Thursday, March 29, 2007

crumpler!

i got a new crumpler from the cash ur gave me for my bday! as for how it looks like...

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ok i know i look like some piece of crap here but i'm always tired and worn out, esp when i'm in school. furthermore, rushing of projects are just not aiding in my shabby look. nvm.. my new bag! heheh.

Thanks every1!! my prince fits in perfectly!

got new furniture like cupboard for my books which are scattered everywhere. coming in tmr. so its major time to clear up my shits. gosh.

shld i still party tmr? arghh... i dunno.

new new stuff.

Sunday, March 18, 2007

whiff of sentiments.

do you know that they are removing sentosa's musical fountain because of the I.R? phantom of the opera was broadcasted on channel 5. phantom of the opera is coming out on theatre soon. That day i was wondering if i shld wait for my mom to travel home together after work, and i remembered how i used to slp on her shoulders, feeling secured throughout the bus journey.

phantom music

music with waters
tinted with colours,
and many lights.
will you be there tonight?

i want to sit amidst the crowd
watching the combined,
dance and soar.
please sit with me this night.

the beautiful melancholy
that tells enchanting stories,
water slips.
will you share this sorrow of mine?

it is not the first
but being 'live' makes the difference
heightened emotions.
maybe i want u by my side.

ok on a total different note:
i just need to voice.
i recognise the look, i don't know u.
maybe its true that one reacts differently in such situation.
but i felt it. i felt how ur frenz scaned one dry.
i am sorry i escaped,
into the comfort of the store.
but i have no courage
to face such situations anymore.
you will never read this
nor never know me nor my identity.
my existence in your knowledge.
you might think u lack the courage
but i never gave u the opportunity.
i'm sorry if i lost this potential fren
i think i'm too tired
and a coward who escapes.
forgive me.
maybe if u drop by another time
a different scenario might occur.
thanks for subtly making me feel appreciated
at that very point of time.

Friday, March 16, 2007

RuBb1sh bin.

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come to think of it.. its quite hilarious. private joke.

cheers. this is me n rah on an overdosage of peach. happy happy smiles =)

i want to watch stomp the yard. i want to watch gong li. i want to watch mr bean. i want to watch follow the law. i think i want to watch tmnt.

if music is playing in my brain, it is definitely NOT a soothing rhythm.

i think my brain needs rest. i think i need slp. i think i need nutrition. you. i think i need chocolates. i think i need anime. i think i need bleach. i think i need study. i think i can't think.

i don't know what i'm thinking.

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

stabilizing factor.

i am staring at the many emails that reminds me about the opening of registration for placement tmr. it has put me in much dilemma. i've decided, i'll wait a yr for more theories to better my placement. i sincerely hope i did not make the wrong choice. *sigh*

i love the stabilized moment i am in now. blessed moment which i craved for many years.. how long do u think this will last? how long do i think this will last? i don't know. but i just want it to remain this way. let it remain as it is now, not perfect but good enough. till the unpredictable and uncontrollable steps in and rock my equilibrium.

call me an escapist, maybe its cuz i've been deprived so much from this factor now that i treasure it - madly.

i wish the dongdong and the qiangs in my head goes away soon. i cannot afford to skip anything.

加油!

Monday, March 12, 2007

The long delayed post.

Yes i know that i haven blog for a looong time! i'm sorry. let me explain myself k.. but i'll go chronologically from the 22nd =)

22nd:
first i have to thank my dad cuz he sent rah and i to tamp mall as we have too many things to bring! ok.. I have to many things to bring. haha met char and twin there for some coffee at starbucks before we cab down to chalet. it was NOT that difficult to find.. and we walked past old changi hospital in bright daylight. it looks run down but still... ok to me i guess. maybe cuz i dun have to live directly facing it or next to it so it didnt haunt me THAT much. or i'm just blessed. rofl.

we settled in rather quickly. mahjong. waited for 6pm and had pizza's (this was crucial to the few of us). char structured time for stuff so 6pm was the time which rung our spirits, with some help of cuz. and a little laughters, joys and relieving commotion. cheers.

