hmz.. tag board got limited space.. so shld reply the msg on the taggies here k... not personally but my overall opinion..

well... whats the point of having the kids suffer when sum parents dun even bother nor care... where the life of their kid mite haf been unwanted.. or maybe the faithful who wants the kid but the unfaithful left them not bothering nor even concerned.. or worst.. dun even know the existence of the kid who's suffering but carries on to cause further harm?

i believe no1 shld suffer because of another's mistake.. though in life itz almost impossible... every1 gets affected by another's actions.. and thus the reason y pple conclude that life in itself is unfair. Yet ironically through the unfairness that pple learn to stand strong.. the innocent learns to be strong.

"let e world see tat pain n learn frm it"- sae. well.. the sickness will never realli reach the "world" and even though it covers most corners of the "world", the one's who realli feel deeply for it are usually those who are morally unright and will neva commit to such wrong, and makes it emphasize further on not to do it. As for those who commits such wrong, they will not take much into account and actualli seek alternatives way to not get affected by it, or thier desires may be too strong for them to even care.. even if they contract such disease, they deserves it, but what abt them spreading it and causing harm to the innocent ones whom they probably dont even care abt. if u say that they might infect their spouse whom they care about, but in the first place.. if they really is concern, they will not betray them in such ways.

my point?! that not many will actually learn from their mistakes. the percentage of pple learning from the mistake will be very little. and the innocent that suffers mite not even be significant enough to the person who causes it, but in exchange causes more hurt to those who cares.

i dont think that a life ought to be brought into the world destined to suffer. though it makes them stronger but this is way too cruel. they shld be cured. the faithful spouse dont deserve to suffer for their loyalty. especially for those who who suffers but the unfaithful never mends their way and learn.

what if the usage of needles was for medical purposes? but due to the doctors carelessness that another haf to suffer, esp in the countries where poverty reigns... unhygenic circumstances is faced, resulting the higher possibility of accidents and recklessness of doctors working in the unconducive environment for medical treatments.

why are many of the innocent suffering because of the faults of another? being born into a world of unfairness. suspicions lingers. frequent pushing of blames. pseudo. the one and only disruptors of the peacefulness may only be due to 1 "iago" but no1 will eva know who is the "iago". Some will notice the "iago" in their different aspects, minority may realise it only on when their near death, and the unfortunate( or maybe fortunately) others will neva realise any of the plot.

LIvInG wItH IrONiEs

emotionz-> *yawnz* ghost festival?!
well.. mon was the start of the 7th mth ghost festival thing.. and every1 been trying to "scare" like mr t telling us that at nite if we c sum1 studying nex to us.. dun disturb him/her... hahaz.. lame larz..

well.. ghost.. are they realli that terrifying? hmz.. to think of it.. i think humans with evil intentions and scheming nature are more terrifying. recall.. haf u eva been harmed by a ghost before? itz only stories.. and myths/legends?!.. dun provoke them n they wont interfere with ur stuff.. and do they realli exist?! no1 can prove it..

humans with evil intentions are to be feared more to me.. u know not their exact intentions.. their backstabbing capability might juz surprise u.. creeping up on u when u least expect it.. subtle manipulation exercised upon u without ur realisation.. suspicions that lingers causing or is it because of the lost of trust.. and the lost of trust due to the inability to earn it.. (trust is to be earned.. not given..) a pseudo that every single one carries.. which pseudo amidst us is closer to reality? which pseudo is put on for the benefit of others.. and which is gracefully performing the art of all evils? questions that NO homo sapiens will haf answers to.

