Friday, August 29, 2003

emotioz-> Teacherz dae n my "catch up on slp" dae! hahahaz..
todae teacherz dae.. den the programme quite ok larz.. mr rj son so CUTE! haha like mini version of mr rj.. but he so shy.. den cry.. jie min muz be u go scare him until he cry 1.. hahaz.. den todae coach dress until DAMN CHIO! she rawkz manz.. hahaz.. den kj baked the cake v nice lehz! juz that todae got horrible tummy.. yest do othello until 1 plus den had diahoreaa so todae cannot anihow eat..

haha den sch end at 11 but i was too tired to go aniwhere.. doggy jiemin n sister all go back to their former sch n i was damn shagged.. so went home n slept frm 1-4 plus.. actualli i think i wld haf slept past dinner if my mom didnt cum home n make me wake up n eat sum stuff cuz i skipped lunch.. hahaz.. den now i so tired.. kekez.. okok know i pig larz.. but i realli damn tired.. den tml i sure slp until v late again! kekez

haha yt.. i still think that guyz play saxaphone fer musical instrument nicer den they play guitar.. kekez.. but of cuz muz haf the rite style larz.. haha but i think guyz can dance hip hop the bez manz.. hahahaz n pple who can play bball are pro also! kekez..



You are an angel.

What legend are you?. Take the Legendary Being Quiz by Paradox

hahaz.. me angel? prob the stupidest n blurest 1.. kekez.. but i feel every1 is an angel.. even though they may haf their weaknesses n all.. esp my good frenz.. well i know pple can be pretty bitchy n criticise our weak ptz but all i can sae is that even though i may not retaliate fer u n argue back.. but ur will alwayz remain as my frenz in my heart.. n i will treasure ur frenship even though i dun show it.. n thanx fer tolerating me nonsense! thanx angelz..

Monday, August 25, 2003

emotioz-> happy daez.. though with ups n downz..
hahaz.. aniwae i know i screwed up my gp cuz i slept.. cuz mr rj came to me n ask me what happened to gp.. den failed all my darn econs test.. n todae ao mathz tez juz sux.. n econs wasnt ani betta.. dunno why i feel damn sleepy in class nowadaez.. but pc cheered me up cuz got 26.. which mr fahy sae itz considered quite acceptable.. but think i gotta work harder.. hahaz luckily lit is a thing thatz slightly "in" me.. unlike hist.. n fer econz itz juz that i dun listen.. hahaz...

todae is the laz bball match n it was pretty fun.. guess now its time fer me to conc on my studies ehz.. spend less time at bball n more at studies.. den dance.. sigh.. so many stuff.. hahaz yeahz n todae keep gettin suan fer sum stuff.. which to me is nuthin much actualli.. n fer those "reculcitrant"... hahaz stop makin sumthin not real/ not confirmed n make it sound like sumthin true ehz! hahaz.. cuz may hurt otherz in certain ways n cause misunderstandings! hahaz.. aniwae yt juz told me sum observation of hers n i think i betta start open my eyes n be more alert abt stuff! hahahaz.. but guess i the kind that prefer to lose myself in my own fantasies n world ehz.. hahaz

You're Perfect ^^
-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.


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hahaz me? perfect gf? manz.. i didnt know tomboyish will make a perfect gf.. mercurial (volatile)?? hahaz.. n den loving? manz... well actualli i will neva know unless i get a bf.. so we'll c.. hahaz but fer now i still as single n as free n fer now.. it feels good to remain this wae.. ;P hahaz.. gtg do my darn hw... sianz.. but the happy mood since sat is still goin on inside me so hopez it laz longer! b4 my brain starts accepting or face the darn stress.. hahaz

Saturday, August 23, 2003

emotionz-> feel shag.. but pretty fun todae.. kekez
haha todae weather damn hot.. met yan tong n collected the thing fer flag dae.. den went back to sch to play bball.. haha the sun darn hot.. but it was damn fun.. kekez.. though onli did shootin.. haha den onli went back to cip at 12 plus? hahaz.. den so slack do abit den went ps eat lunch n start idling ard.. kekez.. walk ard n saw a lot of peepz.. met senior (ziyang) n made him donate.. den met christian at orchard emerald there.. den saw diana doing flag selling too! hahaz.. den we walk to hmv saw sum gay pple singing.. haha den so crazy.. me n yt was like doing stupid stuff all the wae.. hahahaz haven had such good timez fer mthz liaoz!! hahahaz.. thanx yt! i feel so good todae!

