sleep.

i slept for 12 hrs yest night. after days of insomnia.

i want to sleep more.

i-solation.

an entire day of anime, away from econs n maths. n even dance.

this is just 1 major break i need. pls guide me back to books.

meanwhile, let me sleep. let me rest. let the books wait.

for 1 day, let me forget abt results n meritocracy.

sleep.

Take The quiz yourself

i am suppose to be studying. but i was blog wandering n chance upon this on jud blog. i was hoping for ichigo, but rukia is cool too. hehe maybe its cuz i need an ichigo in my life, cuz at this moment i need bright orange to counter my darkness looming from studies.

i love bleach, as u have noticed. =P

study; sturdee; star-deee; star-die.

study.

i wanted to start on maths today but i have no mood. i finished making notes for others instead. shoot me. nerd life is so not working for me.

was studying with rah when we began to debate if our lives were like caged singing birds or parrots. we concluded with parrots - made to speak foreign and have our legs tied down. we have to tune our brain to the frequency of what economist, poets/writers and mathematician n chant after em. we are given holidays but made to sit in a corner n mug.

saw the trailers for Batman Begins. was just wondering about his suit. From the anime, the batman suit is suppose to be a slick plastic/leotard material that is stuck to his skin n emphasises on his muscular built n perfect abs! but when it comes to the movies, batman always have what seems like a super hard plastic wear which has the muscles n abs moulded. the nice batman body that every woman earns to hug turns into a chunky hard piece of plastic, not so huggable anymore. haha maybe its cuz they cant find an actor with PuRrFect abs.

besides my impression of batman drawn is always an angular/square shape face that adds to his masculine features, but in the movies its always sharp chins.

i dunno why i'm talkin abt batman. must be stress. haha

yet to watch mr. n mrs. smith! i still wanna watch it n i know every1 else has caught it but ME! oh well.. who tells me to fall sick, who tells me to be sucha loner, n who tells me to be stuck at home with keynes n frost n shakespeare. i'm not that lonely with them ard.. yeah right. truth: i'm not lonely cuz snaffee is ard. =) haha

sorry 4 the bits n pieces. StUdiEs kills the brain cells thats y. StUdIeS make me irrational thats y. n why am i crapping here? i'm suppose to have my head buried in the books.

study..

adulthood.

so what exactly is this that many are looking forward to? is it when one is 18 and taadaa.. she/he is an adult. Nope, some feels that 18 is too young, they must be 21 to be an adult. is age the accurate guideline to an "adult"?

its scary for in a couple of mths, i will be under the category of "twenties". will i be an adult then?

the most prominent adults will be those considered working full time after completing their studies. Yet studies can be a lifelong affair especially in our society so the exact line is blurred. An adult is suppose able to be rational in their thoughts and actions. They should experience the difficulties of life, be able to compromise and survive along with many other non related beings. others believe that an adult is one who have the capacity to love.

One who doesnt think narrow-mindedly on love being between themselves and their spouse, or seeking "the one" to love but loving their current families, appreciate all the connections made between blood related or non related beings. Those who can think not only for themselves, but also for their loved ones, for others. Those who understand rational n irrational. Able to support themselves and handle, at the very least, their personal affairs.

If u find that u can move out on ur own, independent of all help, n the world doesnt crumble on u, ur pretty much a super marvellous adult. at least thats what the west thinks right?

i guess everyday we grow a little bit, moving towards adulthood by understanding life and being mentally stronger and more experienced with life. every1 gradually moves into adulthood and there is no such thing as "CHING! ur an adult today!". bullshit. i just hope the "adults" will give the "young adults" more liberty at times, allow them to understand instead of reprimanding.

with the adults in my house, i am never gonna be an adult in their eyes. haha maybe all parents feels the same, their child will always be a child, n not an adult. maybe its man's attitude of superiority of not wanting their child to be on the same level as them when their still under that category. haha

mindless thoughts.

angel.

the clock struck 8
i sat n wait
just when is mom and dad
gonna reach d doorstep?

saliva with daggers
slid down the throat
just when is the mighty knight
gonna come 4 a victorious fight?

the doorbell chimes
brightness that shines
an angel descends
with Dorithricin to heal the pain.

evoked emotions of gratitude
which is difficult to express in words
all that i can say
is a sincere thanks.

though my throat is still in pain, but without what u brought, i wld have another sleepless night. a painstricken day, a stab in my throat. it worked wonders physically n emotionally. thanks for being such a great friend!

merci for being my angel.

f-cup babe.

for those who have been asking for our babe photo.. here it is! =) dun kill me octy! haha.. but its just too hot to resist!


the "nice breast" that nobody can resist!

this is what happens when ur at sentosa, bored, n waiting for stupid jaimes who takes eternity to help us get a drink from 7-11.

