Thursday, February 24, 2005

elated surprises.

reaccount the 23rd feb'2005.

12am. she will be loved by maroon 5 filled up the silence in my room. d photo of dori flashed up across my hp.. jm! picked up the phone n the familiar voice with happy birthday came thru! the beeping of my msn messenger- powderpuff boy + monkey + jm + several more! my memory is failing! ryan crabera's true sang as well, eryan + kj + kristin! THANKS!

6am. usha + kj sms received! more greetings! received the mail days b4 n had to resist frm temptation n open that morn! i'm a good gurl who listen to instruction cuz the envelop strictly written in bold to be open only on 23rd! n the cute picture of a kitten with voucher greeted me! haha its time to shop! n i need to shop! hahahaz... thanks couz!! followed after was an in flux of more sms-es of greetings! spend my bus ride jabbing on my hp key pad!

7am. the radio reminded me that its my chi bdae as well.. the chinese VALENTINES day! hahaz.. i was listening a soothing song that cheers as i walked towards the class. peered in frm the back through the windows.... only darkness greeted me. no sense of life as i looked for the usual early birds like imran n char n sarah.. but the sleeping tables n chairs stays. disturbed the silence as i reached for the keys.. walked to the door following the sootheness of the music and turned the door knob.

the thin rays of light form the figures against the darkness of the classroom towering low next to the door.. with beady eyes. my eyes widen, taking sum time to absorb the different information, n a blast of "HAPPY BIRTHDAY!" jumped at me! cld feel my eyes widen to maximum capacity (yes it prob still looks v small..)! and as if the artist put its pen at work in immediacy and painted the picture my eyes carries by colours, the figures were clear as my brain tried to identify, but b4 anithing cld be done.. i was chased by a series of spiders pouring out of the door with their cans of "crazy ribbons" as if going after my life, out to immobilize me! dashed to the corners at the other end with screams b4 my heavy bag slowed down my steps and i succumbed to the series of webs shooting out at me, engulfing me. not forgettin how jaimes almost blinded me, as if i wasnt observant enough, with his can going straight for my eyes. but all was well. the scene ended with a stunned, elated petrified selina standing next to the wall with colours of streaks wrapped ard me, trapping me on the spot. the predators has got its prey.

at least my predators were nice, with good intentions. haha they helped remove the "crazy ribbons" off my hair, shoes n all over me.. allowing me to walk. n along came hari with his broom n help to sweep up all the "crazy ribbons" that spread past 2 classrooms and our lovely little garden next to the class.

next, showed into the class. i walked in.. wow! i didnt know where to look first.. my eyes scattered arounf lookin for the focus to land on.. but it was overwhealmed by colours and delight! flags that says "happy selina day!", white board that greets, colours juz ran into my eyes leaving my mind no time at all to focus n notice! haha i think i uttered a comment of lost in excitement and they showed me the point of concentration. mountain high donuts surrounded my mochi with 1 big candle on it! the most unique birthday cake ever!

it felt like a reverie, a reverie that i never expected! blew the candles n off every1 go munching on the colourful donuts. strawberries, chocolates, colourful stuff sprinkled! wow! the first time where i didnt haf to cut cake n pple can happily munch! n melted mochi which was still good n provided us with the smudge-the-cake-on-the-others-faces fun! i felt like a celebrity of my reverie, except this was more than a reverie.

den monkey and rah rah presented me with a big big bag.. n looney toons babies greeted my eyes! it was so adorable!!! but we had to clear up and run for assembly b4 gettin sent for maintenance again! so off we went.. but the thing under the cute looneys are even more irresistable!

making full use of my fingers and applied the most gentle motion i can manage to slowly remove the large amt of scotch tapes that sealed the looney coverings. and when i finally removed all of it making sure the wrapper is still almost flawless, the black with blue strips fila bag glowed out of the wrappers. it was beautiful! n i really wanted a sling!! n they insisted i open the bag for more.. with caution( i was afraid a stupid monkey will pop out n scare me), i slowly open the bag and peeped in, finding the kakashi soft toy semi stuffed into an extremely big milk bottle! hahaz.. super adorable!!! judith will be super jealous if she knows it! it was so cute (but of cuz.. its kakashi)! haha n this kakashi has good n bad hair days! super funny!!! n not forgettin the invitation card to country mania! haha i really duno when to go!! hmz... after cts ok every1?? =)

i wanna say ten thousand billions thanks to all my 2t09 pals!! esp pple who help to org n planned it..! n monkey + rah rah + char + jaimes + yt!! who came so early in the morn! n yt having to stand on the table n risk being seen by me but i was so blur i didnt notice, n monkey who definitely had big prob trying to wake up.. n all who stayed up late!!!! thanks!!!! ooh.. n not forgettin hari for sweeping! hahaz.. thankyou!!!

