dat u haf slowly led me towards it.. itz sumthin that i cannot escape frm..

itz funny how ur so "obedient" towards what i sae.. sumtimes i feel i'm in so much control.. n i feel bad.. cuz i alwayz suan u... alwayz scold u.. but thatz cuz ur doing sumthin which i feel is not right.. but yet u get my point n actualli listen.. though ur not a romantic sorta person.. but ur care is noted.. put into my little brain controlled diary..

hmz.. tml is the dae... is the dae i kinda promised that we'll talk abt a decision.. cuz i said i will onli talk to u abt it after ur paperz.. i realli dunno what to sae.. dunno what to do.. esp when i'm a person who dun like to express in words.. hahaz.. i'll feel so embarassed.. funny that this is coming out frm me.. but yeahz.. haiz.. i know many of u r screaming at me to sae "YES" but i juz cant do it.. it seems so easy.. but itz extremely difficult to me!

i like to c couplez.. i love happy endingz.. but itz difficult when i hafta be the 1 to make it happen.. but i'm realli glad to c the a couple blossom n really wishes them all the best! n i realli hope ur will experience happy endingz!! as for those who haf yet to experience love.. dun worry.. ur chance will look fer u soon.. dun sae "wont 1 larz" or sumthin lidat.. cuz thatz what i used to sae.. n look what happenz to me now.. hahaz.. take care every1!

emotionz-> itz a rainy dae...
it has started to pour since todae morn.. till now.. itz still pouring.. making the weather all chilly.. a little humid in the noon.. but now.. itz CHILLY! extremely good fer sleeping! hahaz.. life in school is pretty good.. i feel my health improving.. n my energy cuming back! pple.. u betta watch out fer my nonsense manz.. MUAHAHAHA(evil laugh..)!

juz got my bball schedule n all.. den itz like DAMN TIGHT! manz... but i kinda expected it.. haha but also good.. can train.. build stomach muscles! hahaz.. aniwae herez my schedule..

mon => training frm 5-7
tues => dance frm 8-9.30
wed => training frm 3.30-6.30
thurz => break!!
fri => training frm 5-7
sat => alternate wks -CIP in the morn, ballet 5-6.30

this wk :
wed => friendly match against MI (at last time OI!)
sat => friendly match against MJC

Next wk:
tues to thurs => tues morn to thurs 8pm.. in malacca... got 3 matches n training sessionz..

haha at the same time my classmatez haf chalet at sentosa on mon to wed lorz! i'll be so jealous! cuz i cant go as i prob haf training followed by malacca.. hmph! this is the 3rd.. or izit the 4th.. that they went Sentosa WITHOUT ME!! hahaz.. hopefully still got another time.. haiz..

todae suppose to haf training but since it rained whole dae.. didnt train.. coach wanted to go to a class n ask if we know ani class was open.. haha n i was like "my class is alwayz open.. but itz on the 5th level!" hahahaz.. den in the end they realli went up! n of cuz itz open larz.. both doorz summore! hahhaz.. n they were like commenting that my class r crazy.. cuz "quote of the dae: knncb..." haha i cannot remember larz.. but it was a whole chain of vulgarities! hahaz

u realli surprised me, by askin again so soonand at such a critical time for u.
sumtimez i realli wonder, y will ani1 like sum1 of such boyish character. no i am neither sweet nor tender, n i'll nag at u like a irritatin sister. Sumtimez ur eyes reveals to me a little boy, wishing and earning fer sumthin.. being so truthful.. makes it so hard to reject.. as it brings out what i really want too! it surprises me to know therez these little forms of similiarities in us.. n sumtimez i feel tempted.. i dunno if u do too.. dunno whatz running through ur mind abt me.. but knowing ur feelingz.. itz funny...

Itz funny how we both reflectz at the first impressionz.. how i got really irritated by ur actionz.. by ur red cap.. n by ur attitude! hahaz.. n itz funny how u remembered that i'll get damn irritated... n neva failz to try n irritate me more unknowingly.. funny how i remembered i used b scared of u.. cuz u look so fierce.. n so cold.. sum1 who barely answer my qn.. sum1 who make me feel like i'm tokin to myself.. but look at us now.. look at how it all turned ard.. n though u can still irritate me.. hahaz.. but itz all different.. hmz.. comical how life is like.. how thingz changes aft 1 yr.. n now frm the little pest.. u became my v good fren.. n maybe gonna be more den my v good fren..