been at home since tues. n down with illness.. again! this is like the dunno how many gazillion times this yr! me n my weak health. enjoy the holz every1!

sizzle n melt.

burnt.

a hole in my pocket,
the skin on my shoulders.

haha my sudden call for shopping is due to my going-to-expire top shop voucher which i still dunno what to get from there! haha but all the fun going to top shop with frenz n stupid stuff we end up doing is actually rather amusing! thanks for the companion for shopping mokey!! oohz.. n i got a new sunglasses! lurve it!

guess i'm still a super terrible shopper.. haha i'm just bad at it!

sentosa outing with d class was actually rather fun! swimming ard, feeding mokey n wing cheekan while tanning, playing vball with jaimes n sarah n burying octy in sand giving her f-cup boobs! its humourous how the guys at the opposite shelter shouted to char "nice breast!" after we did it! haha

ooh n the night at the arcade? guess the most money spent was on the stupid machine where it has the super loose claw to get a soft toy.. char wanted a kitty n i think the 4 of us, sarah + char + jaimes + me, stood there shouting when we saw the kitty getting picked up but dropped on its journey back to be dropped out. it happened not once, but thrice! grr.. haha but we had fun! seriously, i feel the machine just cheats money even though we got a bear thingy.

ooh n theres the drum thing where we played for sum time n stupid jaimes had to choose a re-tar-ded song.. cuz theres no photo dere! so yup we ended up having our photo there.. wtheck!char n sarah beat sum1 elses combo too n got their pic in one of the song! funny lar!

i wanna watch mr n mrs smith.

i love class outing!

touched, i love my friends.

i think i wrote the past 2 entry out of frustration that i felt towards myself, all the frustration bottled up that needs to be released. thanks for every1's concern n touching words! really appreciate it! sorry for adding on a burden onto ur with my depressing entries.

octy:
thanks for the reassurance! yeapz.. i guess i shldnt push myself too hard at times n accept my imperfections. thanks girl! n stationary shopping together is cool! makes it feel like family going grocery shopping! haha n yeapz.. maybe i'll just get that from top shop! haha

twin:
yesh sir! i will accept my imperfections instead of dwelling on it! n thanks.. well.. i guess there is many more aspects to friendship.. but i think i shld still try to be a little more observant n work on my memory. n thanks for always taking the effort to be there for me too! n thanks for understanding n all the intellectual discussions!

joyceh:
thanks girl! u've been a really great pal n bball team mate n friend! i love dino! family outing soon okiez.. maybe this time i'll bring pen n paper ard trying to remember facts.. haha just kidding! thanks!!

rah:
i prefer to call ya rah.. cuz tee is ur family name.. sounds as if i'm calling ur entire clan! haha.. n its not ur fault for the break in the tag lar.. its mokey's fault! haha jus kidding( or tarzan mite cum after me for bullying his monkey)! haha thanks for the lovely tag.. i love the illustration that u used n seriously, u got me thinking girl.. love ya too! (at this moment my dog just farted on my lap.. chou si ren le!) n yeapz.. like i told octy, i'll try to not get too frustrated with myself n ease tension against myself! haha.. thanks!!!

mokey:
u n rah blog at perfect timing for competition manz! haha.. yeapz.. i understand! thanks mokey! yeah guess in that aspect.. only we can understand each other best! imperfect life, but having friends like all of u make it seem perfect!

min:
yeapz i definitely am very lucky to have many good friends who care n understand! including u! really appreciate all of u! thus i'm gonna make sure í will treasure each of ya even more! anyway dun worry k.. my problems are minute.. n besides its like a daily routine i got used to.. haha really.. only that i wanted to get everythign off my chest(not breast).. n yeapz.. if i really needa shout or scream i'll call up any1.. maybe every1! haha

as i typed this, i have snaffee snuggled up on my lap looking at me, 1 paw on my heart, as if trying to say that she understands. i'm truly blessed. the only negative aspect was that she just polluted my room with her smelly fart. haha thanks every1 for the concern! i'm definitely feeling better already!

thanks!

truly blessed.

bad friend.

i realise how unobservant i am. i've terribly failed joanna's n joyceh test. i'm v sorry!

well, it just shows that i'm a terrible friend who cannot even remembers clearly about facts and stuff about my friends. n that they are just super good souls who actually cares abt my insignificant existence n make it marvellous.

it just makes me feel like a self centred bitch.

makes me wonder abt how undeserving i am for having such good pals and friends who actually takes the effort to remember my bdae, to know the types of music i enjoy etc. i appologise for being such an disgraceful, individualistic, insignificant person. yet ur regarded me as ur fren. its my fortune to have u all as my friends.

i shld go n talk to the wall. maybe the wall doesnt wanna talk to me. i shld talk to my dog, but she is too good for me.

companion echo-ing within.