its contrasting.

i told myself i won't emo. but i did. hahaha n i told myself i shld be prooud, as all my frenz have affirmed me.. n i found myself emo-ing most instead of feeling proud about it. i'm warped. i shld have put more effort in the rest.. or just one particular other module. den again... did i even study a lot of that?

sigh. i don't know. all i recalled was that.. i walked out of the exam hall in that mod, feeling like i didnt write as well as i could have, in my super thick jacket i was having cold sweat and weak limbs. listening to fellow peers i thought i screwed up. so i wasnt feeling well that day.

n this brought me to another question.. what does this mean? oh well. i'm not suppose to emo and here i go again.

but ok lar.. one blatent point is.. i'm rehabilitated. n i think.. if i dun get brainwash by others along the way.. i will still want to further my studies specific to rehabilitation. i think.. i still want to be a probation officer.

on that point.. the volunteer probation office called me for interview. yays! i wonder if i can balance this if i take up this new commitment.

as for the other modules.. sighhhhhh. disappointment i guess. i thought it cld be better. but somehow.. things always work out opposite for me. somehow somehow.

on a lighter note.

do u know.. my colleague came back from bangkok and started coughing n look super lethargic yesterday?! ahhaha n she went to see a gp.. n the gp decided to play safe n called the 993. hahahha n if she is confirmed case.. i'll be the next to be quarantined. cuz i spent like the day working with her, sitting NEXT to her, eating lunch with her and doing same genre of work. OH MY TIAN.

n the funny thing was.. twin's super shocked face n immediately reaching for thermometer when my boss called me n told me she got admitted for check ups. hahhaha

luckily.. the results came out n she was negative. suffering from mild pheumonia instead. which is also quite bad in my opinion.. cuz that can be quite serious for her.

but yeah. imagine the hoo haa in my office. hahahha its quite funny.

oh well. i shld go figure out how to help my fren with unfiling and sorting out my school stuff. i'm packing this holidays full of activities.. FULL of FUN. =) so that my brain has no space for too much emo-ness n i will forget to emo. muahahahahaha.

i dunno but i think i fear n look forward to honours at the same time. bahhhhhs.

n yay! i get to see wing n rah tmmmmrrr. hahahhaha n hopefully we'll work something out from tmr meeeting. =)

i jsut finished fastforwarding one korean drama!

hahaha its the qing wa wang zi show. ok i know i'm damn lag. but whaaaa.. its was so sweeet! not the verbal sweetness.. but the things they do for each other n how they spur each other on. hahaha yes n i fastforwarded it cuz otherwise it'll be super slow n draggy n the schemings just keep making me mutter "bitch" and "bastard" under my breath at my prince.

which is rather unhealthy in my opinion. hahahha

n i watched angels and demons!! but i think.. i wanna re read the book. anyone can lend me? oh n did it ell u that i watched angels and demons for only less den $5?! MUAHAHAHA

i think.. i'm so gonna travel in to m'sia more often. seriously.. i never felt my money this well spent on a weekend. hahahhaha but if i were to keep up with it.. i may just like.. grow damn fat. oh manz. hahhaha but of course.. going there require good company if not the trip can be so long n borrrriiiiinnnnggg. hahahhaha cuz of the jam lar. n i met NETTE there!!! it was unplanned for. n i saw her twice! rofl! =)

n did u know.. i had to fill the stupid customs card 3 times!!! ok i filled it twice, i got my friend to fill the last one cuz i keep making mistake. n its ONE repeated mistake. n u will so laugh when i tell u where i went wrong. i think we took like 20 mins there.