my mind is in a whirl.. wondering what is the proper reply.. think i shld juz take 1 step at a time.. hmz.. itz so interesting to read pplez blog.. esp when u know inside info of the person.. cuz itz like.. hahaha.. u understand whatz going on... so ur know who u are... i'm constantly waiting for updatez! hahhahaz! aniwae i gtg already.. nitez n sweet dreamz!

emotionz-> feelin sick.. but feel realli loved...
haha loved by all my good frenz n buddyz.. n my lovely t07 classmatez too! hahaz.. okok.. n the special sum1.... i feeling much beta already larz.. but still abit weird in my stomach.. thanx fer being concern that dae k!! n sorry if i kinda spoilt ur fun.. think i caught a horrible cold.. n my gastric cuming back to haunt me cuz haven been lookin aft it..

thanx bingz.. fer the treat at fish n co! thanx fer the concern mark! haha n xiufen..muz b more confident abt urself k! we love u fer who u are! thanx yantong fer being so caring abt my health! hahaz.. thanx every1! n sorry if i'm not my usual self recently cuz i need time to recover frm this weird sickness.. n i actualli feel funny all over larz.. but i'm gettin betta!

aniwae.. hahaz.. abt the gettin a bf n going clubbin prob.. haha when u haf bf... bf will all sae they will bring u go clubbing.. but with bf dere arz.. like everything also restricted! hahhahahaz.. dance also muz be careful... etc etc.. haha but actualli i also dun mind going clubbin with bf.. so long as i get a chance to dance n all.. to be crazy! hahahhaz.. manz.. i miss doing hip hop dancing! been so long since i laz did hip hop! grr!!

haha if itz possible.. i feel like learning all the different formz of dance! feel like trying salsa.. ballroom... n even partz of whatz in dirty dancing! it all seemz so cool! but pple haf to be realli open minded to accept dirty dancing stuff! hahhahaz if haf a bf.. n he'z not open minded.. my poor dancing partnar will get bashed up horribly.. hahahaz.. but 1stly.. i muz get my nice stomach muscles first! den i will go consider! n of cuz.. muz find myself a dancing partnar.. which is damn difficult! hahhahaz..

well.. i feel that the song toxic can be so right.. it can be so addictive.. i'm addicted to hear u crap.. addicted to kinda c ya.. itz actualli kinda bad.. cuz i'm gonna dive right into the tight schedule soon... den we'll both feel the difficulty in finding time to meet.. n therez the period of time where i'll b in malacca.. *shrugz* dun ask me whatz gonna happen.. cuz i realli dunno.. juz gonna take 1 step at a time.. n c what will happen.. haiz.. problem problem..

aniwae fer now.. i juz hafta concentrate on dance.. n bball matches/tournamentz.. we gonna play against vj.. tj.. jj.. all the pro pple.. so think.. itz a tough match.. haiz.. juz hope we will do our bez... n therez cummin up mj n mi frenli match.. haiz.. think i betta go rez already.. cyaz n take care every1!

emotionz-> a little of confusionz.. but still good...
hmz.. well.. in juz a few daez.. realised lotza thingz.. found sum1 whoz in similar plight as me.. sumthingz made me confused..

itz ur 3rd time asking.. my 3rd time getting confused.. juz that now itz more clarity den confusion...though i gave u a weird answer with no confirmation.. but i guess u know what i mean... thanx fer sparing me the time.. thanx.. thanx fer being so patient.. i know itz kinda bad cuz i've been trying to restrain myself frm falling in.. n not lettin nature "take itz course".. but thatz cuz i fear.. but everytime the little actionz of urz.. make my heart do a jerk n lose itz stability..

juz when i was prepared to run under the rain.. u appeared with an umbrella knowing that i seldom carry umbrellaz ard.. u knew my nose is sensitive.. n tried to kept it away.. u knew i was hungry when i claim i wasnt.. u understand my stubborn character n gave in to me several timez (but i still feel itz logical....).. u knew i will be cold n offered to bring me a sweater (cuz u knew i was too lazy to bring them out too).. though i alwayz dun mention anithin abt the little thingz u do.. but seriousli i do appreciate it.. n even though i knew u are neva gonna read this.. but i still feel betta juz saying it out here.. guess i'm realli gut-less n stubborn in almoz everywae..

but everytime u get so understanding towards me.. i feel realli guilty..itz like u try to accomodate my timing.. n even though i try my bez to make it easy but i still feel bad.. but seriousli being with u makez me feel comfy.. haiz.. so many proz n conz.. ok.. i know sum of ur gonna sae "but d proz so out do the conz..." but yeahz..

