YAY-ness!!

u all know why. heheh. i.... screwedUpEverythingButIDunCareCuzItsOVER!

muahahahahah.

i'm going mad.

i have enough pent up energy to scream for many many days. i need to go escape, horror movie or whatever it is to like GET IT ALL OUT. its suffocating me! muahahahaha.

I PACKED MY ROOM!

yeah its the last day of exam n i came home to pack my room!

oh before that i did take a jog. my stamina...... DETERIORATED. its like 15:26 for 2km. AHHHH. thats like.. damn slow in comparison to last time. i need to EXERCISE. my gosh. i felt like dying when i was running. after the jog, my whole leg feels so weak. sheesh. new goal.

tmr got work. sian-ness.

but yayness! at least its heavy load off my shoulders!

even though it still....

hurts.

semesterscrewed.

seriously. so much for the miraculous a. i didn't have time to finish the paper. freak. n it was so freaking tough. plus all the notes didnt seem to be helpful. it was too much application n i was too slow in thought processing. sheesh.

wonder how screwed this sem will be.

one more paper to screw.

its protesting again! grr.. i wonder whats up with my entire system. i think i need to exercise before it starts to degenerate. have an issue with stubborness, praises, experssing empathy, going beyond the conversed, n myself. i'm human. but that doesnt allow space for excuses to remain stagnant.

studies made me mad. i was mad so this came along...

it was once upon a time,
when we shared many laughters and joy,
many sorrows and worries,
now its all buried under.

would it be called a drift?
or considered progress?
meetin up the new
maybe its just the way life is.

the bonds that were once so strong
suddenly lost its grip,
maybe actually not so sudden
just that neglect blurred process.

blame it on tightness,
accuse the schedules,
just whose fault
pls reflect n maybe its self.

upper class, middle class, working class
for most are working class suffering in superior values
how much exactly do these 'intellects' claims
really reflect the feelings of marginalised?

how about those who are stuck
between both values
prestige vs. suffering
maybe thats why they are working this hard.

with such diversity in values
maybe society is to blame
yet the gap gets wider and wider
who are the real intellects?

it all becomes ironic,
ever thought of words vs actions
maybe the studied
are most inconsiderate and the dumbest.

dumbshit.

maybe its too much bed. haha or too much bed spread.

i know this sound absurd but if i'm going to score low, i hope i fail. like really fail fail. so the cap will not be counted n i can do another module another sem to cover it up.

i guess sociology as forms of study is really not my forte.

i stared at the paper n really felt dumb.

was so slow, not that i can't write fast, but that i really have no idea what to write. n what came out, was worse than shit. the more i think of what i wrote, the more ridiculous it sounds.

i pity the person who needs to read my paper. i hope he get so frustrated, crush it up n fail me.

this sem, projects are just screw-me-further stuff.

i hope my 2 social work modules will miraculously score A. MIRACULOUSLY. at least the cap will not be that drastic low.

say bye to potential scholarship, say bye to hardwork (ok not says theres a lot but still..)

had too much of me.

2 paper screwed. 3moretogo
luck is not near me i guess.

too complicated.

selfcentredbitch.

I'm HUNGRY!

grr. just had paper. had a slice of bed this morn. my entire systems is WRong. n now i'm waiting for breakfast/lunch/tea or whatever u call that. almost slipped down the stairs. sucha klutz. such weak muscles. sucha scare for witnessing the klutz.

4 more paper to go! i can't wait.

not smooth for number 1.

hope 2-5 is better polished.

2nd one is unstable. gosh. ahh. rambles. roars.

coffee too late yesterday. forgot. such detriments for those weak with caffeine.

bang.

MUG.

which i am so not doing. got tired of deviance so i became a deviant student. haha ok lar. i prefer to say i'm taking a break (which i actually did for a pretty long time, like watching tv blah blah blah). gosh. i hate to study. sounds like my boy. haha but i really hate to study. spoils the fun in EVERYTHING. shit.

anyway, so i was surfing around n got amused by some stuff.

You Are Cameo

You are understanding and very empathetic. You don't tend to have acquaintances. Everyone is your friend. And all of your friends tend to be friends. You have a knack for bringing very different people together.

What Color Orange Are You?

and got reminded of some frenz.. ok 1 particular fren..

You Are Banana Pocky

Your attitude: fun and lighthearted Unique and unforgettable You are cutie everyone falls for

What Flavor Pocky Are You?

makes me realise how long i haven seen her n chat and laughed with her over nitty gritty dumb stuff. ok lar. not that dumb. its just bananas. haha

my gosh. i miss all my frenz a lot.