I dunno how to rotate the thing. hahhaha nI blame it on my friends who were talking to me n the ten thousand times i have to write "singapore" in that card.

but if i were them.. i think i would have laughed equally hard or harder. they should really seriously consider making it electronic. hahahhahah

yay! i look forward to meet up with more of my frenz n hang out plus chill with them! i'm starting to love the holidays. =)

haha pls remember to bring plastic bags to ikea.

i walked home with 2 bed for dogs (furthermore its red in colour!) in my hands, 2 heavy glass jars in my little bag bulging out and made my way home from tampines! hahaha suddenly i wished i had the car. oh well.. for the sake of snaff and fri. hahaha. its all worth it.

yay! i dun need to do intern this holz. i can work n earn money! will only need to go back to volunteer and all!

but hk.. doesnt seem so bright after i catch the news. the new pple getting infected, the drastic measures they may take, the other strifle they have there. sianz. lets hope..we still make it to and fro safe and sound somehow.

i love it that i'm learning to be independent!

something my seniors did! apparently.. there's part 2! i must FIND IT! hahahhahaha

haha nobody nobody but youuuu! this so reminds me of grad night n our seniors dancing to it. i'll miss them like crazy! n i didn't know the wonder girls were thiiiiiiiiiiiisssss HOT! rofl. ok i'm so gonna rewatch this video manz! hahahha

exams are overrrr! i'm working. meeting mentors tmr! caught up with frenz, went to walk ard like a tourist n totally enjoyed singing n steamboat! i love my frenz! =) why did i take so long to get to know them better! suddenly i hope none of them will graduate though its not possible lar. cuz they all already have their precious job awaiting them! =)

i was talking to mom abt my future... n told her abt the 90% chance of me being single.. n how i'm planning it to be! haha maybe like fulfill bonds.. do a bit more ground work.. maybe go do probation work... n if i really end up single n houseless.. i'll go be a prison officer where they provide us with apartment! den i can do the family work with the prisoners or something. hahahhaah not too bad eh! den if i get tired of prison.. i can return to community work with elderly! yay! tentative plan. =)

i want to do so many things this holz if i can!! like... go hk, go msia, go watch angels n demons, go eat durian at the durian plantation, go play seaaaa sports like cable ski, banana boat! go.. horse riding! paintballl! beach-ing! drive on my own! play with my dogs! n catch up with my frenz of course!!

so hopefully.. i dun have to do intern. haha though i like wanna do intern for experience.. but somehow.. i wanna work n earn money so i can do the tenthousand things i want to before i go out to work! oh manz....

fri is living with me nowww! rah has visited her. so did wing n jo! snaff is bald due to yours truly! i must learn how to shave friday on my own too! hahhaha n seriously.. FRIDAY IS SNORING!! AS LOUDLY AS SNAFF!

I fear the day they willl both FART together in my room n chase me out! seriously.

oh well. i hope everything turns out fine for everyone! i'm "still the same" according to a special one (in case ur brain is spinning wild.. i'm referring to saRah!) . hahahhahaha so yeapz. n i still can't wait to meet up with EVERYONE! esp the girls. hurry up end the stupid exams!!! ahhhh!

ok its time to fill everyone in.

about friday.

her real name is komi.. haha i think its spelt that way.. but she doesnt really react to komi in my family. she reacts faster and more sharply to "friday". heh heh.

ok its gonna be a long story abt the thing that happened on saturday.thing is.. my fren saw the poster of a missing dog who really resembles friday, and they lost the dog on good friday too! so we were caught in the dilemma of whether we should call the owner or not.

in the end.. we decided to call the owner. ethics is darn impt to sw n i realise how it affect us a lot. haha

it didnt started out good. my fren was kinda intimidated. like the owner was warning her to not take friday away and that friday is microchipped, she can call police and all. but thing is.. my fren called her to RETURN the dog to her! gosh.

in the end.. after my fren called her several times.. she kinda told her that friday was bought to hoax her daughter, but her daughter is not as keen to keep friday already.

friday is actually 3 years old! she's so small and scrawny that everyone (including the vet) thought she was a puppy when we first found her! gosh. but vet told us she's at least one cuz all her teeth are out already.

friday's real name is komi ( i'm not sure if i got the spelling right). but.. she is more responsive to friday at my place. haha took her awhile to react to komi when i tried calling her that. n when my mom called her komi.. she kinda like bio her from the corner of her eyes and ignored her. rofl. she is damn cute. den we tried friday.. she will turn and look at u with a tilted head almost immediately. heh heh.

so lets get back to the story. yes den my fren actually told the mom that i'm very keen to keep friday. and her mom told us to ask her daughter.. and let the daughter decide.

