mystery to the fever.

the infection from the wisdom tooth.

I'm so proud of myself. cuz i advocated for my own wellbeing. hahaha

polyclinic are good for referrals, but sometimes i feel quite sad for the doctors.. they are expected to know EVERYTHING. gosh. for instance, medical doctors expected to know dental stuff and make supposedly accurate referrals and be responsible for their referrals.

n i had to wear a mask. cuz my fever was higher den 38 degress. and the doctor is actually quite young (and quite cute i have to add. haha)

i almost did not get my referral sent in lar. cuz the nurse felt that it was not gonna get through anyway and kinda told me that it'll be better to just wait for my appointment on monday. and in my mind i was like "HELLO!! this freaking thing might be the cause of my freaking high fever that has been running for the past few days and i'm gonna burn my brain soon and i so need to get it sorted out NOW!!!!" haha yes so in my not so friendly way (ok lar. just serious tone) I insisted on sending in the referrals.

and once i stepped out of the polyclinic, i called the dental centre IMMEDIATELY. **as i'm typing.. i can feel my anaesthestic dying on me.. PAINZZZZ** and the power of phonecalls. I squeezed myself in for an emergency consultation session.

which led to the immediate xray, the realisation that i'm having infection, the realisation that surgery is required like IMMEDIATELY. so the super nice doctor (and he seem super pro can!!) slot me in after his last surgery session. i think he had to do 2 in a row because of me and skipped lunch. n i think he's damn pro and confident, cuz seriously.. from my experiences with doctors.. not many will dare take a situation like having a fever and requiring to do an extraction. and he kinda reassured me throughout the whole surgery. yes i was freaking awake.

and everything happened so fast. the admin the procedures and the triple confirmation from everyone i met asking "Whats your age? cause you must be 21 and above....." hahahha and i concluded.. i must have look really young in my super oversized green levi's jacket and 3 quarts.

n within 4 hrs... everything was DONE. and i think i have to plan for my next surgery soon. sigh.

thanks everyone for the sms and comfort!!

i'm gonna slp now... while waiting for my porridge to drink. mom is cooking n i can only take cold stuff.. nothing hot. n my teeth is really hurting now.

Dear Jo, Rah, Yt, Char, Wing and twin,

ok i know we all love first hand info about each other, be it good or bad.

so i was running a fever... a high fever of 39.5, and contemplating if it was serious to the extent where I shld sms you all and told ya all abt it.

and i was struggling between "I didn't want to worry them!" and "They will want me to let them know."

So i decided to blog. since you girls are prob the only ones who read this.. maybe except for wing. haha

I'm much better already. had a jab which brought the fever down and now its maintaining at healthy body temperature (when I last checked). shld not be dengue cause there's no dengue cases in my estate unless i'm the first to start, so rather unlikely.

basically, no worries kaez. i shld be well enough to go to work tmr already! =)

For Jo:
thanks Jo-Ah-Na for your love plaster which you gave me extra and shaft it into my wallet previously! cause i think my fever began on mon (maybe slight fever then) which I didnt realise and I was on my way to school on tues, with weak legs, I fell off the bus when I was coming down from it. haha. Quite embarassing but lucky nus students are nice and helped me up. got a small cut on my palm. nothing serious so no worries yeah!

For Jo and Rah:
Thanks for your Redoxin and your visit filled with warmth! =) totally enjoyed myself with your!! and i haven taken the redoxin cause i've been on medication from doctor. Will begin once I finish my course of med kaez? cuz i'm not sure if i can take so many things at a go! thanks!!! will take care of my health!!

sorry if i haven't been replying sms... my fingers feel weak when i have to jab the phone. will catch you girls sooon! miss ya all!

love,
selian/nana/seliana/twin/Selina
(at the rate my name is being reshaped, i'm gonna have more nickname den jo soon lar. gosh)

I found it.

the place to study in school,
which is not freezing,
where no one disturbs,
with some natural elements,
minimal distractions,
near food and drinks,
maximum concentration.



in the past, studying include photos of my friends and our randomness. i think if i can choose, i'll still prefer to take photos of them, it comes with joy, laughters and warmth. then again..

its not easy to find friends like them.
its not easy when schedule differs.
its not easy cause school differs.
its not easy as focus changed.
its not easy that i know i will want to do ten thousand other things instead of studying when i am with them.
its not easy when i miss them THHHHIIIIIIIIIISSSS Much all the time.

so its time to adapt, to my new found study mate.
hello clouds. =)

and i am still basking in the bday tsunami.
ONE PARTY EVERY WEEK.
i feel broke already.
n my studies feel neglected.
n my tooth hurts. Damn.

the pain...

argh.

if the wisdom tooth brings me more brain cells, it sure comes with a painful price.
i can't close my mouth, it hurts.
even if i close it, the jaws are suspending from the other
leaving a gap between the teeth and the semi protruding wisdom tooth.
basically, i can't freaking clamp my mouth like how it shld be.

shitness. n i can't concentrate on studies.

so i booked to extract it, on 13th october. n goodness, i have class after which. i am so gonna look like a swollen pig in class. so gonna stick to my cap for the next couple of days after it.

its a chance to try out the new university health and wellness centre dental services.

no matter how i comfort myself...

eventually, actually, basically, i'm quite scared.

n i found a beautiful song,



You’ve got the best of both worlds
You’re the kind of girl who can take down a man then lift him back up again
You are strong but you’re needed, humble but you’re greedy
And based on your body language and shotty cursive I’ve been reading
You’re style is quite selective though your mind is rather reckless
Well I guess it just suggests that this is just what happiness is

And what a beautiful mess this is
It’s like picking up trash in dresses

Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you write
Kind of turn themselves into knives
And don’t mind my nerve you can call it fiction
But I like being submerged in your contradictions dear
Cause here we are, here we are

Although you were biased I love your advice
Your comebacks they’re quick and probably have to do with your insecurities
There’s no shame in being crazy, depending on how you take these words
I’m paraphrasing this relationship we’re staging

But it’s a beautiful mess, yes it is
It’s like picking up trash in dresses

Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you say
Kind of turn themselves into blades
And the kind and courteous is a life I’ve heard
But it’s nice to say that we played in the dirt
Cause here, here we are
Here we are

We're still here

And it’s a beautiful mess, yes it is
It’s like taking a guess when the only answer is yes

And through timeless words and priceless pictures
We’ll fly like birds not of this earth
And tides they turn and hearts disfigure
But that’s no concern when we’re wounded together
And we tore our dresses and stained our shirts
But its nice today, oh the wait was so worth it

Here we are