ooh... n the day went past in a swift.. with them complaining of my cold n super lame comments but forgiving me cuz its my big day! hahaz... ooh n every1 who wished me alll ard the sch!!! n angela for giving me the butterfly who is deeply attached to her! hahaz.. i left it on the flower next to the sch pond which is also next to my class!! thanks!!!! the day in sch flew past me... n b4 i know it.. time to meet the team at the foyer to leave for match! n thanks rah rah for helpin me pack my stuff n trying to cram everything inside the new bag cuz my old bag juz cldnt fit!! haha thanks!!

reached the foyer n hang ard with loadsa wishing frm them! n i had to rush to the toilet cuz of nature call! n came back looking for my water bottle to quench my thirst.. n started diggin in the new bag.. when i saw something white. i reached for it.. n picked it up.. n it was another present! i was wondering who left it there n ask ard but debra gave me the "i really dont know" expression and daisy faked me saying its really not them! haha but in the end kj revealed the truth! thanks!!! it was a super bright green nike dry fit t-shirt that says "prepare for landing"! i love it! hahaz... thank you all of u! thanks joyceh for all the effort in choosing n buying n makin the beautiful card!!! thanks all of ya!! n kj for wishing me happy bdae loadsa times! hahahaz

ooh n eryan gave me the naruto cards! guanyin ma is super cute! hahahz.. thanks!!! n pls take care okiez! esp of ur knee and fever! so we all proceeded to srjc n had loadsa fun in the bus.. though it made us kinda bus sick....

to me.. the match is a gift, though not victorious but i really appreciate all the effort put in! it was great pleasure c-ing that every1 improve as the time ticks away and we all try our best to defend n attack, even greater pleasure to notice improvements! dont be discouraged cuz we juz learnt the new defence.. we juz needa work on it n improve as a team ok! jia you every1!

half way through the match i though i saw bing n yt n pee sittin at the side! hahaz.. surprised me!!! but pardon me cuz i dun like to get distracted during matches so didnt go n say hi! oohz... n the team had to sing happy bdae song super loundly in srjc puttin me in a totally embarassing situation!!! but thanks!!! haha really enjoyed the match n times with u all!!!

n to my surprise.. twin came... n along with JM!!! i totally didnt expect that!!!! thanks!!!! ooh.. n they gave me round 2.. of the feeling of prey... at srjc!!! total embarassment i wished i cld dig a hole out as i was being attacked!! hahah but i really appreciate it!! though v paisehz!!! haha but all the embarassment are considered in a positive ways ok! haha though i rather not haf that kind of attention esp at other pples sch!!!! i'm shy! hahahhaz.... n yt! thanks for the bouquet!! thanks for the book mark! i really loved it! though i was abit lost with the rose so i left it to my mom! hahaz.. n pee! thanks for the cute little pot with loadsa choclairs n chocs!! hahahz.. thanks all of ya for making a trip all the way down!!!

ooh n i saw out mac donalds frenz there at srjc! managed to catch up with them n all! haha n exchanged no.!! yayz! n we watched the guys match.... hmz.. that was quite an infuriating affair. i was super angry at the total bias referee, the non sportsmanship of the pple. i refuse to elaborate as it will spark me into moments of redness, pure anger. hope all players are fine n not injured!

hmz.. den guess who came all the way to srjc too? haha dear rah rah! joined us for chomp chomp! like what bing said, rah rah n cow dong are really there to "chomp chomp" the whole place down! ahahaz.. super funny! the food made me so bloated i felt i cld explode!! ate so much!! but we all had fun! chomp chomp-ing and having fun!!!

n the jouney home.. haha we hafta tell every1 the direction n sarah had to help me cuz i needed to accompany jm to get her stuff! den twin + rah rah + jm + me had to take 73 home! n the bus ride was fun rubb1sh-ing abt too! with twin missing his bus stop due to the attractive manga he was engrossed in! hahaz...