I'm jealous, i want to watch poto live.

mug, i should. ok i shall.

9 more days to freeeeeeeedom (temporarily).

yay!

i'm feeling much better already. no more lao-sai-ing though tummy still rumbles once in a while. i took loadsa fruits (esp now mom got off till sat... ) and ate a lot of healthy stuff! but... after that diarrhea.. i haven gone to the toilet to shit. gosh.

thanks for the concern every1!

i'm feeling downright lazy. always sitting ard n trying to mug. yes the word is TRYING. haha

n i can't wait for next epi naruto! i want to read it online lar. its way too long. gosh.

exam is in a few days. i need a lot of luck. i don't think i need to explain. haha

n yay! vas and pris got through to finals into the dance floor! =) haha shld i watch dance floor on sunday? its the finale!!! gosh.

i shld continue with my lifespan and development readings. the book look so freaking thick. so many things to absorb. so distracted.

shoooooot me.

bad start.

disturbed sleep, absurd feeling in the tummy. woke ran to the toilet n had those painful-for- dunno-how-long kinda diarrhoea. whole body limp. whole toilet and room is spinning. when i returned to bed it was 5:30am. tossed n turn, weird feeling in the stomach. in and out of toilet but no progress. sat in the living room, got a cup of warm water. did not finish the warm water. went to bed. 6:15am. in and out of toilet. tossed and turn on bed. went out to the living room and stayed compact in the corner of my sofa. n i dozed off. finally. woke up, walked into the room, collapsed onto bed 7:13am.

9plus am n my mom comes into my room in her agitated tone for breakfast n messy hse. she got off day from work. thankfully she left me to slp a little more after explanations of the bad morning i had. still, the noises outside my room was too unbearable n i cld not go back to slp.

i hate it when my mom is in bad mood. every1 will get a lot of scoldings for very minute stuff. messy house top in her nagging n scolding list. shoot me. when one is frail from that tedious morn, i really don't wish to get irritated any more.

was supposed to go to school, felt too weak. kinda regret not going to school when i had to face all the scoldings n naggings. even my dog got scolding for shitting (she shit at the right place n damn clean lar). that made me blow again. n this time quite harshly, kinda shouted that if she's in a bad mood don't go ard shouting at pple. yeah my dad complained abt it in the car too.

so now i'm being quiet. dad's being quiet. she's mumbling complaints. all doing our own stuff.

i think she's stressed. its expected thinking abt how both my dad n i really have no talent in keeping the hse clean. but.. all the noise, was it necessary?! good thing abt family is a few hrs/mins later, all will be well. like now. haha

i think i need slp. it's really shit to fall sick when exams are so near. yeah i was still really in good health yesterday before i slept. n i have so many undone stuff. n 2 things to collect from sch. i feel so freaking lazy to go school. n there's still tuition. gosh.

even snaff knows of the situation n hides under my chair for rest. as u can tell, its rather common. haha

rumbling tummy.

I never knew so much about my birthdate.

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23 February 1986

Your date of conception was on or about 2 June 1985 which was a Sunday.

You were born on a Sunday
under the astrological sign Pisces.
Your Life path number is 4.

Life Path Compatibility:
You are most compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 2, 4, 8, 11 & 22.
You should get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 6 & 7.
You are least compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 1, 3, 5 & 9.

The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2446484.5.
The golden number for 1986 is 11.
The epact number for 1986 is 19.
The year 1986 was not a leap year.

Your birthday falls into the Chinese year beginning 2/9/1986 and ending 1/28/1987.
You were born in the Chinese year of the Tiger.

Your Native American Zodiac sign is Wolf; your plant is Plantain.

You were born in the Egyptian month of Pachons, the first month of the season of Shomu (Harvest).

Your date of birth on the Hebrew calendar is 14 AdarI 5746.
Or if you were born after sundown then the date is 15 AdarI 5746.

The Mayan Calendar long count date of your birthday is 12.18.12.14.0 which is
12 baktun 18 katun 12 tun 14 uinal 0 kin

The Hijra (Islamic Calendar) date of your birth is Sunday, 13 Jumadiyu'th-Thani 1406 (1406-6-13).

