emotionz-> feel like sharing...
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lemme share with ya sumthin... tellin u peepz so 4 those who dunno abt this will now understand.. haha the actual reason that i'm still single is that i dun believe in luv...

the luv i meant is not anithin like frenship luv n all.. but bgr type of luv.. marriage luv.. i dun realli believe in that.. sounds realli stupid ritez.. cuz at this age every1 juz wanna get a bf.. wish to get a bf.. wanna haf sum1 who trueli loves them.. but i dun believe in this..

i think itz cuz of family.. or maybe itz not onli think.. it is cuz of family that i'm like that.. all the guyz in my family closest to me dun gif me gd impression of being gd boyfrenz.. gd husbandz.. n neither are they gd fatherz.. they sux in all these rolez n they excelz in being flirtz.. at least to me.. itz lidat...

not that i completely dun trust guyz.. in fact.. ironicalli.. many of them are my realli close buddyz like simon n wuhao n brotherz.. n all.. sum knowz me betta den many of my gurl frenz.. know itz farnie cuz i alwayz nudge at whoevaz nex to me n hintz if i c a gd lookin guy/gurl.. hahaz though mozli is gurl ( like Boa is completey hot!!!) but dun worry.. i'm purr-fectli straight.. hahahaz

yeahz.. so when i meet guyz i'm not like thinkin "ohz.. will this guy be my potential bf blah blah blah" cuz to me.. the guyz are juz like my buddyz.. i rather them be my buddyz den be bf material cuz bf go honey tok.. n lotza hua yan qiao yu.. n i think many of my frenz r right.. i miss out a lot by not wantin a bf.. but i get hurt less.. n i rather keep it that wae.. i wont be lonely cuz i haf SNAFFEE! hahahahz...

so fer those who are deepli in luv n believes in love.. i am realli glad ur believe in it.. cuz itz loadsa sweetness though accompanied with hurtful stuff.. but usualli the sweetness makez up fer it.. at least thatz what frenz tell me.. so ur hafta ctd to believe in luv n ur partnarz.. hahahz.. i dun think singapore will wan so many old hagz like me.. even though ur make v chio n nice onez! hahahaz

haha so conclusion.. i wont like a guy so easily.. unless he can convinced me out of my stupid believes.. which is darn difficult cuz i'm darn stubborn! hahaz.. so.. i'm REMAININ SINGLE! hahahahaz... though sum did manage to make me budge abit.. but nahz.. i still went back to the original me.. hahaz.. so now ur know..

i like makin frenz.. cuz i juz enjoyed it.. i am close to many guyz buddyz not cuz i like them as their bf material but they make realli gd buddyz to me.. n i like makin frenz with guyz cuz moz of them r straightforward.. n my personality abit guy like so i "click" betta with many of them more then i can "click" wif the gurlz... sorry gurlz frenz.. but those whom are my gurl palz.. i click with ur too! hahhaz.. juz differentli.. but i treasure the wae i click with my gurl palz as well as my guyz buddyz... Love u peepz lotz!

emotioz-> no feelingz..
dunno y... but suddenli i haf no feelingz towards stuff.. sundae got cip with bball matez.. mon got match with seniorz.. n 4th got another match.. suddenli no excitement.. no fear.. no emotionz.. itz scary.. feels as if i'm a machine..

the thingz runnin in my head is juz a schedule.. n i onli feel abt dance.. as fer the match.. i onli know my brain is telling me i hafta keep practising.. i hafta practise shooting.. i hafta make myself useful.. thinkin abt the match make me feel like workin on my bball technique.. instead of feeling like i wanna do well cuz i wan to.. i feel as if i needa do well so i will not get blamed.. i know i not supposed to think this wae.. but it juz cumz.. *shrugz* ... n i think i know y...

i'm the kinda person that will make sure i wont regret aft i made a decision.. i think thatz the thing that realli keep me going.. i remembered my ambition.. or rather my wish to join jitterbugz n be a dancer on stage.. lookz like itz kinda difficult now.. cuz hardli got time to cope.. n i know i'm pushin myself v hard.. but i alwayz question myself.. did i improve? i hope i did.. but i feel i can do betta.. so i gonna work more..

i'm broke.. feel like going to jitterbugz n wu's studio to do dance.. but no $ n no 1 accompany me.. i wanna do modern dance.. i miss modern dance.. darn.. shld i join the dance club nex yr.. n cope with bball at the same time? i think i shldnt ehz.. if i do that i may juz wear my health out.. hhahaz.. on this eat less plan.. to lose weight cuz now gain too much liaoz.. no more chipz.. dun bloat myself up with too much food.. n keep training! hahahaz.. like sum sadist lidat.. but i dun care liaoz..