the night my mom came home later den me.. n hafta make fun of me too! hahaz.. n steal my chocolates! haha but yt! i protected the ones u gave me! n joyceh ones frm vdae too! bu she de eat! hahahz.

ooh.. n at 11.55pm.. i received a call frm a joker.. who went "happy birthday" n his nex line was "havent reached 12 o'clock yet!!!" hahahhz.. sent me into hilarious laughters! thanks for remembering every1!! thanks for the greetings! n twin ended with the last to greet me at 11.58pm! thanks every1!!

ooh i typed so much i shld end! hahaz.. sorry for the length pple! needa go study for my cts already! take care every1!! n thanks for everythign! i think it IS the most elated surprising n happiest day of my life!! thanks for all the effort!!!! love ya all lots!!! study hard!!

Monday, February 21, 2005

Tired n sch is killing.

lets c.. i had 2 lit essayz, bnw + prac crit to complete. n i squeezed my dried brain for it. n not forgettin maths assignment.. which i haf only finished 1 out of loads. actually... the 1 is not finished yet. oh well.

there was chingay.
filled with ups n downs.. but i prefer to forget the "downs". well.. i made frenz! =) n i muz thank cheryl for accompanying me home! hahaz.. cuz i dun really like to be alone.. esp at night. oh! n the highlight is of cuz the dance party! finally joined the familiar faces of t9 n t8 n arts pple! n jo will say we boogie! hahaz but dancing with them was marvellous! n then there was like 3/4 of the team there! hahaz.. we rawk! haha lets go over to 1's room n boogie more okiez! i know joyceh n i will haf our share! n gosh i do realise how joyceh n mira n olivie n monkey n serene can move their ass so seductively!!

almost forgot the match.
bad play.. but i really hope no1 gets discourage. i felt quite sad how my headache suddenly haunted me like neva b4.. felt like i was a burden suddenly to the team. hope i can make it up on the nex match. i know pple all lost the mood. all lack the goal to win. but i juz hope we will all work hard.. esp for the tough opponent that is not easy to defeat in kl waiting for us. pls try ur best k! i believe we can do better. n remember team is not abt individual.. but all of us workin hard together! jia you ( add loadsa oil) okie! i wanna win srjc match. i hope it will be a gift on that supposedly special day of mine.

n monkey! how is ur injuries now? feeling better? i packed the gauze thing into my bag already cuz scared i forget abt it! do take care k! i help u to bandage tml! feel kinda bad.. i need new shoes. suitable for my feet, bball game, n FIT my feet.

JM! thanks for the dinner! i miss times with ya! haha our times alone where we crap n all. hahaz.. n i love the neoprint!! so cute!! thanks for the treat! hope to cyaz soon gurl! n take loadsa care! =)

gotta rush maths. will TRY to update soon! take care every1! n pls return to class soon.

Monday, February 14, 2005

Engulfed.

Conquered. Victory as i towered
I caught them by surprise.
Shock, fear, exasperation,
Only I, sense their desperation.

Selfish fish mongers
Attempts to run far
Innocent child clings or lost
I swept them all away.

Was I really monstrous?
I only wanted to revenge
My poor friends in living hell
Were they given a choice?

We provide and share
The beauty and life
But you tore, rip, suck and destroy
Who will save us?

My family and friends shed tears
Their beloved's lives endangers
I thought you all cared
Facade, selfcentred, betraying creatures.

My reputation tarnished
Term as "killer"
But I hope you all learnt and cherish
The precious relationships of nature.

happy valentines!

shall we dance rocks!! i love that show! sexy! the male lead looks super charming even though he is rather old! i wanna buy the vcd!! its prob the best vdae movie eva for any couple! hahaz but i watched it with twin n yt! it rawks!

made up my mind. i'm gonna learn ballroom dancing after my a's. salsa too! kekez... to those who didnt get to watch.. no worries! i'm gonna get the vcd! cuz my mom wanna watch too! hahaz movie marathon after cts k? i bought save the last dance too

aniwae to the monkey! take care k... cough n cough n cough.. so poor thing... sick monkey! dun overwork urself! study but not too hard! sit at home n pluck fleas also good.. but rest more k... dun fall off the tree though! not a pleasant sight at all..

thanks for the vdae prezzie every1! i love them!! thanks!!! now figurin out where to like put all the things.... includin the chocs. shld i fit into my stomach? hahaz.. but i'll prob grow fat! hmz.. think i'll eat it over the days! =)

Saturday, February 12, 2005

bloodless Pain.
smack! the nurse
sends the baby into tears
the stinging that results
to tears n wailing howls.

blackness that gather
pls rub with tender.
ouch! a lump rises
forming a minute everest.

crack! announces the ankle
darkness makes unstable
radioactive that does not ease
allow the pain to cease.

broken, fracuture.
no wonder the tears rapture
the cast accompanies
restricted reveries.