hahahaz den we walk all the wae frm ps to tangs.. den saw a lot of pple queuein n walked to far east to sit sit n saw rach n gelica.. den walked back to tangs! hahahaz.. saw hongyi, chu pei n victor.. n yt sexy voice ~~~ hahahhahaz!!! think todae sun damn hot den rach sae i was damn red so i asked hongyi whether i was realli dat red n he was like "ermz.. no" n nex thing i know he pinch my cheekz!! ARZ!! hahahaz.. aniwae.. todae was juz splendid! n thanx to every1 who helped make me dae!! xïë xïë! n on top of that i saw my oi classmate when i went fer dance!! SAW NURIS! hahaz todae iz juz a luvly dae!! kekez...

I see the world in Pink
Pink:
You see the world in bright pink. The world is a
happy, happy place! You love all people and
things!! Life is great! You're just like a
happy child. Spread the cheer.

Made by
Sara



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haha everything pink to me?? manz... i wld haf preferred orange.. but pink also v nice! hahhahahz...

sarah
Sarah


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sarah gurl?? watz this? aniwae i in too good a mood to ponder abt it.. hahhahahz! cheerioz every1!

Friday, August 22, 2003

emotionz-> juz feel ok... n tired..
new stuff in "extractionz"

Your: Wondering eyes. Your not quite focused and your quite the day dreamer. Your a bit odd and as many say
Your: Wondering eyes. Your not quite focused and
your quite the day dreamer. Your a bit odd and
as many say "Your head is in the
clouds."


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*aniwae in case the thing doesnt show.. its suppose to haf a caption that goes like this "Your: Wondering eyes. Your not quite focused and your quite the day dreamer. Your a bit odd and
as many say "Your head is in the clouds."*

hahaz... yeahz guess thatz pretty true abt my eyes.. okok i know ur are gonna sae its small n all.. but :P:P hahaz my god bro commented that i sae hi den neva keep my eyes focus on the person kind.. n others sae that they cannot c what i'm thinkin through my eyes cuz i'm alwayz like holding the "blur" or other wise called the "dreamy" look in my eyes... hahahaz but i also cannot help it.. think cuz i dreamer.. but can sum1 seriousli tell me.. is this good or bad??

You are Morpheus-
You are Morpheus, from "The Matrix." You
have strong faith in yourself and those around
you. A true leader, you are relentless in your
persuit.


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haha morpheous? manz.. leadership skills? nahz.. dun think i'm that good at it.. sumtimes i can get pretty irresponsible n i am too blur n dreamy to be a leader larz.. hahaz.. well guess i betta do my work liaoz.. or my promos sure gone.. tc all of ya..

Thursday, August 21, 2003

emotioz-> sad...
feel so sad cuz so many pple leaving the class.. ella withdrew.. joice gonna withdraw nex wk.. n zhi kai also gonna withdraw.. n this sudden spur of pple withdrawing is making more thinking of withdrawing... our class is diminishing in number.. i'm startin to miss ella... n later joice... haiz...

if i were given a choice i wld prob think of withdrawing too.. but i cant.. i'm under restrictions of my parents.. threatens n all.. sux... but i'm turnin away frm this perspective.. i'm gonna be strong n stay optimistic... i'm gonna stay cuz i got loadsa frenz in cjc.. my bball palz that lighten up my life.. n bball entering into my life.. i'm gonna work to remain in the sch... get into sch team n play in the match... the v most retain.. but will do my best to get promoted...

i hope ani1 frm my class who reads this will stay optimistic... we will pull through.. neva add the word "try".. we WILL be able to promote as a class together... do our best and work hard now... we are not gonna waste all the time that we haf spent here in cjc so far.. aniwae i juz hope that pple wont get discouraged... juz do our best ok.. we can do it...

