E-X-A-M-S.

28th Nov 1 pm: IT1004 Introduction to E-commerce (open book)
3rd Dec 9am: SW3209 Counseling theories and practices
6th Dec 1pm: SC2220 Sociology of Gender
7th Dec 2.30pm: SW3101 Social work research methods (open book)

this is to remind me whenever i'm skivvying online that i ought to be preparing for exams. n looking at what i have on my list.. haha looks quite slack this sem ain't it? gosh. for that i shld really put in more effort. but.. grr.... i'm such a lazy shit. watching tv every night, sleeping 10-12 hours a day. taking ten thousand break sessions, munching tidbits.. manz i ought to be shot.

i love my invisibility cloak.

jia you with studies every1!

all the best for exams!

yawns.

i'm sleepy but my hair is wet.

its tiring that every nus exams occur so frequently. it doesnt feel like exams anymore. which is bad. the pressure is there but the motivation is not.

arcade n movie.

lets just consider it as form of de-stressing. it did relax the mind (not like it was that tensed). more like an outlet i guess.

n the movie... i just wanted to watch it.

'your name is justine'

thanks rah n yt for watching with me! appreciates it. =)

its thought evoking. the symbols are so adequate. not one which you can comprehend immediately, but one which falls in place after thinking through. it kinda dehumanises but thats what some humans put another through all the time in their act.

who wld have thought that a pig slaughter house is able to reflect such aspects of reality. blatently it meant that the trafficked prostitutes are like the helpless pigs, where their cries are unheard or even deem as signs of pleasure. its only of what the powerful (which happens to be the one with money) connotes. The best looking ones are picked out of the masses, to be slaughtered. yet how bout the workers who have to deal with such acts? one who believes in the benefits of such acts while the others getting it done for pure survival, which also equates to monetary gains. in our society where money becomes an equation to survival. how harsh.

so if you happen to get caught in the society where such business becomes the prominent form to survive, just how far can one detract? its afterall, many many viscous cycle - prominent or underlying n maybe even both.

who to trust is an issue. how much can one trust is another factor. how well do we need to know a person before understanding the level of trust to be established in that relationship? for even the one whom seem most trustworthy may be the greatest jerk behind the brains. n sometimes the brains are controlled by their forms of desire, sexual or monetary. n u realise.. wow its all interlinked. sometimes... trust just occur at the click of the finger, yet we can never be sure of the 'right' chances. sometimes the statuses dictates the level of trust (like professionals) but isn't it just a gauge? n even they make mistakes too. there's just so many many perspective. i can go on forever.

but i'm tired.

n thats my untidy work in the brain that i needed to throw out. limited brain capacity n it needs to cater to more counselling therapies, e commerce rubbish, research methods n gender stuff. grr.

yawnz.

i think the normal cathay seats are better than the picture house.

so random.

dreaded

exams.

ahhh! its here again. freak.

i have love-hate emotions for Sociology. argh. its so wise but yet can be so extremely nonsensical. maybe its too wise n bewilders me. raises awareness but show such ignorance. its just many many conflict of ideas with no solutions. maybe there are solutions... but it will take another evolution for it to happen. n by that time.. ur name will only be recorded in history while ur buried underground. sorry.. forgot that land resources are scarce so we'll only be ashes. n how sure are these people who claims to argue for better be sure about WHAT is better. gosh. plus every other thing is so subjective.

so all in all.. isn't it just a matter of OUR perspective? n who u believe in.

for what is right might be viewed by another as wrong. so what is best is deem by me to be of least suffering. n suffering n defined as anything thing that pains u. n not being able to fit and get accepted into society is a form of pain experienced. that is MY definition. n what is urs? n i respect it if u beg to differ.

i'm getting more n more persistent to becoming academic focused. its changing me. changing me so much sometimes when i halt and reflect, it scares me. from the one who only crave for passes, to another that is determined for that additional yr of education. reaching out for things that i never thought i was keen for (yes, its freaking academic success). loving to watch the means in which power is processed and unfolding, which i thought i hated. battling between the thoughts of manipulation of another vs not. the many many conflicts arising. the many many battles within.

sometimes.. things/situations/events/thoughts that u thought u never liked were actually predominantly happening right in your face with u involved without u realising it. basically.. unavoidable.

is it complimenting to hear ur lecturer tell u that they thought u were a yr 3/4 when u were only yr1/2? many ways to think of that comment. its all about reframing ur mind n looking at the many many perspective, n choosing which u prefer to adopt.

bahhhhz.

i shld be studying. everyone! jia you studying!

its 4 modules, but the pressure's the same.