dunno y.. keep gettin sum strange dreamz nowadaez.. 1 nightmare.. farnie but stupid nightmare.. 3rd nightmare in my entire life.. S-C-A-R-Y! Yikez.. either that or haf strange dreamz.. but alwayz cannot realli remember the dream when i woke up.. wonderin if there is hidden meaningz behindz the dreamz..

luckily got all my frenz there to keep me sane n filled with emotionz! hahaz.. or tell u.. i realli feel lika a darn machinez.. or rather a "persocon" of the chobitz series.. got no. 6 fer my bball shirt.. was given 4 n 6 to choose frm.. so of cuz i take 6.. my lucki no.... hahaz.. no. 6 like actualli fer the gd playerz.. but i not.. den take tt no. v stress.. hahhahaz.. we gettin shirt instead of jerseyz.. though i actualli preferred the jersey.. but well.. itz onli sumthin to wear... hope my mom doesnt distort the shirt when washing.. hahahaz..

emotionz-> a day of HAPPINESS!
haha i've neva had so much fun fer a realli long time! suddenli i found my lost self.. i regained completeli to my cheerful n optimistic selina.. n itz all cuz of my dear palz.. haha all the stuff we did todae was crazy.. MAD... but FUN! haha

we went to sentosa todae though itz rainin the whole dae.. went to macz at harbour front fer breakfast... felt so good to c marian, jia min n madeline! went to palawan beach n realise the bridge there got water skiing going on! damn funki.. hahaz.. den we played in the water! haha swim to the platform n helped jiamin there like how yantong n i did.. but it was kinda easier with jm cuz maybe it wasnt so deep! haha felt so great when we helped each other up the platform.. cuz therez no ladder.. n it was like realli all of us tuggin n pushin to get up! hahaha damn fun! n ate the speg marian brought n the agar agar mad made! DELICIOUS! hahaz i luv home made food! den went to play volleyball with sum strangerz.. fun but malu cuz we dunno how to play! hahhahaz

ok n we took loadsa pic in between! finished 1 roll plus of film at sentosa! hahhaha den went to town n took NEO PRINTZ! haha n met Simon! he FINALLY CUT HIS HAIR! he look much betta that wae! n I cldnt stop luffin! cuz he in his business stuff n he look SO GROWN UP! hahaz.. gave me a shock.. but he looked good.. den went fer dinner at mos buger! haha n decided to finish up the 2nd roll of film! so guess what? we did the WHACKIEST stuff eva! we walked ard orchard n took loadsa pic! n had lotza fun though was realli tired...

we walked frm cine to taka.. cross the rd to paragon.. took underground back to wisma.. n to lido.. n while we were at our laz few shotz.. at the white xmas tree.. we got sum lady to help us take photo n sumthin MIRACULOUS happened.. juz went the lady "clicked" the camera.. we saw "snow" (itz actualli foam) cumin down frm above.. it was like at the precise moment! i hope the photo will turn out realli nice! manz.. it felt so great.. so fated.. so nice...n so warm... it felt like family..

aft that we tried to finish the filmz.. so i had a whacky suggestionz.. got them to get onto the lido escalator n made them go the other was to cum down while i took photo of them from the other escalator! hope it cumz out nice too! hahahaz.. cant wait to go develop the photoz!

i luv todae! so fun! 72 photoz.. loadsa whacki stuff.. juz the few gd frenz.. marian, jm, mad, simon n me! neva had so much whacko stuff n fun fer a realli long time.. THANX peepz.. THANX! sorry fer the long entry but i realli want to pen my happiness down todae.. i thank god fer lettin me know all these palz.. thank god for lettin me get into OI n know them.. thank god their my classmatez.. n thank god that they r such fantastic buddyz! I LUV UR! *MUAKZ*

notez: thanx every1.. thanx angelica fer the advise.. n thanx fer sharing ur perspective.. thanx rach.. thanx fer caring.. thanx yt.. thanx fer the repeated guaranteez.. thanx ben.. fer the sumthin u mentionz though itz prob extracted frm sumwhere.. hahaz but itz realli nice.. n yeahz i agree with it.. gonna put it at the rubbishism link.. thanx every1.. i'm feelin much betta already.. back to my optimistic me.. sorry fer makin ur worry.. realli sorry...