Tuesday, August 19, 2003

emotionz-> shagged but todae was/is juz ok..
aniwae think i was being quite irritatin in class.. sorry to those who were offended by my stupid look.. but den i juz find difficulty in hiding my displeasure... n actualli i dun see the need fer hiding cuz it will be fake of me to be hidin my emotionz ehz.. so all i can sae now is sorry.. but i'm not angry with ur or what.. its juz that at the moment when i sae stupid things i juz cldnt like stop myself as it juz cums out.. thatz the reason y i prefer to keep quiet rather den to tok fer fear of offending..

when harry met sally
Everyone remembers the 'faked-orgasm-in-a-deli'
sequence from your kind of movie When Harry Met
Sally. It seems that you're falling for a buddy
or have already fallen for them. Uh-oh. You're
probably caught between the possibility of
having a great relationship and wrecking the
one you have now. You know what they say, it's
better to regret something you did than
something you didn't do.


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haha tot that was interesting so added it in.. yeahz i realise that in real life.. frenship n stuff i'm pretty direct n dun hide but when it cums to relationship i'm all secretive n confused... i haf no idea y... well i hafta confessed been confused with my darn feelings.. esp when it cums to relationship.. i haf no idea what my heart is feeling.. i'm so scared that i will like sum1.. cuz i dun wan to.. i fear relationship.. i wld rather prefer to haf all my guy frenz as my close frenz n at the same time i'm scared that i may juz like ani1 of them.. but den ironically... i'm 1 that once i'm sure i regard the person like a v. good fren.. theres nothin more than that.. pple like edwin michael simon are my close frenz in my heart... juz dun haf the feelings so u pple stop suggestin that i like them k... hahaz n dun misunderstand cuz i dun like ani1 now... n i'm not likin ani close buddy of mine yeahz...

life is full of complications.. n if i get involve in a relationship it will add on to my endless list of problemz.. maybe thats the reason y i've been avoidin relationships fer all these yrs ehz.. but my playful heart is skipping beats once in a while recentli n itz been a long time since i had this.. its irritatin cuz i'm no longer secure abt my feelings!! ARGHH!! sum1 juz make my heart promise itself to let me remain single!!

hilarious: you are as funny as the cheekiest guys
in class and know everything thats happening on
TV and all the hot places to chill. you aren't
a typical bubblegum princess, you pride
yourself on your musical picks and your
attitude. sometimes you get carried away and
often get scolded for that, but otherwise if
people want to have fun then you're the person
they'll come to! you can be as girlie as
britney when you're in the mood and as hard
assed as pink when you want. your mates love
you for being so; fun, interesting and
unpredictable, you go girl!


what kind of girl are you?
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haha tot this was pretty funky too.. think it kinda expresses me.. like i adapt with the situation n can realli be extremes as it all depends on my mood.. hahaz.. but haven had this mood fer a darn long time.. n realli missed it.. the funki side of life.. hahaz.. maybe ur tell me whether the description is rite abt me larz.. let me increase me self awareness.. hahaz.. juz leave a note in my tag! spice up my blog abit.. kekez...but confession ehz.. i lack the guts to realli bring out this aspect of my characters or i will be a realli crazy gurl manz.. hahaaz...

Friday, August 15, 2003

emotionz-> purely tired.... n scared abt resultz..

Jean Grey
You are...Jean Grey
The beautiful telepathic


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well guess that realli describez me personality iznt it? guess the part abt beauty n intelligence may be wrong.. cuz i'm juz a stupid average lookin gurl.. but stongwilled is prob the onli word that describes my attitude towards things now.. in fact i miss the bubbly side of me that has energy dat neva dies.. this is missing in my life in cjc.. n i know sum of my close frenz do realise it.. but i juz cannot help it.. therez too much stress n i've been trying my v best to cope with it.... plus every1 is facing the same stress so i cannot keep pouring out my troubles n add on to thier load..

i miss my OI close palz.. i miss the good timez i had with them.. the comfort that i haf ard them.. itz similar feelings with my bball frenz now.. but i still miss them loads.. freedom then was great n being able to skip classes for the fun of it rawkz.. without havin to worry abt catchin up aft skippin was the bez part manz.. hahaz.. if onli everydae was lidat..

todae got stressed out all cuz of jy words.. she scares me.. she makes me wanna work myself out fer the sake of passing.. my health feels weak but i dun care liaoz.. now all i wanna do is improve my bball n do well fer my subjects esp history.. after i improve my hist will be econs.. i cannot afford to slack animore.. i feel bad.. cuz i'm c-ing less of my dog.. she slps quietly at a corner n dun wanna disturb me.. i feel as if i neglected her aft i got into jc.. n that suckz.. cuz she meanz everything.. n i seriousli mean everything to me... she is like my soul.. reason y i working so hard for... she is my spirit.. hahaz..

