Stretch.

its freaking early and i cannot get to slp!! i think its my worry-worms actively swarming in my body. not about the grad night, but about work.

good news: i clinched a job at levi's heerens, so anyone who wanna buy levi's jeans go to that branch ok! or go Bugis Seiyu cause jo-ah-na is working there.

bad news: i dun have as much time to meet up with all my friends anymore! but i promise i will make time for ur! especially dear Aileen... n TWIN!!! whom i havent met in eons!

i feel kinda bad.. cuz wing brought us to the interview but she didnt get her job yet. I hope they call her real soon!! sorry wing... n i hafta pangseh sarah in job hunting. anyway, if ur are keen in jobs try relief teaching.. it seems quite good according to an aquaintance i made. =) register at moe webbie. either that or ur can try jobstreet.com i think.. they haf loadsa ads there. haha i'm advertising for free... they ought to pay me. haha

tonight is gonna be a looong night. n i dunno how to survive with my little slp. no worries.. i will somehow. n theres makeover n stuff. haha natural look so dun expect anything fancy out of me.

jm and marian: i'm sorry that i cannot go out with ur on thurs.. sincere appologies. but dinner soon k? esp jm cuz i havent arrange to meet u yet. as for rian, will call u again on wed.

Char: cheerioz k.. remember ur NOT alone! n sms when ur feeling low n all.. i might not be able to reply immediately (esp when work starts) but i will def reply. i hope somebody else will pluck up his courage finally n reveal the deep truth. =)

Rah: WEDNESDAY!!!! u know what i mean. heh heh

Jo-Ah-Na: i'm damn worried, are u? i keep having dreams abt work, not in levi's but in CB!! hahaha

Wing: I'm sorry.. n i'll keep a look out for jobs for ya k! esp when there is walk in vacancies in levi's! i'll call u first!

Yt: I'm gettin too high from overdosage of Nail Polish.. chantek mui mui wanna go out to paktoh with me?! hahaha i know the exact face ur gonna give me! =P cyaz.. later! in a few hrs time. heh heh.. more nails adventure!

Judith: i hope i can still make it for 10th dec! what time is it?

Twin: i'm sorry twin... but i think emily may have to wait. anyway.. are u sure U wanna watch emily with ME?? haha so far.. every1 got quite scared abt the mere idea of watching emily with me! haha

loadsa excitement over these few days! i hope it will be loadsa fun.. den again.. anything as long as its with t9-ers + yt (if i dun include her name written out clear, she will sulk n u know u know. haha) is loadsa fun! party till the next day k! =) n hope rah n i will be up for WEDNESDAY! heh heh.

Fun!

ORANGE!

see i didnt go back on my words about cheerful colour-ed blogskin! heh heh. hope the orange is bright enough! i love ichigo! sadly i cannot pull him outta the comic book! =)

haha but being single is still the coolest.

snaffee- my sole companion.

and friends who tends to ps me because of higher piriorities. haha no worries.. i dun mind being the loser who doesnt watch all the movies she wants. the very most, i'll just borrow em from video ezy eons later n watch em with snaffee (not like she understands but its the companion that counts).

i love the warmth she provides when she slps on my lap.

loved.

FREEDOM!

at least it is till march! haha

but den... its so much shopping!! i quote yt "its like doing years of shopping in 2 days!" haha tiring but fun. n i'm not gonna go crazy over shopping after grad night for a looong time.. so mite as well have a shopping spree now. heh heh... just that limited in $$$. Anyone wanna sponsor me?

ooh n todays session with the rays.. was interesting but i wld say.. successful. i'm sure char, rah, yt, jo and bird knows what i'm referring to. hope all of urs are successful too! maybe except for Rah cuz of the short time u spent there. haha it sure was relaxing then.

theres more shopping to go. "shoes. they are life and death to me!" - sounds familiar? let me give u a hint.. D-A-V-I-Es. heh heh. what shld i get? grad night is tiring.

i love the stress free life.

any1 free to meet up CALL me k! =) that of cuz is directed to all my friends. especially those i lost in touch with!

*SMILEZ*

Last paper!

this update it to ease the angst of the previous post. haha ok that is just my excuse. i'm basically here cuz i'm too lazy to start studying. shit.

so here i am staring at my caretaker hoping that information is gonna absorbed. btw i downloaded crazy taxi!!! n it works!!! heh heh heh. did any1 tell u that crazy taxi is addictive?! i played till 1.40am today!

i'm looking forward to 23rd 11am. but i'm dreading grad night prep. yes i know there is no ugly woman, just lazy ones. and I AM A LAZY WOMAN! n a broke 1 too. haha if i'm lazy but rich, i can just employ help from the professionals, but i'm not. so now do u see my exhuastion from the mere thought of grad night prep?

n theres work to find. i really dunno what work i shld find. maybe i shld just take up anything i can find, n change later? irresponsible right... den how?!