23rd.
wee hours, my colleagues dropped by. i think the little booze i had gave me enough courage to walk till i reached the road of old changi hospital, on my own, stand in front of it and waited along the deserted road for my colleagues in the lost cab. haha i am surprised myself now that i think back. oh well. had fun with my colleagues who dropped by, mahjong. there was a lost and irritated pk. but all was fun. haha with my extra luck and some catching up over some.. carlsberg? rofl. then walked to changi village for breakfast. it was good. n heavy headed. i wonder why. haha

chalet was like my... home. haha watched tv, dozed off. woke up, lie on the floor - dozed off. chit chats. byes to char n jos. shower.

sherlyn was the first to arrive. gosh haven seen her for some tiem! n there's brownies!! she baked them but i was damn sad cuz it got lost after the entire chalet. yes that just add on to the fact that i have 3 cakes which i didnt even have a slice of. all CHOCOLATE which i was craving for. grrr.. oh well. really appreciated her brownie but really felt v bad that it went missing.

as for what happened after she arrive and left.. it was a humongous blur. it was a lot of walking out, fetchign pple, many pple, many smiles, many joys, many laughters.

Benji got damn nice car! i love his car! n gosh.. really refreshing to see him since i haven seen him in such a long time and he really helped me out a lot for this party. THANKS! Linda and Lynette came, i remember they were engrossed with the tv. yt got lost. as usual. n i went out in Benji's car!! to pick her up. i still like his car a lot. haha haha rian and desmond arrived.. with a lot of things. yeah n i got scolded for not acting like i didnt see the guestbook.. but jm told me abt the guestbook! haha but i really like it!! =) O.I friends arrival creates a space for major catching up sessiosn, especially those we haven met up with in eons. Alvin and his hong bao. haha brother and his necessity to shower. i really haven caught up with him in eons. must find time to meet him n chat proper.

JM arrived. with even more things. haha my cake.. X2 and a lot of candles. I AM NOT THAT OLD! and must thank binghui.. for his prez and the card! i like his me2u card! me and my love for tatty bears. at this point in time, i thought i was in a dream. i know it sounds dumb, but really. haha maybe cuz i was a little bewildered by so many things happening at the same time.

KJ,angel, eryan and joyceh came with elmo balloon! gosh! eryan changed so much with longer hair! haha angel brought a fren too! angela, brock and nerr came too! so many many pple. Jason and Jackson came! another lost souls who met up with some of my frenz on the way. its quite funny the way they went 'are ur going for selina's chalet?' which i heard over the phone as they were enquiring the way. damn funny. n jackson has damn funky slippers! its like Japanese clogs but not noisy. there's bean and hari and ranjan and bing. so many many pple.

NUS frenz came too! 2 with bicycles! i think they kinda dominated a lot of space with their numbers. haha yes n i do know a lot of pple were checking each other out. so now i still get a lot of do u know who wear this/that colour that day blah blah blah. gosh. haha i feel like a friendster life version. rofl. anyway, back to nus frenz. i think the most memorable part was mr. Fei. its one of the best bday present that never fails to make me laugh! i'll try to upload here and ur will see why (Ok my best/fav house i/c pls do not kill me! haha)!

and there's a video, that was amusing and damn touching. THANKS YT. i love it! all the effort that every1 involved put into it.. my gosh. THANKS!!! i love it and i will re run it a lot of times. haha it brings laughters and tears to me. touched. but its quite interesting to see all my good frenz compiled into one disc. haha. thankyou!!!