so i called the daughter. a super hesitant girl was the impression she gave me. unsure about everything.. a lot of "erms.. er... ermz" in our conversation. i sure was irritated. but i gave her the option that she can leave friday with me but i'll let her visit when she wants to. i told her to think abt whether she wants friday back or she can have that option to consider as i'm really interested in keeping her dog.

and the next day.. the mom actually called and told me all those info abt friday real name and age. she was laughing over the phone upon hearing that abt komi's new name.. and even asked is it because we found her on good friday thats why we name her friday? haha she had a hearty laugh. she's actually quite a nice lady. so i concluded that when my fren spoke to her.. i sure was an emotional ride period.

i was suppose to meet her and her children on sunday (yesterday) evening. however.. she called me at the last minute and suddenly asked me to lie to her son that friday ran away from my place. she said her son keep telling her to carry friday home. i hesitated for awhile.. and told a lie. i still feel bad and guilty abt it. i hate lying.

to be honest.. i was willing to return friday although highly reluctantly. cuz i believe.. if my relationship with her over the last 2 weeks became this strong.. what abt their relationship with her over the last 3 years? it must be painful.

but i'm more comfortable with the idea that she stays with me of course. heh heh. ur know why lar. i dun even need to state that right. i'm sure everyone knows. i love her as much as i love snaff now.

so lets get back to story. so i told the kid the lie. he sound like he was crying. sound like primary school kid to me. he asked me if i lived in a flat, told me to go ground level to search for her. he said that she's usually at the ground level when they lost her.

i felt my heart lurch. i wanted to tell him the truth. but i hesitated. i think.. emotionally.. i wanted friday to stay with me more. as what i have agreed with his mom, i told him that i will call if i find her.

but i have yet to call. for an obvious reason.

so that was the last form of contact. did i do the right thing? i hate ethical dilemmas. but i made a choice. i'm wondering if i shld call the mother in the next two days or so.

i'm sorry to those whom i haven shared with abt the story. i think i have left out some details in this version.. but i'm tired. those who were most updated were my proj grp mates who were with me through the whole hoo haa that saturday ba. once again.. thanks.

thanks twin. ur best twin ever! haha the only guy i can talk to like that without worrying abt misconceptions. rofl. and thanks to all my frenz who reassured me. i'm sorry i didnt update ur immediately. i'll try to keep my blog as updated abt it as possible k! and real time sms if anything major occurs

meanwhile.. snaff and friday is getting along fine. playing together all the time, seem like they are fighting instead of playing but can tell the difference between fight and play as compared to the first 2 days when fri was here. snatching toys from each other.. stealing each other's munchies. haha its cute lar. i can't believe i have 2 shih tzu in my house. feel so blessed.

n my mom and dad? loves them too. hahaha yes.. even my dad! its cute how my dad was concern abt the owner wanting to take back friday.. friday made good frenz with my dad. haha den my mom complain my dad was bias.. cuz he used to quarrell a lot with snaff but now.. doesnt even scold friday when she excreted in his room lor. haha he used to chase after snaff when she does that.

but.. snaff is still the one waiting for everyone in the family to return faithfully every night. afterall.. its been 8 years of relationship.

we still love snaff. n we love friday too. =)

thats all folks. my super long updates. heh heh.

lets hope.. i get to keep friday for sure.

the owners put up posters for her.

after like 3 weeks? at first we wondered why? the ethical dilemmas was there. so we both decided to call the owner afterall. maybe its the brainwashing from social work that ethics are very impt. grr.

to my horrors.. not all dog lovers are that worried abt their dogs. or maybe i should say.. not all dog owners are dog lovers.

i will like to elaborate.. but i'm really tired.

thank you my frenz for hearing it out today. it really soothe my ermz.. anger, frustration, irritation, sadness all rolled into one day.

xmen was good. =)

n yes.. i have learnt from mao mao to always go jb for cheaper movies. hahahha n here i come for angels and demons!!!

its a day of many coincidences! met maomao while we were stolling, met ernest on my way to meet teck and xj, and belle joined us for movie and our chit chats. haha rawks. i love my proj group mates who turn out to be such good frenz. =)

nitez. will tell the whole story soon. promise. =)

meanwhile.. i just hope hard that friday can stay.