well todae played bball n feel realli good.. itz like i got part of my life back.. n now carrying my dog.. itz like i got the other major sector back too.. hahaz.. this 2 are the main reasons that i feel i am alive for... my motivations cumz frm it now.. without them.. dun think i can live my life to the fullest.. the other main factors is my dance.. these are things that make me feel good and enjoying myself..

aniwae life goes on.. n i will make the bez outta it.. stay optimistic.. i will pull through this stressed n darn period.. hahahaz.. like tokin to myself lidat.. but so used to it cuz i keep gettin ignored.. what the heck... hahaz..

Thursday, August 14, 2003

emotionz-> tired..
heyz actualli wanna go slp but tot i shld add sumthin new so the depressin page wont be flashin b4 u when ur click on my webbie.. hahaz.. aniwae i'm much betta now so dun worry.. guess juz that i've been pretty tired thatz y ur sae i show "black face" but actualli itz juz me keepin quiet.. cuz when i dun tok pple think i bad mood cuz face juz plain n tired lookin..

hahaz yeahz so tot i juz slip in b4 i go to slp.. ermz.. yeahz if i abit quiet in class thatz cuz i realli got nuthin to sae.. i realli am too tired to try so hard to tok n end up tokin to myself cuz no1 realli listenin.. so rather keep quiet when i haf nothin to sae.. brain power is too weak to try to sae sumthin.. itz like as if i juz know the class juz that itz not shy n dun tok but dun know ur well or dun think in the same perspective to sae sumthin that is "right".. yeahz.. so if i realli tok itz that i feel natural k... unless i'm on exceptionalli good mood to realli try n be crazy n all... yepz..

manz been realli tired but luckily ella lend me his "my sassy gurl" cd n realli cheered me up while i do my M4M.. guess i gonna ask him if i can borrow over the weekend.. or maybe not.. cuz i still haf my jay zhou cd.. hahahaz.. bball been so busy cuz fer those u know.. the eventz on mon scares me.. n now that i seldom play bball.. i feel as if part of my daily life is not there.. itz like i SO LACK TRAININ! i needa shoot so guess tml i going to "shoot sum hoops" ehz.. hahaz.. well weather been realli cold n i've been freezing.. lucki got new jacket! kekez.. n i feel bad.. guilt for slpin in class but eyes realli cannot take it.. too heavy fer me to keep it open.. so guess i betta go slp ehz..

Sunday, August 10, 2003

emotionz-> mixed emotionz..
heyz sorry abt my outburst yest.. but couldnt control my darn emotionz.. now itz packed at a corner(though not secure).. so no worriez k.. n thanx phil, yt, rach and aileen.. i'm ok.. still alive n kickin.. thanx!

well went out with my parentz todae.. took harry potter bk out with me n read it whereva i went.. put myself in a magical world fer juz 1 dae to keep my mind frm driftin to the stuff that upsetz.. n i actualli finished readin my bk.. read abt 1/2 of it todae... showz how much i read.. itz good to be in the world of magic.. of dreamz of non-reality... it clears my mind.. n now that i finished.. can turn my extra time to studies.. comics.. n maybe newspaper.. hahaz..

todae was drawn into the magical world fer 1 whole dae n did no work... neva touched sch work at all.. needless to sae revision.. guess i betta start on it n pull myself back to earth.. guess i will still try my bez to fit in.. one little factor my break my heart but i will still try... though not that hard now cuz i dun wanna my heart to shatter into more pieces.. hopez low but still there... maybe i'm juz selfish.. or insensitive.. but i'm not brave enuff.. not strong enuff to hold all these heavy loads.. i'm onli a gurl.. a gutless n weak gurl.. i cannot hold pain physicalli n emotionalli all at 1 instance..

pple sae that look at my actionz n thatz the consequences that i deserve frm my actionz.. but 1st.. y izit that i choose 1 over the other? haf pple eva tried thinkin in my stupid perspective? i'm juz a stupid gurl who lacks in depth in thinkin n is extremeli gullible.. plus a spoilt character... i know i'm selfish n insensitive but i'm not perfect! guilt alwayz take over me n accomodating all is killing me.. haf ani1 thought what are the actionz they done that made me choose the other? when i tried extremeli hard to make up n not even given a chance..