as for presents.. i just love all of them. many chocolates, 2 dkny APPLES! yay! i can use it for damn long lar. haha i'll smell crunchy. much appreciated hand made tops! but i don't dare to wear for fear of staining and spoiling it. maybe i shld frame it up. a super sexy top that i still haven got a chance to wear and a lot of pple is gonna scold me if i dun wear it out soon. nike top. guess bracelet thats damn nice! i wanted to buy something like that before. haha den again i need to dress better to go with it. book of friendship (thanks rian.. i really love it. i love all the handmade stuff!!! its many good ol memories) braun buffel which i dare not use.. i fear that i'll dirty it. i need the solution to clean leather! its still sitting on my dressing table. bodyshop. high school musical which i really want to watch! many interesting cards. hand made items. very red bag. bracelet which i intend to go with the white top. and my many many friends. =)

THANKS!!! thanks for coming down! to have my friends all gathered is actually my best present ever! thats y i didnt indicate that its a bday party. thanks for remembering! and the prezzies. and all the effort put into it. i know its very difficult to shop for my prez.. thanks! i dunno how else to express my appreciation. gosh.

yes i got horrendously messy. from the flour, ice water, the eggs the blah blah blah. it was freezing cold. i kinda expected it esp by the not so discreet jm. haha but i still dumbly walked out. it must be the booze and the lack of slp from the day before. shit manz. and i took damn long in the shower. washed my hair like.. 4 rounds. it was freaking smelly.

jaimes and wing came too! i had 2 shots too fast too furious. That killed my brain. badly. haha everything from then on is by instincts and yours truely-selina. with no social conformities nor etiquette knowledge in built. all walls torn down.

ok as i am typing this my dog is snoring damn loudly and its a major distraction.

ok lets continue. yeaps.. so whoever that experience my nonsense.. sorry if i did anything unbearable. thanks for tolerating me. cuz seriously, i can barely remember what i said or did that night. it was very instinctive. i have my sanity, i kinda know what i was doing but i don't remember exactly what. i only vaguely remember playing mahjong, having conversation with p.k and benji as they were being irritating and teasing me, yt holding a camera, brock calling me drunk bitch, watching alvin play mahjong, rah following me, knocking off for a slight moment before i finally woke up. and bbq-ing. that time i was still.. with heavy head. haha thanks for tolerating me. thanks.. esp rah. i think she kinda accompanied me the entire night.

there was this very upsetting point where wing lost her ipod. gosh. i dunno what to say. i kinda cannot believe any of my fren cld have done that. as in most that were there were my trusted frenz. i guess i felt pretty lost at some point of time, and wing was pretty sad. the sentimental value is indeed very hard to return. gosh.. i wish i can do something to make it up.

i think i've talked enough abt that day of many joyful bewilderments. except for 1 point in time. i spent one hr on this already when i shld be busy catching up with my many other stuff.

the day after till today
i was busy with school projects, term papers, interview, tutorial work. many many things. i haven had enough slp and haven got enough time. my boy boy was having his CAs. i had test to study for. everything just took a toil on me. i feel kinda suffocated, seriously. but oh well. friday i did go to big o and buy myself my belated bday cake. ahha every1 tells me its damn good but i didnt get to eat it that day. thrown into a dilemma if i shld be doing placement this coming may. i think i will defer it till next yr. i just decided. i hope i did not make the wrong choice. i owe many pple many thanks... i'm sorry if i missed out any. i appologize if i have been missing in action or did not reply sms-es etc. sometimes.. i forgot with so many things at hand. and am not in the mood for conversation as i was caught in the activities. sorry.

no worries.. i am still surviving. enough to blog this. haha really. i'm having a breather. but now i need to go back to my stuff. i have many readings and sch work to catch up with. plus deviance is due in 12 days. another term paper due on 29th. js is due on 12th april. ahh. shoot me. thanks every1! for the memorable 23rd feb'07! sorry if i haven been a good host. thanks for dropping by. hope to catch up with ur individually soon.

thanks twin for helping with org. thanks rah for everything. thanks yt for all the coordinating of videos. thanks..................