haha aniwae xiufen.. i'm allowed to go out till late.. but it dependz on whom i'm with.. haha if with my O.I frenz or my god bro.. i'm allowed.. cuz she knowz them well n all sure they will look aft me marz.. kekez.. but i needa get a bf to go clubbing... sum stupid logic.. cuz she sae if haf bf.. den got sum1 to look aft me cuz bf wont let gf get cheated marz.. grr... if i haf bf den my bf definitely wont let me go club lorz.. grr! hahaz..

n gurlfren! thanx fer doing d "note" taking with me todae! realli enjoyed the "note" taking session! hahhahaz.. i guess fer us.. itz tough to manage.. but i'm sure u feel the happiness amg all these also ritez.. maybe.. if we think in the spiritual wae.. God feelz that we're too busy thatz y let us haf such understanding pple in our lives.. hahaz.. so in a wae muz thank god.. muz thank the pple ard us.. hahaz...

hahaz aniwae todae pe was damn fun! long time since i had such great fun..! hmz.. we played volleyball.. den manda, chelsa, n i was in a team! den hari n i tried to pair up to spike! hahahaz.. we lost to imran they all but it was a good game.. cuz main objective reached-> WE HAD FUN! hahhahaz.. hope we haf more pe sessionz to play n all! nex wk is soccer n netball? i fergot.. hahhahz.. but cool! lookin ferward to it! luv my class....!!!!

aniwae every1 take care k... i gtg slp.. damn tired!.. thanx fer hearin me crap... cyaz

i read mark'z blog.. itz so scary... itz so scary how i feel exactly the same as him now.. i mean not totally abt everything.. but this certain part that seemz as if he juz did an x-ray scan.. n printed out my feelingz...

"i'm really scared of getting into a relationship.. really.. learnt from other's experience.. just have no time for others.."

"actually i'd rather not get into a relationship now.. at this time of uncertainty.."

seriousli.. gf.. u juz voiced out whatevaz deep down in my heart.. fearz.. uncertaintiez.. sighz... therez many more partz which he expressed my thoughtz.. but fer me itz in a different perspective.. different angle... except that i'm not as spiritual as him.. haha trying to work thingz in a emotionz plus logical wae? hahaz... guess all i can do is take thingz 1 step at a time.. n hope my undecisive little heart knowz what exactly it hafta do... n i wish ya all d bez.. hope both of us can sort out the "prob" we facing.. take care ok!

emotionz-> it was loadsa fun...
haha i'm sittin in my chair.. waitin fer my mom to cum back n prepare dinner.. *growlz*.. my poor tummy.. hahaz well.. todae i realli had loadsa fun! thanx peepz..! though i was realli tired n drained frm wakin up too earli to prac fer dance n doing mathz yest.. haha that explain y i keep slpin in class.. kekez..

sch ended at 1.10 n itz gonna end at 1.10 fer this 2 wkz! HOORAY! hahaz.. so aft sch.. went out with classmatez! haha but we ended up splitting into 2 grpz.. 1 to play pool.. n the other to watch movie.. well.. the movie grp includez amanda, chelsa, junyi n mark.. while amira, joanna, charlene, jaimes n binglez make up the other who wanna play pool.. well i feel more comfy with junyi n mark they all.. but todae no mood watch movie.. think cuz too tired n think this yr alone (which is like juz 2 mthz onli..) i caught at least 5 showz.. n therez alot of other showz i wanna watch.. hahaz.. so i went to play pool with the amirah they all!

haha pool was fun larz.. i paired up with amira fer several rounds.. n even trash jaimes fer 1.. haha it was luck larz.. overall.. i'm horrible at pool! hahhaaz.. hmz.. den in the end we went pizza hut to eat lunch.. sarah n ailing joined us.. hahaz so binglez, amira, sarah n jaimes shared family feast! n i chipped in 4 buckz fer the family feast cuz i wanna salad n took 1 piece of hawaiian pizza! hahaha I LOVE SALAD.. no idea but recently got craving fer saladz.. n to think i used to hate it! hahahz.. den sarah, amira n i got realli tempted by the oreoz cheesecake.. so we shared 1! kekez.. itz so heavenly! juz the mere thought of it.. makez my stomach lurch more! hahahz..

aft that sum of them went to bowl.. think junyi, hari, peiling, huijia n binglez went to play pool again! hahhaaz.. den i abit drained liaoz.. so went home.. n i dozed off in the bus n almost missed my bus stop k! hahahz.. thatz how tired i was! n reached home.. like lotza time to spare.. so i watched 2 fast 2 furious! DAMN NICE! hahaz watch the car speed away! manz.. i LOVE THE CONVERTIBLE! but itz damn ex.. n abit impractical.. haiz.. but SO NICE!