Humans ARE living REALITY.. ghosts/spirits are unproven believes... so i still dun get why we fear ghost more den we fear humans... irony: humans depend on humans. juz dunno who will be the survivors, who will be the first to get devoured(knowingly/unknowingly) and who are the predators.

haha my pessimist views on human.. irony: I am a HUMAN. great ehz.. ironies of life...

love... humans are meant to be born into a world filled with it.. all forms.. and what happens?! the greater we love.. the more we get tormented... another IRONY... many ways to display love.. many ways to love.. many definitions to love.. and what happens? sumtimez human forget the love.. overcomed by greed and power. or they neglected love. sum try all they can to hold on to love.. others haf it but doesnt regard much of it.. humans are unique.. so unique that we dun understand... i confess.. I dun even understand myself.. thus i dun expect any1 to understand me... maybe i shld spend my life trying to understand myself first! hahaz..

bonding is part n parcel of every human... the faithfulness is valued.. n what happens to current society?! faithfulness is thrown ard everywhere. talks on aids... sumhow it feels like a punishment to the unfaithful... a punishment to those who desires more than they shld and to those who are unable to practice restrictions on themself... and causes harm to their proclaimed loved once... do these deserve the love of the faithful?! i wish a cure is found for aids.. but the person who finds it only provides it to those who got hurt due to unfaithfulness... as for those who cldnt restrict their desires... itz time they learn their lesson.

juz realised i emerged into another 1 of my whole chunk of RuBb1sH thoughts and feelings.. maybe i think too much.. maybe i growed.. maybe things in my life is starting to make a drastic turn.

life is full of surprise, especially when we least expects it.

my little sleeping beauty... =)

Emotionz-> worries
Well.. I went back for dance.. n my ankle is juz so freaking weak larz.. I cant releve.. Cannot do pirouette with right leg as supporting leg.. Jumps is a prob.. Needless to say jete n all.. GRR!!! I feel super lousy larz.. Ankle ankle.. When are u ever gonna recover n regain the strength as before.. I miss the times where jumping was so easy.. Now doing all the steps is 3 times the difficulty compared to the past.. Make it 10 times larz

Haiz.. Dance starts officially for me.. So classmates will see me slp more in class.. Esp wed cuz tues is my late night class.. More effort needed to balance out my schedule and all.. Sianz.. school work is driving me up the wall too..

Well.. Human instincts.. There are so many things that we wanna do but den restrictions.. By ourselves n by others.. By the standards of society..Freedom.. Humans have no freedom.. Not since they were born.. We are conditioned in such a way that we set ourselves restrictions.. By our very own perceived principle, morality and emotions like pride that we build up as we grow..

Innocence is lost.. The simplicity of thought taken away by the wind.. Theres so many perspective to consider.. The importance of survival and excelling pressured onto.. The emotionz that comes along with thoughts and actions..

Trust.. Sumthing that every1 came into the world with.. But yet the beauty of it lost as we get introduced to the society… how many a times can we value the trust.. The promises.. That many still desires to fulfill but is unable to.. Dilemma resulted.

I learnt that when we haf queries.. Its always betta to ask.. But why is it that as I grow.. The term "DaRe NoT" has subconsciously crept into my not so sophisticated mind.. Y is this so?! I will really like to know.. The play of emotionz.. Cuz I've grown.. Matured?! Well.. I rather not as I realise to complications to things.. The need to guess and infer things… though interesting.. But I miss simplicity..

The onli form of simplicity I can find.. Is true the one n only SnAfFeE.. No hidden desires.. Everything shown.. The innocent whom I love..

i think i think too much

the sleeping beauties.. hahaz.. puppies and dogz are juz so adorable.. innocent and cute.. luv em alwayz..

Emotionz-> tired.. but happy.. cheap thrills..
hahaz.. yeahz been amusing myself with lotza cheap thrills larz.. esp this 2 nitez.. hahaz.. know i dun update as often.. cuz busy marz.. or rather juz dunno what to say i guess...

thrill no. 1: I realised i can store more den 20 songz in my mp3! by juz changing the format of my files!! hahaz.. yayz!

thrill no. 2: therez no need to pay for an upgrade of my broadband! n itz onli 47.75 or sumthin like that compared to the 56+!! yeahz!

thrill no. 3: i can remember the no. of chapters in my lit text brave new world!

thrill 4: my new modem is so small! half the size of my current one! haha takes up less space! yayz! new smaller n free modem!

thrill 5: i'm going back for dance!!

