Merry christmas!!!

its a season to be jolly lala la la la lala la la!

i am loved.. indicated by the greetings, the prezzies and the merry kiss-mas! haha thanks every1! i love all the prezzies.. i can feel the warmth!

well results are gonna be officially out in another day. haha i'm dreading the bidding sessions more actually.. lets hope its a great xmas prezzie for all! =)

the love, the likes and the infatuations are lingering in the atmosphere. the giving and the exchanges marks the care. the company, confessions and congratulations fills the air. sensitivity is an issue to address. lights induce clouded bewilderment into the innermost brews. the said and the unsaid, the acted and the hidden - differs by a fine unclear line. to love, to desire, for all one wants for xmas is............???

flirt, what be it? to be desired.. flattery? or treated with fear and distance? friendship vs partners, is it that hard to stand firm? sensitivity has its good and bad sides. understanding can be acheived from being sensitive to another's feelings, however over sensitivity results in detrimental withdrawal or distancing effects. response that one needs to make from instincts.

the inappropriate flower bloomed in thy life. how am one suppose to receive them? graciously or fearful of them. what is desired? i wonder. thanks for all the love.

full shift.

ending.

officially thurs. unofficially.. long time ago. teevee in the room is a hazard for a healthy lifestyle. at least it is for mine.. n it draws the mug mood out of me. haha yet knowledge gained, despite less books crammed. which is better?

so much for breaking after exams. this yr my break is minimised to bare several hours after the paper. boyboy needs me back to coach, work has the schedule set. rah knows the details of work. oh well its 2 off (week)days per week excluding boyboy.

depression makes good blog entries.

n i'm too chEery recently. haha so is happiness much tougher to share? i wonder. yet sadness has such high contagious capacity. den again.. happiness tend to make people exclude those who doenst belong.

every1 wants another to listen.

do u know there are cases where people die in their slp recently? the deepest impression is when a family went into a boy's room with all his bday cake and presents, to find their precious son/brother's face in deep blue - pronounced dead. treasure life. you won't know when it'll be taken away from you.

yayness to rah's achievement! =) hope char's in gleeful enjoyment! jm to be enlightened! twin to lighten the mind (i'm referring to the truckload of stuff in ur head). n every1 else to be ChEeRy. cheers.

beginning.

half the war.

n i'm slacking away. heheh i'm like this freakin lazy slob of goo who slacks at home watching teevee.. reading manga n all the whatnots during exam time. gosh.. i think i deserve to fail for exams with my attitude. den again.. i'm hoping damn hard that i'll do average.. Bs.. dare not expect more.

maybe its cuz i feel bewildered. from being so determined to follow one general and get lured by another. gosh.. its almost like questioning my loyalty towards the initial general. when one is tied between 2 interest, which will u choose considering the fact that we can't have the best of both worlds? den again.. i cld have the best of both world if i am smart enough.. which unfortunately i am not. haha n to grasp the best of both will be too greedy, isn't it?

den i question my own position.

and i realise adulthood is so freaking near its scary. cause the end of full-time education is nearing its end and not that i'm turning the stupid supposedly adult age. 3 or 4 years.... suddenly time seems to be sprinting. i'm just glad i'll always be my parent's child even though we always quarell, squabble, nag blah blah blah. haha i'm sucha baby.

life is filled with dilemmas and crammed with instability.

do u know that its v interesting to let ur dog lead u for walks? its comforting to blindly follow at times. n aimless walking ease the mind...

the truth abt why i'm not studying is mainly cause i dunno how to study for tmr's paper. haha yes very er... what the heck right. but thats how i truly feel. guess i can only do light reading of my lecture notes n stuff.. cheers. i'm looking forward to the end of exams even though it means the start of work. at least i dun feel redundant and insignificant staring at my notes.

blogging is all abt the me-world, i cant deny.

me-entry.