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emotionz-> confused me..
i took a long time to decide to write.. was actualli thinkin of closing it down.. had so much going through me recentli.. sumtimez i qn whether if i am doing the right thingz.. sumtimez i juz wanna shut up cuz i'm not so good with words.. n for frenz that dun know me that will alwayz misunderstand me....

maybe mom is right.. i cum up with too many excuses for my frenz.. as in like.. when they ignore me at timez.. maybe itz juz cuz they had a bad dae.. if they decide to ask every1 else but me.. maybe itz cuz they know i hafta study.. etc etc.. now i'm startin to question.. r these frenship real? when they haf no1 they cum to me.. n sumtimez when they found otherz.. suddenli ur like non existence..

maybe itz cuz i've finalli experienced true frenship.. as in even though they are not my best fren.. but we maintain at very gd frenz relation even if we can bareli meet.. well itz like they understand i'm busy n know i'm sum1 who haf a strong sense of responsibility.. thus they try to make their schedule flexible to fit into my tight onez.. they alwayz make my dae by makin sure i know i'm remembered by them alwayz.. even if itz juz as simple as a sms or a msg online.. they alwayz make my dae.. well in case ur guessin who i referrin to.. itz of cuz my frenz at oi.. like jia min, marian, simon n wuhao.. n even zahid n adzree for makin the effort to find me in friendster.. n therez ij-ianz like marianne n martina! miz u peepz lotz n lotz.. n of cuz.. aileen..

actualli being in cjc had itz enjoyable momentz.. but i hafta sae.. i had one of my worst experience in it.. suddenli i feel as if i relived the "nitemare" i experienced in pri 2/3 the horrible ballet class where i alwayz ended up in tearz.. cuz of frenship.. i feel the same now.. but now i alwayz hold back my tearz.. but it feelz gd to know that my oi frenz are there.. they make me realise the prescence of fantastic n not so gd palz.. though i know i might also fall into the not so gd palz category.. but i'm trying.. trying...

felt as if i degraded in personality.. n mom alwayz sae itz cuz of the not so gd frenz i mix with.. n i alwayz end up quarellin with her.. cuz i believe my frenz may haf faultz but are good in general.. maybe this is going to be my last entry.. i dunno.. it all depends.. maybe i will wait till i'm more cheered up den i update.. cuz i feel the blog thing.. actualli made my life worst.. made me think too much.. made me life to be too evolved ard it..

for those takin ao mathz paper.. all d bez.. n those takin supplementary paper too.. n every one pls take care... stay happy n smilez alwayz!

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note: look at this song in termz of frenship n life.. this song juz catches my attention... maybe cuz itz how i feel.. what i wanna sae... what i realli need *shurgz*

Running, by no doubt
Run
Running all the time
Running to the future
With you right by my side

Me
I'm the one you chose
Out of all the people
You wanted me the most
I'm so sorry that I'm falling
Help me up lets keep on running
Don't let me fall out of love

[Chorus:]
Running, running
As fast as we can
I really hope you make it
(Do you think we'll make it?)
We're running
Keep holding my hand
It's so we don't get separated

Be
Be the one I need
Be the one I trust most
Don't stop inspiring me
Sometimes it's hard to keep on running
We work so much to keep it going
Don't make me want to give up

[Repeat chorus twice]

(The future)

[Repeat chorus]

emotionz-> y am i in such dilemma...
sumtimez i wonder.. if onli i didnt do that well in o's.. i will now be in poly.. doing business IT.. or maybe even in animation course.. or sumthin.. n not in the current situation.. i feel like am i chess piece thatz got stuck.. that has no where to move as the opponent n my own other chess pieces are blockin my way surrounding me in all directions.. n now.. i can onli wait fer them to MOVE!

well.. retainin is not that difficult.. the prob is changin subject.. if i cannot change to c mathz.. i dun wanna retain... even if my mom forces me to or whateva.. cuz i know i will not get aniwhere.. i juz know.. was thinkin of going to SRJC.. but mom dont allow.. she sae she will rather me go JI.. which i dun c the logic in it.. or she sae she will sell everythin to send me overseas so she dunnit to c me.. *shrugz*

i'm thinkin of poly.. but i know my parents will neva pay fer my poly fees.. guess i will hafta work if i wanna go.. den theres the choice of la selle or NAFA.. but datz my laz resort.. i realli dunno.. maybe mom has to c bro paul to let me change subject.. but the prob is will she get persuaded by bro paul to make me take the same combi? i dun wanna that to happen.. guess i can onli take 1 step at a time...*sighz*

u knowz.. aft i cum jc.. it makez me open up my small eyes n c the hypocitical side of pple.. the jealousy in pple.. the competitiveness in pple.. d ambitious type of pple.. n d extremeli selfish type.. suddenli i live in fear.. i dunno who i can trust.. n i hafta admit.. i'm scared... Angela's testimonial in my friendster lemme realise.. i realli am too protected by my own little world.. i still am.. shld i get out of it? if yes, How?

i feel stranded.. thats the word.. STRANDED

Note: sorry abt yest rubbish.. i deleted it.. yeahz.. aniwae.. life is picking up again.. at least thatz what i'm hopin fer... at least i didnt screw up my pw oral presentation... all the best for urz peepz!