thrill 6: theres no more physio classes n i can go back to sports! yayz!

thrill 7: i think i improved for econz essay.. but still got case study n all to work on.. haha but still an improvement!

thrill 8: my mid yr retest i improved! frm 41 to 61! muahahaz.. 20 markz u know!but den lotza repetitive qn.. hmz.. at least itz an improvement ritez.. *clapz for myself* hahaz

thrill 9: i say PeI LiNg (frm o.i) on the bus d other dae when i was on my way home frm sch! missed her so much!

hahahaz.. me n my little thrills.. =P at least it entertained me n makes me happy.. itz betta to be easily satisfied/contented... life will be filled with fun!

Went to watch the CJ drama which Dinesh is acting in.. he's juz so funny with his dance n all.. the play was not too bad larz.. n todae was juz so hectic.. after sch went to lido for lunch.. reach there n realise there was a black out.. so the fast food outlet upstairs were all closed as there were no lights nor electricity.. den headed towards paragon where char went to trim eyebrows.. while sarah n olivia accompanied me to the get my singnet broadband sorted out.. den deposit money n met char n all back at wisma.. n char cut hair.. sarah fix disman..whoa.. todae we were definitely not aimless... n den we almost ended up late for the drama but luckily we charged back frm town to sch.. in maybe.. ermz.. 15 mins! hahaz.. manz were we fast!

felt bad cuz supposed to meet manda they all but then we had to miss it cuz we were rushing everywhere.. trying to get our last min stuff all sorted out... hmz.. hope they enjoyed themselves todae.. realli didnt mean to pang sehz ur at the v last min... but realli hafta sort out stuff n realise we didnt haf enough time to do everything! time.. seems so long but can actually be so short..

hmz.. realise i still haf loads to catch up on.. theres econs which i'm lagging by 3 topics to catch up.. n so many stuff that i barely understood... mathz.. moving into a new topic and sumtimez juz take the effort to try n understand.. lit.. workin on it.. but startin on new books.. i hafta start reading my new lit text "return of the natives".. sumhow i feel that the passion in it will be too strong for me to withstand.. i am not capable of understanding the depth of love n passion n stuff.. i can onli indulge in the mysterious and the maybe the science fiction...

*yawnz*.. brain not working... hahaz.. too tired.. after 1 week.. though short week cuz sch onli officially started on wed.. take care every1... no matter what difficulties we face.. we must stand strong and carry on with life..

emotionz-> HoLiDaY~!
manz.. am i great to haf this break.. had so much fun on fri.. been such a long time since i realli had such fun..! we had our charity walk which wasnt very far.. like the walk n it was fun how the class + yt juz walked together n joke ard.. hahaz n the concert was damn cute larz.. i guessed the exact position of the top prizes n i got it right! gymnast did a great job n the dancers are juz so gorgeous! haha esp jenna! love to watch jenna dance! hahaz

den after sch we head down to ps.. played arcade! thanx to Jaimes cuz he treated us to arcade! yayz! thanx pal! hahaz.. been a long time since i played arcade! the 3 continuous daytona where sarah, char, jaimes, me, jo and mira competed! hahaz.. it was juz so amusing larz.. n spending on time crisis where each of us haf a go once.. and den the 4 person dancing ddr and still lose to jo who did it all by herself! she cleard the stages n d 4 monkeyz (namely char, mira, jaimes n me) failed it disastrously.. haha but it was fun.. n i bet a realli funny scene..

den the drumming sessions where 5 of us tried to play the songz.. hahaz.. n i bet the pro drummers( they had their own sticks!) queue behind us was damn irritated with us as we played 3 times in a row with 5 of us splittin up the different sections! hahaz.. while the pro drummers is like 1 person handle all! hahahhaz..

den we camped at carrefour frm abt 4plus to 6 plus.. playing the piano! i learnt the livin la vida loca song there k! without the chords of cuz.. hahaz.. n jaimes is simply tempo n tone death! den we stayed till quite late.. but it was damn fun.. n i chewed on my chewing gum frm 1+ to 6+.. now suffering the after effects.. JAW CRAMP/MUSCLE ACHE! hahahhahaz...