results n resultz.. i know every1 is stressed.. so am i.. i've been trying real hard not to show... though i realli cannot control my damn emotionz n my stupid face cannot hide how i realli feel... i feel bad fer showin my not so smiley face but i cannot help it.. i am not 1 who disguise well.. dance.. sch.. bball.. family...frenz.. splitting up my time amg all these is killing me.. i onli haf 24 hrz a dae.. n pple blame me fer not spendin time with them.. when i take the initiative do they return it? onli few does.. n my bball frenz are 1 of those who does return my initiatives fer spending time with them.. they care.. n they show it.. this helpz cuz as i said i'm a very surface person who is not good at lookin deep in depth..

sorry if i am insensitive.. stupid.. stubborn.. spoilt.. selfish.. foolish.. dreamy.. immature.. n all the neva ending bad ptz abt me.. yeahz sorry.. itz juz me n i am still trying to change fer the betta.. i'm learnin.. i'm trying.. n its the bez i can do.. all i can sae is sorry.. if i caused ur prob n trouble n unhappiness.. n thanx.. thanx fer tolerating me..

Friday, August 08, 2003

emotionz-> pure pain....
tears welled up in my eyes as i feel the deep intense pain both physically and emotionalli.. todae haf been a bad dae except fer the nitez where the shoppin at Level 2 (cineleisure) n the movie "daddy's day care" cheered me up... didnt go kite flying... went to seoul instead...

my toez now bleeding
reasons of which i do not know
my heart shattered
at the thought of how i've been treated
tears crawling down my cheekz now
cuz i can tolerate the pain no more
my carelessness and increased amount of external injuries
caused mom's concerns to turn to nags..

the pain in my heart as i was being ignored.. n yet yesterdae i juz said i will try my best to fit in.. i juz cant.. every1 ignores me.. this breaks my heart.. my determination to be enthusiastic dropped to the minimum... juz put the blame on me n i care no more.. worst is that i juz promised in blog that i will keep trying to fit in and the fact that overnight my determination dropped drastically as i am 1 who tries to keep to my promise.. this showz how much i've been hurt.. so hurt that i wanna break the promise cuz i no longer have the heart to carry it out no more..

requested my frenz to wait fer me n she even accompanied me up cuz i said i cannot be so anti social n gotta go back to class.. carried my heavy leg that was filled with pain due to injuries all the wae up 5th level.. walked in n made sure i carried my cheerful smile... though leg in pain after all the stepz... ask if peepz wanna take photographs but was totally ignored though people saw me.. i felt like a stranger.. felt like some1 desperate fer frenz.. desperate to take photos.. tried again a second n third time with my cheerful smile.. but yet treated as if i was transparent.. my heart shattered into a billion pieces.. i carried my bag n walked out.. walked out on my own class... i can no longer tolerate it..

Thursday, August 07, 2003

emotionz -> life filled with up n down n now itz at the up side
addition in the extractionz column
haha yeahz this wk iz like realli filled with all sortz of emotionz... both positive n negative.. faced frenship prob.. felt like a damn intruder in a frenship.. etc etc but i survived n with the help of frenz felt betta... think now ok liaoz.. den wed had bball tournament.. though tiring but was damn fun!! hahhaz.. j2 came down.. watched bball game.. itz like enjoyment during work.. n i get to watch the matches frm official tablez!! cool manz! hahhhaz den nex mon got more.. kekez

well todae ran 2.4 n beat my record.. 13:36 mins... can die manz.. i realli jog non stop.. den leg damn pain n damn tired.. den aft the run jonathan (j2 bballer) n doggy was there... den they sae good job den stupid doggy still ask me y i look so fierce.. hahhah but i was too tired to repli.. den like muttered sae i tired larz.. hahhahaz.. i realli look v fierce aft run mehz? hahaz.. den aft that play bball n fell again.. damn pain.. but den cannot complain cuz my own fault.. kekez.. but had fun..

den aft that doggy, sister, jasmine, jonathan, angela n me went to get michael bdae prez.. den arz.. fake him sae fer my couz bdae but actualli fer him 1.. hhahhaz.. den got veronz prez also.. got her necklace but dunno whether she will like it.. den dae ended off quite well..had fun all the wae esp shoppin cuz we keep suanin each other.. hahhahaz..