Featuring... My Project 6!

17th Sept.




















she matured n hit 21.


23 Sept.
















bday cupcakes. Wonder where they are supposed to be! haha


20th Oct.














happy 20th!

31th oct.




















The horrors of 21st halloween!

5th Nov.















The cow mooooed the double 2s.

11th Nov.















Our Happy sunshine! =)
**happy birthday rah!

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n these are just my BiGger ones. haha tradition of celebration. or shld i call it a yearly event. but nontheless.. we always have our fun! Happy Birthday you all! appreciate our many many yrs of friendship A Lot A Lot! =)

yeapz. in between there's still aileen's bday but we're agreeing on simple celeb all the time. n we always forget photos.... grr.... n of cuz.. my dear little girl..
















yeapz... like sleeping on my book i needed to do my assignment. what good way to get me to play with her yeah! hahaha i hope she absorbs all the counseling skills from the book in her dreams! haha

anyway.. she just turned bald. from yours truly. haha i love it when she's bald. rofl

off to do my academic projects now. cheers.

its freaking early.

i can't sleep. shall go for a jog later..

think cuz my whole mind is like.. shld i send the gek1047 proj parts to them? have they replied to my sw3101 conclusion aspects? is it feasible? shld i add more to sc2220? have any of them finished? am i suppose to compile? did they complete reviewing it1004 proj? did the production line got cut off halfway? Do i have to write the proposal of SWSS activity? oh dear! what was in the portfolio! i haven seen them!

yeah i'm a worry wart. i woke up to all these swimming in my head. no wonder i can't slp. haha

i realise i'm not really demanding of efficiency.. more like demanding of progress. rofl. thats a great change from my stagnantation previously.

haven had such fun shopping with rah yest. its the catching up.. the cravings together.. the interest n liking for similar stuff.. its just pure fun! haha maybe cuz i missed hanging ard with her a lot. cuz previously......i see her like.. E-V-E-R-Y-D-A-Y. rofl. so even though i'm complaining i'm seeing her AGAIN tonight.. n TMR night... haha its kinda like.. nostalgic thing.. yeah to meet her n take transport home with her. rofl.

we're so near YET so far.

thats what people who lives ard me complains. hahaha i only see my boy boy the most. ok lar.. thats for the past few yrs. i have to meet him for like 3 hrs minimum every week what. its requirement of the job. hahahha

n yeapz.. i'm going shopping later.. AGAIN. taking a liking to this new sport. some hot celebrity should just pay me for being a fashion consultant.. n pay me well. den i need not consider these ten thousand little paying part time jobs. rofl. dreamz. its good to have them. hahaha hope i can help yt find funky... shld be suitable..... stuff for her wedding dinner! ooh n do u know CKtangs provide fashion consultancy services free of charge? how cool right!

n everyone is feeeding me a tad tooo well recently. cakes, home cooked food, packed food, tid bits, delicacies and many many more! I"M GROWING FAT! hahahahahhaha

n i'm considering if i shld be a prison officer. i just realise that they have physical training for 6 mths! how funky... that may possibly give me my much desired fats.. or much hated over done muscle mass... rofl.

yeapz its early in the morning n i'm rambling n its cuz i haven rambled for eons this feel good. haha its.. 2 more bdays projects to go! n 2 more sch presentation n 4 more reports! all cleared in 2 weeks! lets hope the next 2 weeks are gooooooood.

**note: if i have time i shld put up the photos for my proj 6. rofl.

=) cheers.