my check up.

ok i know i've been absent for many things recently, n i gave most of u the reason that i've been busy. yeah after my camp.. i've been deciding if i shld be responsible for myself n check my eyes. it scares that sometimes my right vision blurrs even if it never last for a second... i fear the day where the colours and contours of the world get erased and i can only depend on my visualisation.

thats scary.

so i went to the polyclinic and got my referral during my off day, thats where i disappeared to. and i went for my appointment this morn.. it sure was interesting!

the diagnosis: my left eye is what many pple know as lazy eye. Both eyes are good and healthy but my lazy eye creates a double vision for me when i was young. As the image created by the left eye is not as clear as the right, the 3d and dimension of things are being hindered. Hence, my brain sent communication waves through the nerves and informed mr. left that it is not reliable. With this information, mr. left decides that its insignificant and has chosen to shut down unless it has landed in situation of necessities, to cover up the job of mr. right. however, it is still a complete blur whenever its at work.

conclusion: i can carry on depending on my mr. right. its difficult to correct mr. left because the recommended age for correction is till 9yrs of age and i'm badly overage.

other concerns: driving.. i still need to follow up another appt to do a field vision test before a recommendation letter can be issued. cld not be done today as they got my pupuls dilated and i cld only see like a long sighted person. my gosh.. IT WAS SO FREAKING DIFFICULT TO READ! books, sms-es, papers, pamplets, appt card, mc blah blah blah! instruction given that i can only drive personal cars and not drive for employment purposes. however, all is not confirmed. one more test to go....! jia you mr. right! heh heh.

at least there's a CHANCE of driving. =)

at least i'm comforted that mr. right is doing very well. and it sure is tiring to get the pupils dilated. can't see in glaring sunlight, can't read and tiring eyes! oh well.. need to get my glasses changed. cuz its apparently much higher than necessary for mr. right. n new contact lenses too.

yeah my eyes are quite exhausted.

take in all the vision, scenaries, objects, faces, superficialities... before its lost.

nitez.

i'm blogging.

cuz i'm waiting for naruto. blogged the other day but blogger screwed up so the thought went with the electricity and the internet lines.

a small liiiiittle mosquitoes cld be so threatening. fear engulfs more than the self. something so trivial by one became such impact for another. for weak health represents weak or even broken resources, and when one is so tight such becomes a threat. when its barely sufficient, the compromising of more than one's capability becomes threatening. For inability in few weeks may destabilise a hard worked for stability. such is precious. so dumb. capitalism.

they say 'birds of the same kind flock together'

maybe they shld add 'birds of the same kind are subtly forced to flock together'

the understanding, the interactions, the experiences, the lifestyle, the dark secrets, the relativity in 'good' and 'white'..... the many many things.

its because those whom we are close to appreciate what one have work hard to do that makes one want to work even harder despite being drained.

mom and dad, thank you for caring.

pls let it be manageable.

labourday=501day.

my leg feels so paaaaaainful. must be cuz muscles weak since i haven work for long time n its FULL shift.

so at the end of the day i walked into the gate. PANG! *every1 laughs*

bought my dad his bday gift! he loves it! i hope. heheh its a seiko watch that looks nice but i think it suits him cuz its simple like how he likes his watches to be.

bought myself encouragements as well. like 3 vcds at damn affordable prices! yay!

den again, might have to pay for a pair of jeans cuz of my carelessness n a super particular customer. n it won't be new. oh well... if he demands, den its just my unlucky element. eat less to cover up lor. can diet too. haha

roster is not out cuz reshufflement list coming on 10th.

meanwhile, i'm damn packed all the way till weekend.

jia you n all the best to my frenz who are stuck with the books. ALL THE BEST!!!!

end of exams means the start of work, i dunno which is better. gosh.

dad's bday, jason's bday, simon's bday, granny's bday, aunt's bday.

who else did i miss out?

mayday. haha