well i feel realli bad towards my classmatez.. but den like.. i also dunno how to sae.. i like alwayz hang out with bball frenz.. but i realli am trying to stay in class as much as i can.. but the pple ard is not helpin me to... n itz difficult... i cant join them aft sch cuz thatz when i train.. i needa train hard cuz i damn weak at it... den like i in class also stonin.. nothin much to do.. n every1 is more on their own.. n i more of a pple person.. like to play ard n all.. guezz i juz too hyper active in my own sense.. hahaz.. nvm.. i will keep trying!! hahhaz.. c if i can get them to join teacherz dae or sumthin.. fer our pearlz pt n to get the class more active?!!?! hahahaz..

Saturday, August 02, 2003

emotionz-> i feel good!! hahahz but tired...
todae i got back my dance resultz.... den arz... i deproved.. by 7 markz.. but lucki still maintain my distinction! kinda sad i deproved but consider dat i missed alot of lessonz n went in unprepared.. think itz not that bad ehz.. hahaz.. but think i gotta work doubly hard fer grade 8!! wanna get 90 cuz itz like laz grade n wanna score well.. den now onli got 73... haiz.. so much to improve.. think i betta not skip ani more lessonz unnecessarily liaoz.. dance n bball muz stand side by side... n studiez slightli b4 it! hahahz...

i think i put down the worriez abt class.. now gonna work towards my goalz.. my life onli got 5 thingz now... sch, bball, dance, family n frenz(not in order) n i dun care abt ani other thingz now.. now gotta work all the wae fer sch, bball n dance! hahahaz.. shall not care abt other stuff liaoz.. kekez...

todae ~ appeared n gave me a shock.. den been tryin to avoid him.... so i said onli the minimal stuff to him.. n stupid ella.. still dunno how to help me.. can kill him knowz.... haha lucki ella redeemed himself by lettin me hear the new jay zhou elbum.. quite nice except sum of the beginnin of his song quite weird.. hahaha nex time i borrow the cd frm him bring home listen long long!! listen until i shuang.. hahhahahz...... so ella if u read this!! U GOTTA LEND ME THE CD!!! hahahhaz... i onli listened here n there todae.. cuz no time.... kekez... thanx!!

YANTONG!! hahaha i prac my expression now cuz the song juz came on.. hahhahhahahz!!! so proud of me ritez!! haha finalli in the mood liaoz!! :P:P hahhahaz.. all the stress drive me crazy n losing my own sanity n thus able to produce such expressionz!! hahahhahaz... I"M BACK TO NORMAL!! CUZ OVERSTRESSED!! hahahhahahhaz... itz bad till the extent that itz turnin me into my crazy self!! hahahhaz

Friday, August 01, 2003

emotionz-> tired, n pretty average with upz n downz
hahaz.. todae had bball n it was the bez part of my dae... the rez was like pretty average ehz..poor yantong sprain her ankle.. hope she getz well soon! Life been so busy with so much to do in jc.. n so much that itz killing me..

i set a rule fer myself.. to spend every single minute of my day wisely... which is a difficult task but haf been doing rather well though wasted some time on stoning n waiting n stuff.. but overall itz ok.. bcuz of this little promise of mine.. i was able to complete many of my hw.. n yet at the same time cope with the management of the interclass bball tournament..

I c conflictz n sadness in every1 nowadaez.. v few are as cheerful as they used to be n this muz be cuz of diff stress they faced n i, too alwayz show my sleepy look due to lack of slp recentli... even myself also sumhow got dragged into sum conflicts n me also felt unhappy with sum otherz.. but all i can do iz follow the policy of <> or there goes my desired peace n happiness.... guess i can onli juz take 1 step at a time.. gosh....

am i too difficult a girl in termz of relationship?? my gd fren happen to like a gurl whom i realise have similar views as me when dealing with relationship.. n i realise how tough and mean i was to the guys that used to go fer me.. now i feel bad but there is nothin i can do to change it... i realise how much confusion i haf given these guyz n they muz haf hated me n all.. hahaz.. well all i can do now is take 1 step at a time till i meet the right guy... hahaz.. cuz now i too busy fer bf n lookin at the prob pple face in relationship... i guess i betta not get myself involve in such complications this earli.. hahaz.. itz too much fer the "not so clever" me....