Ropes went around the heart
tug, pull, wrench, strangle
gushes red; intriguing
memories eternal.

stingings that warns
the unbearable reminds
no medicine will cure
only time can heal.

Thursday, February 10, 2005

chinese new yr!

first wanna thank every1 for the concern on tag! been rather busy so aint able to update etc.. sorry! n wanna wish every1 har-pie chinese new yr!

life's been busy but much betta. reunion dinner was successful.. n we not only had 1.. but twice at our house. worked more than i ate. but didnt haf the appetite aniwae. snaffee was out with us visiting for both days with her red scarf n her big red bell. hahaz.. ding dang ding dang away. guess this sundae will be the 3rd reunion dinner over at OUR hse again.

oh yeah! thanks twin, yt, jun, pee and bean for accompanying me do reunion shoppin n make a trip to candy empire! u all rawkz! thanks!! or i wld hafta shop like crazy all by myself. hahaz.

oohz.. n i tried the vodka absolute. 40% alcohol. realise my level of tolerance for liquor increased. hahaz.. that is if i take sips.. i can actually last. mixed absolute with f&n orange n its kinda cool. had a good slp after that! i needed that.

supposed to be at another aunts hse but guess my family is juz too tired. this yr no mahjong, no gambling. juz yest night sittin in front of the tv with mom n munching on cny goodies n nuts, drinkin vodka absolute. hahaz.. we haven had such relaxation in a loooooooong time!

*yawnz* i only wanna slp now.

i wanna watch shall we dance n constantine.

Saturday, February 05, 2005

cute rubb1sh palz.


beloved class.


cute monkey.


whispering char.


pig nose im.


cute eryan!


after training.


pig on bus. or is it monkey? hahaz

stupidity.

sorry to all who i've caused great disturbance during mathz class... but its one thing that brings me great frustration. maybe its cuz of my retardedness.

aching all over. lack slp. need slp. sch have been such a torture. whatz a holiday when exams, homework and text to catch up is storming in circles around my minute brain? my horrendous memory juz cant forget that.

sumtimez i wish mom puts things in a more appropriate tone. sumtimez i wish she was more understanding. studying isnt that easy though it may seem to be. dad's work may seem more relaxing but its tiring in its own way too. i know she's also tired. we all tried to make the home beautiful. though not perfect, we r learning, trying. we need time.

i know i'm stupid. i cant cope with many things. i cannot get many things right. but i'm still trying to learn. i really want to finish my studies to be a social worker. i wish they will stop saying discouraging words. its not gonna make me work harder.. it depresses. i already know i'm stupid n not suitable for studies.

well.. pple all haf their weaknesses. she is a great mom. he tries to be a good dad. i'm working hard to be a good daughter. i know i'm horrible at it.

pushing myself harder to cover up for my stupidity.

i'm optimistic.

i wish i had less responsibilities. i wish pple will stop quarrelling(where the unhappiness will result to hate). if it helps, i'd rather pile the responsibilities onto myself.

Thursday, February 03, 2005

busy week.

i'm tired. been doing class notice board. having trainings. sounds super no life rite? hahaz ok lar... at least this week got highlight.. like cross counrty.

think can considered i'm havin neutral feeling with myself. its roughly my constant timing.. cuz 3.6km will usually take me abt 22.33mins n i took 24.10mins for cross country.. gurlz ran 4.2km. so estimating... i took abt what i will expect myself to. came in 22nd. i know pple tellin me its wasted cuz top 20 get prizes... but i wasnt really expectin anithing.. all that matters is that i did my best. no worries.. i'm not upset or anithin abt it k. in fact quite glad with my timing. =)

rushed the cny lantern with class todae.. hahaz.. fun in its own way i guess...

nex wk is cny. to all those sick n resting (char, cher n rah rah) pls rest well n take care! no worries abt sch work! to the rest.. pls take care! dun wan ani1 to fall sick. meanwhile.. i needa go catch sum slp. will update soon.. i hope. nitez.....

pss... naruto 120 anime is out! rawkz.