The date of Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 30 March 1986.
The date of Orthodox Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 4 May 1986.
The date of Ash Wednesday (the first day of Lent) on your birth year was Wednesday 12 February 1986.
The date of Whitsun (Pentecost Sunday) in the year of your birth was Sunday 18 May 1986.
The date of Whisuntide in the year of your birth was Sunday 25 May 1986.
The date of Rosh Hashanah in the year of your birth was Saturday, 4 October 1986.
The date of Passover in the year of your birth was Thursday, 24 April 1986.
The date of Mardi Gras on your birth year was Tuesday 11 February 1986.

As of 4/16/2007 3:39:43 AM EDT
You are 21 years old.
You are 254 months old.
You are 1,103 weeks old.
You are 7,722 days old.
You are 185,331 hours old.
You are 11,119,899 minutes old.
You are 667,193,983 seconds old.

Celebrities who share your birthday:

Dakota Fanning (1994)	Tommy McCarthy (1980)	Howard Jones (1955)
Patricia Richardson (1951)	John Sandford (1944)	Johnny Winter (1944)
Peter Fonda (1939)	Donna J. Stone (1933)	W.E.B. DuBois (1868)
George Frederic Handel (1685)

Top songs of 1986

That's What Friends Are For by Dionne & Friends	Walk Like an Egyptian by Bangles
On My Own by Patti LaBelle & Michael McDonald	Greatest Love of All by Whitney Houston
Stuck with You by Huey Lewis & the News	Rock Me Amadeus by Falco
Kyrie by Mr. Mister	Kiss by Prince & the Revolution
Papa Don't Preach by Madonna	How Will I Know by Whitney Houston

Your age is the equivalent of a dog that is 3.02230919765166 years old. (Life's just a big chewy bone for you!)

There are 313 days till your next birthday
on which your cake will have 22 candles.

Those 22 candles produce 22 BTUs,
or 5,544 calories of heat (that's only 5.5440 food Calories!) .
You can boil 2.51 US ounces of water with that many candles.

In 1986 there were approximately 3.7 million births in the US.
In 1986 the US population was approximately 226,545,805 people, 64.0 persons per square mile.
In 1986 in the US there were 2,400,000 marriages (10%) and 1,159,000 divorces (4.8%)
In 1986 in the US there were approximately 1,990,000 deaths (8.8 per 1000)
In the US a new person is born approximately every 8 seconds.
In the US one person dies approximately every 12 seconds.

In 1986 the population of Australia was approximately 16,138,769.
In 1986 there were approximately 243,408 births in Australia.
In 1986 in Australia there were approximately 114,913 marriages and 39,417 divorces.
In 1986 in Australia there were approximately 114,981 deaths.


Your birthstone is Amethyst

The Mystical properties of Amethyst

Amethyst is used to increase spiritually

Some lists consider these stones to be your birthstone. (Birthstone lists come from Jewelers, Tibet, Ayurvedic Indian medicine, and other sources)

Bloodstone, Onyx, Moonstone

Your birth tree is

Pine Tree, the Particularity

Loves agreeable company, very robust, knows how to make life comfortable, very active, natural, good companion, but seldom friendly, falls easily in love but its passion burns out quickly, gives up easily, many disappointments till it finds its ideal, trustworthy, practical.

There are 253 days till Christmas 2007!
There are 266 days till Orthodox Christmas!

The moon's phase on the day you were
born was full.

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This is a msn conversation which i totally agree with.

Me: so if i really hook one.. how do u think my bf will be like?

teck: if you really hook one, he will look like 69, behaves like zaraki and have hair like ichigo and treat you like your snaff treats your

teck:oh

teck: and rich

For references:
69 looks


Zaraki's personality


Ichigo's hair


Snaffee's attention


i don't think u need references for rich. u can go google it or dictionary it. ur will know. haha

so random.

darn interesting.

i'm undefined. wonder what that means. rofl.

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why am i online?

this is a very good question. i should have disappeared behind those mountains of books n started to mug since i haven started at all n been lagging behind in all my freaking readings.

anyway the reaping is crappy, dont watch. only the effects r good. but it was a good catharsis movie for me. purging all my freaking locked up emotions and losing the pessimism with the rollercoaster ride of movie simulated emotions. made me happier. maybe cuz i was just damn deprived of movies. haha

oh n did u know i was checked when watching nc 16 movie? gosh. do i look THAT young? i'm not even near 16 anymore. den again, it makes me wonder if its advantage or detriment for looking that young? is it really my looks? or is it my dressing (i was in zara top and levi's jeans n it was NOT baggy)? i was just standing there very stoned looking at my wallet for my card so i don't think it was my behaviour at that time. looking young is good generally, but in my profession.. it might just become a detriment. what do u think my clients will think?