NAFA part time dance only starts in june 2006. great. so one option out. but its also another alernative for me if i cannot make it into uni - full time dance at Nafa, which also opens in june 2006. just need to pass freaking auditions. aiya i just hope to get into uni, n all prob would be solved. who doesnt? right.

i think my parents will be still very restrictive with me after my a's. so much for looking forward to night life and adventure.

mokey i also wanna go m'sia! i'll ask my parents after the a's k.. n HOPE. yeah.. after taking the a's, i think HOPES and WISHES are highly important at this phase of my life. haha

*pss.. maybe after my a's, i'll pamper my blog with another new skin. maybe ICHIGO! surprise surprise. i'll colour it orange, as a mark of my happiness! =) den maybe back to dull-ness in feb while i anticipate for my torment.

ok i think i better get back to studies, if not no matter how much i hope and wish, nothing is gonna happen cuz its rendered useless. heh heh. study hard every1! n i hope to meet every1 up after my a's so CALL ME!! (sound like some desperate hooker, haha)

counting down to my release, also the limited time to study.

4 more days.

ARGGHHHHH

Dont you understand?! I said that I WILL clean up my room after my A's! freaking shit. just because u got pms doesnt mean that u can have everything you want. yes you have the highest status at home but that doesnt mean that the rest of us are EMOTIONLESS.

yes my room is a freakin pig sty smelling like a rubbish chute that has a container at the bottom unemptied for days. And i cannot help it that my dog decides to come into my room and release her scent from the ass (fart if u dont understand) when you walk pass my room. n i'm sorry that 1 air freshener doesnt seem enough to clear the foul fragrance of my room.

ARGHH.

Yeah i am just a freaking irritated student that have shitty a levels to take and am almost clueless about many stupid questions. just a bitch who is incapable of accomplishing big things. and thanks for UNDERSTANDING that i am perfectly not stessed over the past few papers that i think i'm gonna fare badly. and just a freaking lazy shit who just refuses to study. and tis the first time that i've actually sit through a 3 hr tv sessions, i am regarded as 1 who spent ALL her freaking time idling away. ARGHH.

*breathe*breathe*breathe*

ok i will get over it. no worries. it will just be part of the pile of garbage that will be buried deep in my stomach. STOP. NOT in the stomach, let it be in the heart or in the toes. not when i just realise i've put on freaking 2 kgs. exams are 1 of the cause of obesity. i'm a proven fact of that claim. 2 whole freaking kg. yeah starve myself i shall.

*sigh*

I hate the a's. but i'm glad its ending. 2 more freaking papers. i'm incoherent. i cant decide what i want to do after freaking a's. maybe i shld just sign up for a part time diploma course in NAFA. dance and lose weight. and maybe another route if i cannot get into a freaking uni. ARGHH.

let me rot my emotions away. i'll be ok. really.. i get over things v quickly. n i'm sure that is part of the reason why i'm a freaking punching bag for some other pple. Thanks. ok at least we all know this is a short term emotions.

Relieved.

My blog is worth $6,209.94.
How much is your blog worth?

Any1 wanna buy my blog? haha wonder how they judge but tis interesting! i think i'm going mad from studying. n my mom so agrees with me. she thinks i'm weird. i think i'm weird. my friends think i'm weird. i do "extraordinary" stuff. i'm nuts. n mr ng's blog is quite interesting. but A&C, Othello and Return of the Native is screaming for my attention. n I, am screaming for BREAKS!!! heh heh. study hard every1.

2 subjects down, 2 more to go!!

math was a total disaster. paper 1 was quite do-able but when paper 2 came along, all my hopes were Crushed. basically.. 51 marks of i dont know whats going on questions. and of cuz, questions which i thought i dont know but are actually correct and i cancelled them off. so much for trust and confidence in myself. oh well.. its all over.

GP was not as bad as i expected it to be. i'm just hoping for a pass. maybe thats y it is ok to me. haha glad i did some reading yesterday or i'll be clueless about what to do.

I'm hoping and wishing for a minimal of C grade for ALL subjects. A! A! A! B! B! B! C! C! C! including GP!

Btw twin, thanks for the concern and everything. haha and its funny how u actually feel our anxiety too! maybe i'm overloaded by them thats y affected u.

SR sure have interesting teachers.

