emotional rollercoasters.

i thought that only happen when ur in a relationship. now i realise.. it can happen as long as the particular event/situation/person matters to u.

i guess, it didnt occur to me that undergrad studies matter THAT much to me.

enough to drive me to irrationality. headaches, incoherence, panics. all these gushes of emotions.. so vulnerable. i'm so freaking weak. n i thought i escaped all of them since i'm single. haha den again.. things always happen again n again in variations to remind me that i'm human.

guess the focus is not how weak we are, but how fast and well we recover from them. lets hope i did not make choices that i will eventually regret.

sorry for those i've confused in that instant when i was so lost. sorry. it took me awhile to escape my personal irrationality.

ok enough of emo stuff.

oh manz. they are reruning gooong. heh heh.

i've progressed to stage 2 of driving!

CNY is coming! hmz.. but i might be late for reunion since sch ends at 6 n it takes me freaking 2hrs to get home at that time. sheesh.

having those on off craves for sexy jazz. haha basically red sexy stuff sounds seductively good. i'm seduced. are u?

i shall go get absorbed by my goong fairytaleness. =)

cheers.

childhood.

when i was much younger, i remember snuggling into my parents bed with my bear... watch tv with my mom or just chat with her till i doze off. den dad will return home late in the night and scoop me up, carry me over to my room n tuck me in.

the other night, i snuggled into my mom's bed to watch tv with her (goong n coffee prince, dun waste electricity ma) and dozed off. suddenly, i felt fingers nudging me. opened my eyes, to see dad standing by the bed grinning, "eh ur sleeping on daddy's bed lehz". n he repeated it several times before i managed to get up. n the only thing in my head was "has my hp finished charging?" (cuz i got my dad to help me charge my hp n i depend on it for alarm clock) n i asked him repeatedly too before i staggered to my own bed.

quite nolstalgic now that i think of it. the only thing different is that my dad can't scoop me up n tuck my into my bed anymore.

i think it just makes my family smile thinking of the good ol' days. esp when they have a daughter who does silly childish things.

i miss being a child.

another yr!

oh manz. rah just reminded me that its time to think of what i want! okok i'll try to think really hard so all of u won't have a hard time.

anyway... dun plan so hard yeah.

girls, ice cube mudpies will do. =)

n ermz.. for others.. any restuarant will do! if ur are really clueless.. i'm a dessert person! anywhere with good dessert is good.

ermz.. pressents.. that is really tricky. give me some time to think through what i really need.

ur can sponsor my driving! haha but rah.. no cheerleading stuff. FORBIDDEN!

oh n i like places of interest. ur can bring me somewhere.. like Zoo! haha

if all else fails, ur can get me wardrobe stuff or vouchers. ikea, heeren n anywhere nice.

i know its not alot.. but thats as far as i can get for now. will update once i have more ideas to help ur out. of cuz if ur know what to get for me already.. den just go ahead. this is for those who are stuck.

cheers.

waiting for my msn to load

into my desktop lar. its being highly neglected. haha for updates. i'm trying to pack up my room.

sch started. tuition started. many things in my mind but insufficient time to blog. haha

in short, i'm fine. =)

when a girl seem possesive of a guy, disallowing him to meet friends, sometimes its beyond the superficial persception that the girl is merely possesive. Sometimes, its the lack of trust in the guy. maybe she fears that he will get distracted with other girls. maybe its the lack of trust in the other girls out there, who might steal the guy. there are many many reasons behind such.

oh n i'm not referring to myself cuz for 1, i'm not attached. 2ndly, i'm not the possesive gf.. at least that was from the last time. haha

yeah even though for the ten thousand time i claim to want a rich bf (esp one who is dying), that is just joking only lar. i still prefer to stay single n support myself, living my average lifestyle doing what i like. if i'm old i'll reside at some old folks home n practice my social work skills there. n i'll try to save enough just in case i get dementia or alzehmia(however u spell that) so i won't end up sleeping on the streets. n i quite enjoy shopping alone. maybe the thing i needa learn is to watch movie alone.. but nvm at most just wait for dvd to come out n watch at home. haha

i prefer my guyfrenz as buddies, like how i treat girls. haha

maybe cuz i haven met anyone who makes me feel like settling down n start up family of sorts. or that i simply am showered with too much love frm mom n dad. or that i just dread the idea of including someone else in the mess of my family.

n yes so that means that all my frenz need not worry abt me not gettin married n living in loneliness. cuz not getting married doesnt mean negativity, its just a differing lifestyle. n i'll survive or get busied in my work. especially since i'm sucha workaholic. haha

n i realise i have a liking for sex trades, alternative lifestyle (gay/lesbians/gangs). hmz... maybe... i should venture along that line. especially since its such forbidden stuff in our country. just heightens my curiousity. haha

i wanna watch the movie abt child trade labor!!! anyone interested?! if not must wait for vcd.

happy cny!