it was great seeing wing. n yes wing, we should be catching up soon! cheers n yays to the long holidays.. which will prob FLY past.

had a good conference yesterday online. very random, but really somewhat enjoyable. the teasing, the laughing, the agreement that shane is freaking good looking butch n will turn any straight person les. haha don't ask me why were we watching les clips in the middle of the night.

erickson says ur in intimacy vs. isolation stage when ur age 20-30. so bear with it every1. or enjoy this stage if u are! =)

i think i might screw up this sem, so let me try to get it right. n to get it right, i should be buried under the books and understanding what on earth are those words shouting at me about! gosh. i so feel like slacking. no time. exams are so freaking near. i need my term papers which willprob be a major pushign factor for me to study, cuz i'll prob screw it up due to wrong referencing- AGAIN! shit stuff.

mug mug mug. rob the books of its knowledge. put it under the pillow and dream it in. burn it away and drink it down. den shit it all out in exams. hopefully intelligently. gosh.

yes n i still need to walk n meet peirong to pass her some books for japanese studies project. hope we'll meet the dateline or its another module screwed.

btw for clarification sake, i am not in love or anything like that. aiyo, stop making wild guesses. my life is simple, ok.. at least it is now. its just me and my family, n dear dear snaffee, n uni, n work and boy boy (who is my tuition kid in primary 4 n i quite dote on him) and friends. thats about all. as for now, uni is gonna eat up all my available time till end of exams. freak.

read mug study cram.

so dumb.

panic.

i slept early cuz i was tired. woke up with puffy eyes and all. so i slept at 11pm. d next thing i know.. i thought i heard sounds. i slam my alarm clock (it has radio features!). i look at the clock by my bed.. AHHHH 23mins! i'm gonna be late for school!!!! (note. i have to wake at like 6am for school...so clock will show like 8:00) so i dash to my toilet- wash up, change, grab my stuff and shaft them in bag. den i ran out of my room to grab my breakfast. to my surprise.. DAD was still awake!!! the sky was still dark!

so i went to his room n ask 'how come u haven sleep yet? still reading papers?'

dad: 'huh? its only ermz... 12 plus'

me: blank look

dad: 'i just walked past ur room to help clean ur dog pee.. u even switched on the radio?'

me: after thinking for awhile 'my radio auto on at 12am.. haven't been able to fix that. oh shit.........'

dad: laughs.

so i went back to bed. after changing back to my original teeshirt n shorts. with the apple perfume. rofl. so dumb. n really woke up at 6:20am.

after working my brain from 8.15am in the morn till 6pm... n tolerating another 1 and 1/2 hr of tuition... my brain protest. n on my way home, i recalled.. i haven eaten much the entire day! all the work just overtook my body. lucky grp mate got us waffle if not i wld have been on empty tummy for an entire day since morn breakfast.

return home to mom's home cooked delicacy. i love mom. she always have an intuition for me.. especially my tummy. haha

i need to recover my personality. oh optimism, pls return. =)

loved.

Nehz.

i'm materialistic. get it? haha what to do, i live in a materialistic world. at times like this, i really wish i have a rich boyfriend or just get married to a really old wealthy rich man so i can inherit his wealth. oh well, its a cruel society. den again, my heart is not THAT materialistic. being wealthy rich is the bonus. since i am not, i shall continue slogging my life away for cash. haha

let me just whine a little bit.

i am deprived of entertainment, deprived of companion, deprived of what most refer to as 'life'. oh well. only myself to blame. i need to have a form of catharsis. so that means i need a movie? so jealous when i read abt rah n char watching movie. these are times when i just wish i have slightly more 'life'. i used to think that at least i find joy in the things i do, but sometimes deprivation takes the simple joy away. i just need to have some forms of catharsis.. and this... is sadly part of my only mean of catharsis so pardon me. skip this entry.

so what did uni teach me? it taught me that it is highly important to be materialistic and have money. rofl. think of tuition fees, books, notes, printing fees, cashcards. sometimes, i feel that even food can be put aside.

so i was damn happy when mom called and said that dad is swinging by town to pick us up after work for supper. something so small but yet released the restricted soul. went for durian at geylang. came home craving for bed.

i'm just being emo. being selfish.

ignore this entry.

or

ignore me.