And its no joke when everytime ur about to enter the exam hall, your stomach seems to be filled with fluttering butterflies and u feel like u need the loo. Not forgeting the shivering of the hands, not from cold. argh, i hate exams. but its my life...

new album from one of my few fav chi singer!! guess who?! haha

Here's a fav song. ;)

btw if u dont know, my chi name the shan is 珊瑚 the 珊 and NOT mountain! haha maybe the relation is making me love the song! haha actually its the music lar. he rawks my world with his musical talent! i love my chi name even if its considered common! heh heh

珊瑚海
《周杰伦[Jay]》

男:海平面音浪开始隐埋 悲伤要怎么平静纯白
男:我的脸上 始终夹带 淹没浅浅的无奈

女:你用唇语说你要离开 男:情不在
合:那难过呼声拦了下来
合:汹涌潮水 你一定明白
合:不是浪而是泪海

男:转身离开 认真说不出来
女:你有话说不出来

合:海鸟跟鱼相爱 只是一场意外
男:我们的爱 猜疑一直存在
女:给的爱 猜疑一直存在 回不来

男:永久真爱 竟累积成伤害
女:等待经历几次伤害

合:转身离开 分手说不出来
合:蔚蓝的珊瑚海 错过瞬间苍白

男:当初彼此 不够成熟坦白
女:你有我的 不够成熟坦白 不应该

男:热情不在 笑容免强不来
女:你的笑容勉强不来

合:爱深埋珊瑚海

男:毁坏的沙雕如何重来 有裂痕的爱怎么重盖
男:只是一切 结束太快 妳说妳无法释怀

女:贝壳理隐藏什么期待 男:等花儿开
合:我们也已经无心再猜
女:面向海风 男:面向海风
女:咸咸的爱 男:咸咸的爱
合:尝不出海有未来

torture.

from overdose of caffeine, because of misunderstandings. I cannot drink 1 entire cup of coffee and I cannot drink tea at night. shared 1 regular Rhumba and accidentally drank my mom's tea at night & the consequence of that was horrible. I went to bed at 10.30pm, tossed and turn till 1.40+++am before i finally dozed off. its worse when u sat at macs the entire noon n the macs channel keeps playing "noma noma heh" from the LITTLE Chicken show. ArgH. when u cant slp at night, that song haunts.

lack concentration. sorry wing n rah. the noise, the tiredness. i guess i just cannot have them all together.

gonna send my dog for grooming tml, and she haven been to the groomer's for years. so i'm kinda worried. sound like a paranoid parent, maybe thats how parents feel when they first send their child to school. cuz i know she doesnt like to be around strangers even if she adapts rather quickly to the environment. She hated it the last time she was sent to the groomer and we had to leave her there for an entire day. ok i know ur gonna ask "how do u know she hated it?" simple, cuz she cried when we left the shop. when i was going to pick her up, i peeped at her behind the wall & she had the depressing look, lying in the cage staring at empty space. when she saw mom and i peeping at her from behind the wall, she was esctatic.

and tmr its gonna be a long day for both of us. but seriously i dun have the time to groom her. a's is driving me nuts. i dun think i will fare well for the exam, thats y i need to put in like few hundred percents and HOPE.

funny bones.

Sitting on the bench at the bus stop, a very exhausted+ tired Rah and Me waiting for the bus.
Rah: (looking at her chocolate peanut butter granolar bar) I feel like chewing something.
Me: Eat it lar!
Rah: (Peeling the wrapper) This is bad, I'm not hungry but i'm eating.
*(gronolar bar hopped out of the wrapper and landed on the floor)*
silence. Both staring at the granola bar.
Rah and Me: hahahhahahahhahahahhahahahha
Me: God definitely heard your statement.

That is just a short incident that occured today. Many many more stupid and funny shit happens everyday. what to do, i see Rah everyday.

I wanna work after a's. Get my series of comic book that i want. maybe get a fossil watch though that needs more consideration as i fear i might crack the glass. I want driving licsence, blades and a nice cozy 2nd hand car. the rest can just go to family, food, friends and snaffee. heh heh. oh, and clothes.

18 more days. meanwhile,

CONCENTRATE. STUDY. CRAM.

7 more days to the start. 23 more days to the end.

wish me luck. i'm so not prepared but i'm so hoping for a's to end.

ABC? bullshit. i think BBC will be a miracle already. just hoping for grades around B to C. is it possible? i think i only deserve a CDE. oh well.

Wish n Wish n wish
For grades that will allow
me to scrape into uni,
not any other school but
National University of Singapore.

I'm stressed. its shown by the amount of white hair growing at an increasing rate. i'm stressed, you can tell from the crazy little things i do and say. I'm stressed, for i've began my stoning sessions more often than before. I'm stressed, and i refused to study but rather read newspapers after newspapers. I'm stressed, and overworked.

Overworked? laugh, just laugh. my mom will. "I didnt know watching tv will make you overworked!" n "Wow so much stress from talkin on msn and spending hours online eh" n "U mean u haf to study anime?!" yesh.. all her sarcasm. But Bleach still Rocks. I want the next episode!!!

Me and my short term memory. Maybe its due to the overdose of the crew from elmo and ernie. but i still love sesame street. Why cant they just test us on abc n 123? instead its a lot of sophisticated abc's and 123's compiled. maybe they should make it all into a sophisticated adult sesame street.

23 days! =)