ok larz.. for the past 2 dayz i've been slackin.. nephews came over n played with them.. watch tv.. hahaz.. i can b such a slacker.. but den cannot prolong my slacker status or our "mother superior" will prob send me out of sch soon larz.. hahaz..

wahz.. sarah's update is damn meaningful! cant help but agree with what she sayz.. responsibility.. where the 1 who is capable is being expected more frm.. spiderman "with great power comes great responsibility".. n quoting sarah.. "As one is a more responsible person, he is given more stuff to be responsible for".. ImPrEsSeD


haha i love this advertisement.. itz an ad for the pesticide! damn cute!

~a meaningful poem...~

Around the corner I have a friend,
In this great city that has no end,
Yet the days go by and weeks rush on,
And before I know it, a year is gone.

And I never see my old friends face,
For life is a swift and terrible race,
He knows I like him just as well,
As in the days when I rang his bell.

And he rang mine but we were younger then,
And now we are busy, tired men.
Tired of playing a foolish game,
Tired of trying to make a name.

"Tomorrow" I say! "I will call on Jim
Just to show that I'm thinking of him."
But tomorrow comes and tomorrow goes,
And distance between us grows and grows.

Around the corner, yet miles away,
"Here's a telegram sir," "Jim died today."
And that's what we get and deserve in the end.
Around the corner, a vanished friend.

emotionz-> greeting d break!
well.. the week been so packed.. so tiring.. damn fun! hahahaz.. caretaker was marvellous! now haf a clearer pic of the entrie play.. n Aston is so cool! hahaz.. the actors are simply fabulous! esp aston and davies.. manz.. wonder how mick actually remembers his line.. sumhow therez a kinda familiarity with the place n characters.. esp aston.. maybe itz 1 of my de javou dreams dat i cannot realli remember

well.. juz sum time ago ms ban made the whole class write sum poetry thing n guess what? lotza us got selected n hari won 2nd! hahaz.. 2dae almost every teacher cum in all commented abt him being the poetry boy! hahaz.. n sum sae itz damn good! hahaz my tribute of my little bag got in too.. but juz for sum publishing thing.. *shrugz* which i also dunno what larz.. heck.. hahaz poetry to me is my little outlet of emotionz.. not for it to be known and recognised!

n then therez maths test which i prob gonna die for.. but hopefully not as bad as mid yr.. at least an a level pass i hope! hahaz.. n econz mcq test?! manz!! i didnt know almost everything! so dead! n i tallied my ans with sarah aft that.. almost 3/4 all different! sure kenna by rengy larz! hate production n cost larz!

n todae went to get lotza chewing gum! i love singapore's chewing gum! been so long since i reali enjoyed chewing gums! cuz i simply cannot take the malaysia ones.. like everytime chew until the flavor gone n i will end up puking! but now.. the ones guardian are selling are fabulous! i can chew on n on for hrs without feeling uneasy! no more rubbery taste! hooray!

hahaz so many things to cheer for! n tml will be d start of the 5 days break! meanz i can slp in!! n yest was watching the j2 n j1 guys testimonial match! damn nice!! miss bball.. realli do! miss training too!

the guess whats the best of the best?! i think i returning to my dance class this SATURDAE!! fInAlLy!! hooray!! i'm gonna b damn lousy n think forgot all my syllabus already!!! but its still great! time i work some of my fats away.. ahha all the accumulated fats frm the "bumming" around! hahhaz..

hmz.. is the society realli that money minded? i fear the money minded society... todae ne we talked abt the lack of babies in singapore.. n itz like singaporeans are encouraged to get married earlier n gif birth earlier etc.. esp the well educated.. well.. itz juz not in my list to get bf.. get married.. n haf children for now.. dun tell me abt i need companion cuz i'll haf dogz n frenz(hopefully they dun neglect me after being attached)! hahaz.. well.. maybe itz juz my silly mindset but i still think love between guy n gurl.. the best relationship is platonic love..